I bought a motivational item...
I was at a store that is going out of business the other day and found a cute bracelet for 90% off. It has chain links with a dangle heart charm...a Return to Tiffany knockoff. I bought it to remind me that it is OK to love myself enough to take care of myself. That is not a selfish act.
Here is a link to the Tiffany one ( I just may buy this for me at goal)
http://international.tiffany.com/Shopping/item.aspx?sku=18967529&search_params=t+-s+0-p+3-l+-h+-c+-r+147-x
Awesome day so far
The day started out with a dark threatning sky. Lightning laced the sky and provided flashes of light in the darkness. The sirens went off warning of a tornado sighting and I could feel the energy of the storm in the air. it all passed quickly and soon the sun was burning through the clouds. It is a beautiful day for March 1st. Very warm and gusty winds perfect for flying kites. I so wanted to join my husband for a picnic lunch but he must be in meetings because he never answered the phone. Instead I opened the windows and enjoyed the breeze through the house while I ate my lunch.
My workout was awesome. I did 30 minutes on the eliptical (2.17 miles), 100 crunches, and 30 minutes of resistance training. Between the storms, now beautiful weather, and and awesome workout I am in a great mood! I can't wait for my husband to come home tonight.
As much as I can't wait to see my husband and as much as I want to leap in his arms and kiss him all over, I won't. He has a big doc. appointment today and I know he will not be in the mood for a clingy wife ( I will try though!). Instead, I will greet him at the door with a hug and a cold drink in my hand. Dinner will be ready and I will get it on the table as he changes. After dinner, he will relax..doing whatever he chooses to do. Maybe after 9:00 he will be ready for me to snuggle in.
I can't wait to lose my weight. I say that all the tie but I really cant wait. i am doing what I need to do to make it happen. We will see how long it takes this time. I want to be under 200 by May 25th and at goal by Sept. 11th. it is possible, I did it once before!
PICTURES ADDED!
Mood:
flirty
Ok, the before pics are posted. Will get now pics ASAP...
There is a question as to if you might want to guess my prom date in one of the pics. Feel free to guess in the comments here!
Getting Serious
Mood:
crushed out
Topic: weight loss KITA!
Getting back to the weight loss journey...too many excuses...too long...
Today I am 220 (approx.-the scale changes everytime so I am doing an average of all 5 weights or taking the one that appears 3+ times).
I was cleaning out the storage area the other day and found some old pictures of me. They brought mixed emotions and even though I was a slightly sad and neglected little girl I was more confident than I am now. I couldn't help but ask myself what was different about then. No answers have been decided at this time...LOL, like always. I am going to steep myself in the question for a little while and look for the same confidence as that beautiful teenager! I will add the pictures as soon as I can scan them.
Some thoughts I had were that my weight is cause for me to have a lack of confidence. Not to mention I am not what I was going to be as an idealistic teen. Some would argue that I am more than I ever thought I could be. I could say that I am in a better place in a couple of areas then I ever imagined I would be. I have an awesome, supportive husband, he looks after my needs and desires in only a way he can. I have only 2 living children but I was blessed with six others even if they didn't survive. There is an inner strength I was lacking as a young woman, I no longer sacrifice myself in order to please others. I don't let others take advantage of me as I did then. Maybe I am not a photo journalist for National Geographic, and I am not the owner of a business dealing primarily with healing eating disorders, and I am not a lawyer...as soon I discover my purpose I am equiped with the strength to pursue it an be successful.
In the meantime (MUUUUHHHHAAAAA!) I can work on my weight and my outward beauty. It is possible for me to regain the body I once had in a more mature version.
To Do:
*Figure WW points (again)
*Buy healthy food to keep in the house-having NO food is not working
*Keep healthy snacks/salads prepared in the fridge for the hungry/snacky times
*plan the meal menu fo rthe family
*scan old pics and post a combinatio of them and more recent ones
