Mood: down
Jessica you are still prolly the only one from that part of my life i would still try and keep an open relationship with and go out with. Simply because you have made a great contribution to me through that year (well half), almost like an angel on your shoulder. You prolly with out even knowing it made me get over Tina, my dream recollection of my nightmarish childhood, and most of all my self.
Over the period i was gone from Dakota you non stop ran through my mind image after image after image,you were there but you were gone. after the realization of me never seeing you again by staying on the computer all day and night waiting for you to come on. After about 1 or 2 months i had a horrible reality to face, it was that i lost you forever. It sent me into turmoil cause at the time i was not as wise to problems as i am today. I didn't want to face it, so i went into depression got drunk every chance i could Bacardi 151 was my fav. choice. Then you come online, i was sent into a shock like yes finally i can see her again! But no reality once again destroyed my fantasy image of life.
Most of the time i talked to you i was drunk or buzzed, depressed or happy,sad or joking which i feel made me lose you even more. 1 month or 2 passed no sign of you i was still drinking my sorrows away. You came online once again aimed me at the same time i was involved with my ex-girlfriend Asia and had i love you Asia in my profile. Now i will never forget what came next you asked me who's Asia i told you, you asked me if she was Asian i laughed and said no she was black.
Then i never heard from you again. A couple months later i soon started to face reality and began a metamorphosis to who i am today.