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Depressed Little Girl - ...blah says:
so hows Justy feeling today?

frowning.smile - empty says:
withdrawn

Depressed Little Girl - ...blah says:
feeling withdrawn is against the law, don't make me cuff you

frowning.smile - empty says:
against the law huh? finally i can be a rebel!

Depressed Little Girl - ...blah says:
lol! thats not the attitude you're meant to take! =p

frowning.smile - empty says:
rebel x 2 then ...clearly i'm better at this then i thought

Smile Big - It Helps says:
lol stop being a smart ass, or ill give yah a clip round the ear hole ^_^

frowning.smile - empty says:
stop being so british lol ^^

Smile Big - It Helps says:
lol it's in my blood, can't help it =p

frowning.smile - empty says:
i can say the same about being a smart ass

Smile Big - It Helps says:
lol stop it you! *huggles tightly* stop being withdrawn too, i don't like it

frowning.smile - empty says:
i dont know how else to be

Smile Big - It Helps says:
be happy instead

frowning.smile - empty says:
thats a nice idea...

Smile Big - It Helps says:
pleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeease?

Smile Big - It Helps says:
then take up that idea, be happy, cause cause cause i want you to

frowning.smile - empty says:
pffftt lol i just noticed your name change

Smile Big - It Helps says:
lol yup, it changed cause im in a good mood for once so you have to be too! then we'd have done something really rare!

frowning.smile - empty says:
something that rare! i would be afraid the world were about to end

Smile Big - It Helps says:
lol but, even so, the world would end n we'd be happy, so we'd die happy, isn't that better than living depressed?

frowning.smile - empty says:
idk i could probably argue either side

Smile Big - It Helps says:
lol same, but you weren't supposed to be mean and realise that

frowning.smile - empty says:
ohhh sry...umm --> yes you're right

Smile Big - It Helps says:
much better

frowning.smile - empty says:
i dont know what to do...she sent me an email this morning and i dont know if i should reply

Smile Big - It Helps says:
what did it say sweetheart?

frowning.smile - empty says:
i'm sorry, i'm feeling so much regret, and i know you can't talk right now, and i know you must think i'm so stupid for doing this if I feel so bad about it

frowning.smile - empty says:
thats all...and sometime..idk for sure when i guess yesterday she sent me her picture...god NOW of all times she sent me her pic

frowning.smile - empty says:
and i checked my mail last night at 3am...and i just sat here till almost 5 crying....i'm so stupid

Smile Big - It Helps says:
is she pretty? *hugs /VERY/ tightly* it's not stupid sweetie, its just how you feel, are you sure it won't work between you anymore?

frowning.smile - empty says:
she is so fucking beautiful

Smile Big - It Helps says:
i won't ask to see because it's not my place lol, but now you have to choose, major decision, forgive, forget and move on, or forgive, forget, and move back to her. either way opens diff doors, it just depends which doors you want open

frowning.smile - empty says:
as much as i want to, i'm doubtful that it would work if we tried again...we were already on our second 'trying again' ...realisticly i think we would just end back up at this point...but the part of me thats not realistic at all wants to just mail her and tell her i love her and please please please take me back...guh

Smile Big - It Helps says:
hmm... which part you gunna listen to then??

frowning.smile - empty says:
what would you do if you were me?

Smile Big - It Helps says:
what would i do, or what /should/ i do? lol cause its completely different things

frowning.smile - empty says:
idk both?

Smile Big - It Helps says:
i'd beg her back, tell her i love her n want to be with her, tell her that i'm sorry for everythign and it was all my fault (even when/if it wasn't), even though personal experience tells me i /should/ stick through it and pull myself out of the relationship cause its not good for me, i never learn, so i'd keep going back lol

frowning.smile - empty says:
i dont know what i'm going to do..i just know that this sucks, really really sucks

Smile Big - It Helps says:
awwwwwwwwh sweetheart *holds you close* you're gunna have to decide sooner or later