I hate breaking a promise; this is why I'm trying very hard not to cut right now. *IM* frowning.smile - in love with my sadness <3 says: (1:50:42 PM) u on? Depressed Little Girl - Cripple In The Making says: (1:51:06 PM) depends what you mean, MSN, yes, my period, no :P:P frowning.smile - in love with my sadness <3 says: (1:51:46 PM) errr...lucky that i meant msn then Depressed Little Girl - Cripple In The Making says: (1:51:59 PM) lol you okay shugah? *holds arms out*? frowning.smile - in love with my sadness <3 says: (1:52:59 PM) i just need someone to tell me what to do...cause i've really tried to think what would i say to someone in my position..like advice wise...but my mind is just a blank Depressed Little Girl - Cripple In The Making says: (1:53:22 PM) allright, *grabs you n hugs you huge anyway* whats going on sweetie? frowning.smile - in love with my sadness <3 says: (1:54:59 PM) *hugs you back* natty broke up with me...or maybe it was mutual ...she brought it up and i just didn't disagree i guess...but i feel bad, how do i make the pain go away? Depressed Little Girl - Cripple In The Making says: (1:57:26 PM) *sits on the sofa and drags you on to my lap* well sweetie, first thing you gotta figure out is, in the end, was it inevitable? was it the best thing for /you/ i couldn't give a rats ass what she wanted, were you happy with her? because its diff if you were/weren't frowning.smile - in love with my sadness <3 says: (2:00:17 PM) at first it was like happy all the time with her...and over time it got to be off and on...but thats to be expected right? i knew we would fight now and then...i dont know..maybe it was inevitable Depressed Little Girl - Cripple In The Making says: (2:02:42 PM) well at the end, when she broke up with you, what did you feel /instantly/ that very moment? frowning.smile - in love with my sadness <3 says: (2:05:05 PM) broken Depressed Little Girl - Cripple In The Making says: (2:05:48 PM) and now? frowning.smile - in love with my sadness <3 says: (2:06:22 PM) still, but wanting to get over it...i mean i can't take this pain anymore frowning.smile - in love with my sadness <3 says: (2:06:53 PM) i'm pretty sure i'm not going to work things out with her and get back together frowning.smile - in love with my sadness <3 says: (2:07:15 PM) even if she wants to =( Depressed Little Girl - Cripple In The Making says: (2:09:04 PM) hmh... well... lets start with what /not/ to do okay? frowning.smile - in love with my sadness <3 says: (2:09:18 PM) ok Depressed Little Girl - Cripple In The Making says: (2:12:23 PM) 1) no cutting, 2) no burning 3)no hitting things, 4) just no hurting yourself at all, okay babe? *holds you tight* don't do anything else stupid either like, drinking, or doing /any/ drugs n that includes pain killers young man. we clear?? frowning.smile - in love with my sadness <3 says: (2:13:45 PM) gah! you took away pretty much all my options here lol = / Depressed Little Girl - Cripple In The Making says: (2:14:07 PM) damn straight! promise me. ON my life! frowning.smile - in love with my sadness <3 says: (2:15:18 PM) i can promise everything ...except number one...idk if i can promise that one Depressed Little Girl - Cripple In The Making says: (2:15:36 PM) well you're gunna have to, or else frowning.smile - in love with my sadness <3 says: (2:17:00 PM) *sigh* what if i promise to try, cause i dont feel like cutting right now...but i can't speak for later Depressed Little Girl - Cripple In The Making says: (2:18:19 PM) no you promise me no cutting /or. else./ *looks deep in your eyes* frowning.smile - in love with my sadness <3 says: (2:19:43 PM) i dont want to make any promises that i might break..i'll feel bad if i break it Depressed Little Girl - Cripple In The Making says: (2:20:24 PM) /make/ the promise sweetie frowning.smile - in love with my sadness <3 says: (2:21:20 PM) ..fine...ok i promise Depressed Little Girl - Cripple In The Making says: (2:22:54 PM) you're gunna do something for me frowning.smile - in love with my sadness <3 says: (2:23:17 PM) ? Depressed Little Girl - Cripple In The Making says: (2:24:03 PM) /if/ you cut, you're gna tell me how many, you're gna tell the truth, on the same day you did it, and for every cut you did, i will do four cuts four times as deep, okay? frowning.smile - in love with my sadness <3 says: (2:25:01 PM) !!!!! you're wrong for this! ok i agree, and i'm not going to cut because i dont want you to do that Depressed Little Girl - Cripple In The Making says: (2:25:37 PM) lol, but promise right here right now, if you do cut, you'll tell me, i mean what i said frowning.smile - in love with my sadness <3 says: (2:26:01 PM) i promise i'll tell you...but it wont matter cause i'm not going to cut i promise Depressed Little Girl - Cripple In The Making says: (2:28:06 PM) good boy *ruffles your hair a tad* :P:) now starts the long awkward road to healing sweetie, it'l be okay sooner or later :) frowning.smile - in love with my sadness <3 says: (2:29:57 PM) realistically i know it just takes time and it gets less and less painful...but it really hurts, i think i'm just sad...and i've cried a lot to the point that my sinuses hurt and feel stupid for it Depressed Little Girl - Cripple In The Making says: (2:31:47 PM) don't feel stupid hun, crying is good