Mood: hug me
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Topic: My Man
If you don't know D you are so lucky. He has hurt me so bad today. He told me that he hated me and he didn't want me sexually. He saud all the time I put him down. He said why is it that when a woman is pregnant the man has to take the woman and the child. I am 5 months pregnant and he wants me to get a job. His mom was the one that said I shouldn't get a job. To make him work. I hate him. He is so damn emotionaly abusive. I don't know what to do I want to give my child a childhood I never had with a father around. I can't raise a child alone and give it everything I want to give it. He said that he didn't want me anymore. I am over 100 miles away from him. I've been calling him asking him how his day was. I don't know If avoiding him will keep him but I know I am just so tired of being treated like shit. I told him he was tearing me apart and he said that that wasn't his problem. I have been so faithful to him. He always accuses me of cheating I have done a damn thing on him. I want to curse him out so bad but I am so hurt that I couldn't say much. I love him but he is just so damn abusive. but you know what i am going to avoid him. I am also going to pray for him because God is the only one that can change a man. If D doesn't want to be with me then so be it. God don't give you what you can't handle. Also we were talking about getting married. He said I wasn't the marrying type. He just hurts me so much. But see I am the type of woman that can't stand to see a man make me cry. So I guess to get revenge I am going to get me a friend to talk to. He has before why can't I. I am not staying with him. Also, he so damn mean I need someone I can talk to and not get off the phone crying. I don't want another man. I want my man. But my man don't know how to act like a mna so I'll get me a man frined. That's what I'll do! Oh it is so amaziing what writting you feelings down can do for you. Fuck D. He is man enough to treat me like shit. I am woman enough to dish shit back. But don't get me wrong I do love him I don't want to loss him but I can't loss something I never had.