| *email* Are you ok? I'm worried about you. Call me whenever you want, even if it's the middle of the night. Please don't feel guilty about what happened. It was my fault. It was just the perfect moment and I had to take it. A moment like that doesn't come around very often. I hope you don't regret it. I know that this whole situation is already very complicated without me making it worse by saying what I'm about to say, but I just really feel like I need to let you know. I don't want to be just friends anymore. And I'm sorry that you probably feel pulled in two different directions right now. I just want to be there for you. I want you to keep trusting me. It's your decision, and regardless of what you choose I still want to be a part of your life even if just friends. I don't know how B will react, he might hate me for awhile, but you're just to special not to try for. I don't want this to feel like I'm trying to take his place, or compete against him. I think that it helps that I am away at school for most of the week. It will give him some space and time to cool off. I'm really sorry that he has pushed you away, he has done basically the same to me. We have fought like this before. Not the same issue, but just where we haven't spoken for a while over various disagreements. It was all worked out in time then, and I believe it will be the same now. This might sound silly, but I miss you. I know I just saw you the other day, but I can't stop thinking about you and especially the way it felt to kiss you. You tasted like eggnog by the way. If I get to come home this weekend can I see you? I hope yes. Remember, call me or email whenever you want. Especially if you are feeling bad - let me help you. |