In Loving Memory of
Debra's 12 yr old husky/chow mix
Died December 5th 2007
dx osteosarcoma October 2007.
I wanted to take a minute to thank all of you that took that
extra minute to remember Missy and I. It hasn't been 24 hrs yet but
it seems like days and days. Of course all of us know how badly we
hurt and that there are no words to describe the pain and the loss
we feel. Missy had a peaceful passing and a wonderful tribute to her
as many friends came to be with her and me before she was put down.
Of course it was very traumatic but I was so grateful that friends
took the time in the nasty weather to say goodbye to her.
Missy just two days before she died.
And Debra's earlier post to endlesslove group when Missy was
This is to everyone who has shared concern with me and MY
MISSY. After experiencing days of depression and trying to race
ahead of time for her, beating myself up over what decision would be
the best, I have made a decision that I believe is the right one for
Missy and myself. I have to admit I didn't come to this alone, one
member in particular gave me her undivided attention in every
aspect, and through her heart-felt wisdom to me, I was then able to
realize the difference between the hurt I was experiencing and the
realistic issue at hand for Missy. Just a few days ago I had more
xrays of her chest and pelvic area and up-to-date bloodwork done,
hoping to set myself up for an appt. with an oncologist, but, when
the xrays revealed she also had spots in the chest as well, seeing
that the tumor was surpressing her bladder(which the bladder was not
visibly seen) and her ability to move her bowels easily, and that
the tumor was also spread over to the bone/hip area, Missy just
wouldn't be a good candidate for the extensive surgery she would
have to endure. I haven't given up on her and whatever I can do to
possibly slow down the cancer/tumor growth I will.
Right now Missy isn't acting sick, she eats, plays a little,
still climbs my many steps, urinating and moving her bowels due to a
change in her diet. When she begins to change those things I will
know. I wasn't wasting time trying to get to specialists and all,
but, I was also taking away the time her and I could use to enjoy
what time is left for her.
She is one deramaax, 1/2 tab daily, I have tramadol but she
doesn't seem to like that much, she gets 2 tablets of maalox to help
with her bowels, 3tabs of pepcid a day, 1teaspoon of metamucil in
her food. I also have her on supplements such as milk thistle,
gloucosimine/condriotin with MSM, omego 3&6, flexamin, DLPA
anti- inflammatory ect.. I have changed her diet to ground beef,
chicken, alittle brown rice, broccoli and cauliflower and egg. I
also have holistic can food by Wellness with chicken and salmon.
I hope all understands my decision and I will keep you posted.
When Missy leaves me I want her to leave in dignity , the same as I
would want for myself. Don't mistake that my heart hurts very badly
knowing I will have to accept her absence, but, her and I had a
great life together for almost 12 yrs, and, her little companion
Angel, who is 2 will be here to help me through , and, of course,
all of you.
In time to come I will want to get a little more involved with
this organization with time and effort to assist in research
projects and fund raisers. I may be getting a little ahead of
myself, but, I want to give back a little of what this membership
has done for me.
Prayers for Missy as all I ask is that she has a peaceful way
ahead. Maybe and hopefully she will be around for a while longer
Thank you from the bottom of my heart, Debra
for Debra's new puppy, Nika
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