-journal- I lost her I'm a loser I want to cut I want to make long deep cuts that will reach the parts of me that hurt inside I'm alone I cry I feel sick I fail She sent me her picture NOW she sent me her picture She's fucking beautiful and the only thing I can think about is her showing it to everyone else and them realizing what I knew all along Does it hurt this much for her Who will she find comfort in I can't get these pictures out of my head of her turning to the open arms of Nick or Bryan or anybody... somebody that isn't me If I had the strength...if I had the guts I would just take a lot of pills go to bed and pray that I never wake up