Homeless Lady
was walking down the street making cash
talking to a lot of people, moving crazy fast..
When i passed this lady sitting on a bench smoking,
inhaling for therapy, staring into space, zoning.
It was obvious she had some problems in her life
So I slowed my roll stopped, and asked was she alright.
She said no in a low voice, advertising sadness
I observed in her eyes the burden of emotional baggage
She was on my left, i sat down next to her and asked,
"How can i help?" she laughed to herself and flicked ash.
This lady told me that at that point she was beyond assistance
but i knew i had to because i was on a mission
She talked about the way living today is do or die..
and how she had hit rock bottom, contemplating suicide
She explained how with no income it's hard to make it.
and come through for her THREE sons who were incarcerated.
She spoke of family and friends who didn't understand or comprehend,
they were temporarily there for her to let her in..
but then became selfish and left her helpless and weak,
and asked her to leave after a matter of days or weeks..
She had no place to sleep and no way to eat
in her face i could see how much she craved for peace.
she was miserable and said it was difficult to go on..
when she prayed everyday for so long with no response
as she spoke, a single tear rolled down her right cheek,
and the look on her face seemed to say "why me?"
Her sincere suffering had touched me in the heart..
cause it was real, i feel our lives are interwoven
my words were spoken as if already chosen..
I said - no matter how much obstacles and problems hurt...
-never forget, theres always somebody worse..
You must continue on be strong and win,
Who'll give your sons common sense if you're gone with the wind?
I can relate since i've seen a similar path
I look forward to the future but remember the past..
Excruciating days i pray i never see another day
the loss of my love and homies along the way..
that's when i saw what was my greatest gift
a healthy body, mind, and a divine relationship..
I said you gotta see the streaks of light through the negatives..
and no matter what happens just don't ever quit!
I told her about my experience with violence,
The things ive been through, and hopelessness.
I showed her how much i've been blessed to recieve
at a level most people almost never believe..
no matter how hard hell gets in before your quest is done,
always look within yourself and the rest will come..
No matter what you decide to do,
if you commit suicide, how can your life improve?
I gave her what i could to get something to eat
then i thought about all the craziness runnin thiz streetz..
I wished i could help more but i was already late
though it was a week ago i still can't forget her face.
it's so much to think about in these last days..
plans, plots, perspectives and pathways.
Most people seem to not even give a FUCK..
but i hope you do and if so then hit me up.


Written For this Lady i met one day, who really made me think.