sometimes i am just not sure what to do , i mean i think that i am in love with the man that i have been with for the past 2 years.. but sometime i feel like he might just get in the way of me doing things that i want to do in my life.. what is that supposed to mean? i know that he wouldn't have a problem with leaving me, and doing his own thing.. but i think that i am more in love with him then he is with me.. maybe he's gay.. hehe.. i mean i am awesome.. who whouldn't want to love me? who wouldn't want to spend time with me and touch me and hold me and take care of me?.. maybe someone someday.. or maybe never.. i just want to figure out my life..