Hello my love, i wasn't on the computer, my boss called and needed all this info on me, like my social security #, and all this other crap about me. I'm sorry. I would never be on the computer when i knew you were gonna call. I miss you babe, i always miss you. I love you so much.....It's strange, when i look at you i feel as if i've known you forever, like we were meant for each other, and always have been. But thats just what is strange about it...i don't believe in fate....but everytime i look at you my feelings tell me otherwise... Maybe it is just wishful thinking, who knows. By the time i get out of the marines you probably would have already forgotten about me...but i really don't want that. I want to be with you all the time for all time. You are the good half of my soul.....I love you so much Emily, i always will - beyond eternity.

Love, Neo

Sorry I haven't been home latly when you call, i really wish i was though cuz i miss you and wanna talk to you....But i've been pretty busy the past two days. Yesterday i went swimming at Jay's Grandfather's and thn went to BRCC's orientation with Conan and Jay (yes Jay is actually going to college) Then we went to go see Jay and Silent Bob Strike Back. Did i mention that i miss you a whole lot? Cuz i really really do. Me wants to see you again, and i know we can't do anything, but you know i'll want to, and you know how i feel. Well i hope you call again soon. I love you always.

Love, Me

What do you mean never heaer from me again? I sure hope not. I miss you already, and i'm not about to stop talking to you. You know i love you and I love when i get to talk to you. I hope you call back.....my sis was prolly on the phone when you tried....call back.....please. I miss you. I love you forever.

Love, Me

P.S. this is in no wa the last you'll ever hear from me.

I'm sorry.....for all the ways i've hurt you and caused you greif i am sorry. Like you said, I am a guy - and that in itself makes me an idiot when it comes to girls. I never meant to hurt you.....i never mean to hurt anyone. I consider the feelings of other people to be the most important thing not to damage, and yet in attempting to avoid hurting peoples feelings and making them upset - i tend to cause more pain to an already painful situation.And this same attempt not to hurt peoples feeling is the only reason why i would keep calling this girl. It's not because I want to have my cake and eat it too, and it's not because i like her better - if i were given a choice i would choose you without even a flicker of a second thought, how could i choose anything less than perfect.....But i still don't know what to do, i've gotten myself into a larger mess than i ever thought possible. With either choice someone's feelings get hurt, and i can't make that kind of descision - i love you more than anything in the universe - and whether the feelings belong to the person i love more than anything(you), or to a friend; they are still feelings, and they still have big impact on my conscience and well being. I don't know what to do....i wish i could just cease to exist and have all memries of me erased - all i do is cause trouble in the lives of the people i care about......All i try to do is keep people happy, but i always somehow screw it up nd make things worse. I know for a fact that i love you more than life itself - i wish i knew how to make you know that i love you and keep my integrity at the same time - i have never, nor ever will forgive myself for anything i have done to other people in my lifetime. In the past i have hurt so many people, but when i realized what i was becoming, i vowed to make any and all attempts never to do it again....If you needed a reason for the stupid things i do, thats it; though stupid and twisted it is, that is how i think.....I have never opened up this much to anyone, all i know is that i love you and forever i shall, and what i have just told you is the basis on which i place all my actions till i die, i am in no way out for only self gratifacation - in fact, it is kind of the opposite.

And about the dumb-ass comment i made before you left. And i am not saying any of this to charm you, or to try to win you over...it is all plain and simple truth. All girls i have ever had a relationship with became interested in me before i ever became interested in them...all of them but one - you. I had a crush on you long before you ever even knew i existed....and much to my surprise and delight - you developed an interest in me. It is the only time that it has ever happened to me that way. You are so incredibly special to me, and i love you to death - please believe that. But please also understand that i don't know what to do, i don't know how to clean this mess up that i created. I love you Emily, i will always love you, and i mean that from the deepest depths of my heart. Love me. Do not hate me.

Love always, Neo

Hey love, i miss you.....i am jealous of ben, he gets to see you every day, i don't...It makes me sad. ;( I want to be with you all the time....I love you sooooo much. I want to kiss you again, i want to hold you and never let you go. I want to sleep with you in my arms, your body pressed close to mine.....that is whati think about every night before i go to bed...i am always thinking of you. I love you emily, i will always love you.

Love, Neo

Hey wonderful, sorry i haven't written back latly, i actually haven't been on the computer in days. I hate haveing a job and being busy, i wanna go back to being a lazy ass.... So how are you? I miss you so very much.....when do you start work at eckerds? I need any chance i get to see you. I love you so much more than i ever thought possible, and i will always love you, never doubt that, you are my heart and forever shall be, i love you now and for always....you are so wonderful, you exceed any and all dreams. Yu are living, breathing, beautiful perfection. And i shall always love thee without fail....

Love, Neo

Hey love, i am really sorry i didn't come to mass to see you....trust me, it wasn't my choice. I had to work.....yes work, i got a job working for Accent Construction, i am the owener's assistant, we go around and do jobs at various jobsites...its pretty cool.

Thats awsome you got a job at my sisters eckerds, now i get to see you more often! yay! I miss you so much my love, i always miss you. And you wern't the only one sad that i didn't come....i was really looking forward to seeing you. But do not feer, i will be picking up my parents from school often these next few weeks so keep a look out for my whiteness. Gott go now, i love you always and forever.

Love, Me

P.S. I LOVE YOU!!!!!

hello my love, i miss you. Every hour of every day i miss you. I wish i was still in school so i can see you....but instead i am a lonely lazy bum who sits at home all day doing a lot of nothing. ....I read your journal again, well only the ones that don't make me sad. I love you so much. Don't ever forget that.

Love, Me

P.S. have fun in my dad's class...haha

Hey love, i am really glad you called me today, i have missed you soooooo much. I love you more than i ever could have imagioned. I can't wait to see you on wednesday. How could i ever forget you Emily? You are so wonderful, and sweet, and worth so much more than me. But i love you so much - so much it hurts sometimes. It hurts to know that i make you cry..........I love you my wonderful goddess, and forever i shall, till the day i am no more.

Love, Me

I miss you too....of course you are i my heart, you will always be in my heart, no matter what. I love you so much...so very much...I miss you

Love, me

I do not hate you, i could never hate you. I love you now and forever....remember that always...

Love, Me

Yes I do know who did it, he did it to me too. It was the stupid mother fucker Marco...and he will pay. He has NO RIGHT doing this to you...he will endure the wrath my most worst side,. i have not been this angry in years - my blood burns just thinking about it. I shall have no remorse whilst i take vengence upon my enemies......

I nearly lost your friendship the first time the dumb fuck did this, and i thanked God when it was over...now the stupid shit does it again...but this time i will not be so forgiving, i will make sure he learns his lesson - and i welcome you to join me.

Written with much anger to a so called friend(Marco) for hurting the one i love(thats you),
Me

P.S. What kind of mailbox would you like.

Hello my sweet love, i miss you...i will write more in this now...i was never sure how often you checked it so i never knew how often to write in it. Don't forget to read the one below this one, i am updating them at the same time but i wrote that one earlier odaay...

I wish ou were here in my bed with me naked, and we would makelove all night like there was no tommorow, and i would never let ou leave.....i miss you so much my love, i love you soo much....I am going insane not being able to see you...to touch you....you are every dream i ever imagined come true. You can stop my heart with a simple glance, or melt my soul with a slightest touch. To kiss you makes every part of my body tingle with joy.....i give you my heart - filled with such a great love for you there is no room for evil.

I sahll drean tonight of my hands caressing every inch of your body, my lips gently kissing your own...you neck....your breasts. My tongue would satisfy your every fantasy....i shall dream of us making love, each of us immersed in an immortal ecstacy..... Meet me in your dreams tonight, share my dream with me my love, i shall be waiting....

Love, Neo

P.S. Sorry about typos...it 3:45 am

Hey sexy, thanks for the ass-gram - it was great fun. I had a dream about you last night...i dreamed i came home from somewhere and you were lying naked on my bed waitnig for me - oh god how i wish that wasn't a dream. I miss you so much my sweet goddess, i need to see you all the time, i want to be with you and never have to let you go....and you would stay with me forever and have no worries. I want to hold you again, i want to make love with you, i need to feel the topuch of your lips gently upon my own, i want your hands all over my body.... How is it you turn me on so easily? Is it because of the way i feel when you are around? You are so wonderful Emily, just being able to touch you makes me feel like the luckiest man alive. You are perfection in my eyes, and you always shall be. I love you my wonderful goddess of love, and i always shall love you for eternity.

Love, Neo

I know i'm not supposed to...i'm sorry, i just could not help myself. I love you so much and it is hard to keep it in. I am glad you came over though, i was totally not expecting it....surprises are fun. I still miss you though, and i still love you...

Love, Me

Hey Love, i was walking in your neighborhood the other night with jay and conan waiting for E to get home....so even though i would've loved a show...i wasn't alone...plus i have no idea which window is yours. I miss you babe....i love you so much and it sucks not ever being able to see the person you love. Its 2 am right now, i am going to go to sleep and dream about you my goddess of love....meet me there.

Love, Me

Hello my sweet love, i really want to see you again soon too, but my sister has the car today so i can't get a snowball...And trust me, it won't bother me one bit if you randomly show up at my house...i miss you so much. I was walking around in your neighborhood the other night and i was hoping for some reason you were driving around....but you wern't, plus it was about 2:30 in the morning so nobody was driving around. I want to see you soon my love....

Love, Me

Hey sexy, thanks for replying, i was getting worried for a moment. I miss you soooo much. I'm sorry that my phone is busy all the time, my little sister is to blame - she spends all day on that damn phone. But she should be gone for a week and a half starting monday, cuz my parents are going to Africa and they don't want her to be alone in the house all day if I am not here - we've got bad people in my neigborhood. Both of my neighbors have been robbed, one of 'em several times.....one time a lady down my street pulled an assult rifle on the cops - it was all on the news and stuff and you could see me on tv standing behind the yellow tape after the incident; she was making crystal meth and some other shit in her garage.

So what have you been up to? I miss you alot...i think of you all the time, i want to hear your sweet voice again, and see your beautiful face...I might have to develop a lot of cravings for snowballs. I love you my sweet goddess of beauty...i long to feel your touch....i will see you in my dreams tonight my love...And there i shall make love with you endlessly. I love you Emily, i always will - never forget that...

Love, me

Wait, what do mean, i have lost interest? I haven't lost any interest, the reason i haven't written is because i've been waiting for a reply. I haven't forgotten anything, nor will i ever...my feelings for you are still the same, i love you and always will....i don't want you to say goodbye, i'm not. I miss you....I want you...I love you...

Love, Me

YAY!!!!!!!!!!!

You're back! Happy day! I miss you sooooooo much....must see you soon or sean will die. I'm glad you had fun though, i didn't have much fun here, i sat around and did nothing but miss you for a week.I only got to go out once, actually it was for about two days but i never came home so it was only once. I miss you though, i love you always.

Love, Me

I really hope ypu are coming back soon cuz i miss you more than i can bear any longer. You are in all my dreams, every night...maybe if i lived in my dreams i wouldn't miss you so much... Are you thinking of me?...I think of you all the time, every moment of every day, wake or sleep, you are in my thoughts. I love you....

Love, Me

Hey sweetness, I miss you....i want you to be home now (actually at my home, that would be better) I dreamed about you last night...it was wierd. We were at bishop sullivan for some reason and it was nighttime and no one was there but us...and we were trying to catch this white mouse for some reason, actually it was origianally a white kitten but it changed suddenly. Well anyway we finally caught it and decided to celebrate by having sex (sounds like a bad porn). But right before we went at it, my alarm went off - i was really pissed off and tryed to go back to sleep but i couldn't...and that upset me for the rest of the day....

I miss you so much my love, when are you coming back? I want to see you....I love you so much...come back soon and see me.

Love, Me

Nooooooooo, why do you leave sunday?! I just got back today (which is Sunday) we had to stay an extra day cuz Will's dad's house burnt down....I want to see you!!!! I miss you soooo much, i think i am gonna die if i don't see you for a whole other week! Dammit! Why did the house have to burn down. Why can't i see you......I miss you love, more than ever, and i thought about you every second i was in florida. I love you so much...don't go!!!

Love, me

Hey sweetness, I miss you too, i am back shortly but must leave again.....i wish you could come with. I wish you were here with me right now making me forget about my sunburn. You saved my life this weekend...if you read my journal about swimming all the way to the swimming hole...I thought i was going to just give up and drown, but then i imagined that you were waiting for me at the swimming hole and that kept me going the entire way. I miss you sooo much, i want to see you soon....like right now... You are so wonderful, and there is no possible way anyone could replace my love for you - i can think of nothing but you all the time. So i don't think you have to worry about me finding someone else.....there is nothing better than perfection and i have already found her...she is you. No matter what you tell me otherwise, you are and always will be perfect. You are a dream which was made reality, and i love you more than words could ever tell. And forever shall my love for you exist; past death and beyond eternity i will still love you the same if not more than i do now. A love beyond any comprehension has entered my heart for you. One too many arrows shot by cupid.... I want you with me now, in my arms, your hands running across every inch of my body. And we would make love over and over again until the sun rose the next morning....but i miss you more with every thought....i would give my life too see you once more....to hold you once more....to kiss you once more............I love you.....

Love, Me

Couldn't find me? I couldn't find you....I even kept switching from open battle net to the regular cuz i was unsure which one you were in, and i never found you. I say we stick to open b.net...i like it better. That sucks though....i wanted to talk to you more. I am going to miss you so much this next week....maybe i'll find a computer in florida and update this so i can at least have some contact with you. I miss you enough as it is....I'm glad youstill want to see me....I dont think i would be able to live without seeing you. I love you my sweet, forever and always i will - no matter what.

Love, Me

Don't worry, I don't hate you, i'm not even the slightest bit angry - sad, yes - but not angry. I can totally understand your reasoning and everything. And my mom isn't mad, she is just kind of paraniod when my dad isn't here and was scared that it was some strange murderer ringing our doorbell. She doesn't hate you and neither do I....

I'm leaving for a week starting tommorow - i'll be home shortly saturday night but then i leave again......

Love, Me

Hey sexy, i love you... And if i buy something, i need to get something i'll have to come back alot for - if you get my drift. I miss you so much my sweet, i want to run away with you, someplace where nothing mattered and we could be together forever. I love you soooooo much. I hope to see you soon my love who shall always be....

Love, Neo

Hello love, i changed the password (duh) I miss you my love. And i thank you very much for calling me today....it was a great thing to wake up to. Would've been even better if you were in the bed with me though...I'm going to go to bed soon and dream naughty dreams about you...

Oh and just to let you know, i'm online everyday at 10pm until whenever i go to sleep...so if you're ever bored, we can always play diablo. I must go and dream about you now my sweet love. I love you always, Emily.

Love, Neo

Hey love, if i woulda known yuou were still reading this i would have benn writing to you everydaycuz i miss you more than you can imagine. I feel really stupid for scaring you today....maybe i should stop talking about how strange my friends are.

I love you...but you already knew that. I think about ou all the time and in everything i do. You've are now a permanant resident in my head..i just wish you were there in persoin as ofeten as you are in my thoughts (which would be all the time). I miss looking upon your beautiful face, i miss your touch, and the way you look at me with your wonderfully beautiful eyes....i miss everything about you. I wish you could sleep beside me at night, in my arms....and when i wake up i could look upon your beauty which would make the entire day wonderful....i love you my sweet emily, and i always shall.

Love, Me

Hey Emily, I miss you too, i read all of your letters you ever gave me last night...i miss you so much. All i can ever think about is you. I wish i could do everything I dream about, but i can't.....

I found out my official date of departure - August 18, that's when i leave. So i have 2 and a half months to sevearly injure myself...haha i wish, they'd probably still make me go...i miss you...will come to see you at work soon. I love you so much. And i will love you for always.

Love, Me

I miss you......I love you sooooo much. I want to kiss you again. I miss you...........going insane without you. Loving you more than i ever thought love possible. I love you I love you I love you...

Love, Me

I miss you.....I can't wait to see you at jessica's party on saturday. I love you sooo much, i want to hold you in my arms again. I feel lonely without you, my heart aches for your gentle touch or even a glance from your beautiful eyes...Every night i think i can feel you in my arms as I sleep, but everytime i open my eyes your not there and then i get depressed...maybe i just won't open my eyes. I'm starting to sleep walk again which usually means my mind and emotions cannot quiet down....i miss you more now than i ever have before. And its not true what you said, you are too good for me emily, you are perfection to me, and i don't deserve the love of someone as wonderful as you. But i love you more than my heart can bear. I love you I love you I love you....always and forever i shall... without fail or any doubt, I shall love you for an eternity. You are wonderful my sweet sweet love and you always will be. I love you.

Love, Neo

You wearn't there when I came back.....i was sad. And i'm really sorry that i had to get off but my dad was ready to flip his lid. I love you sweetie...you know i do, and I always will. I looked for th french 3 test tonight....I don't think he has it anywhere at home, i searched all through his bag and on the computer but all i could find were already taken other tests. But i wish you much luck on your exams today.

You want me to tell you how I feel? Well its simple, the only feeling i have is such an immense love for you, and it overpowers anything else, you are so amazing, with this love i have for you filling up my heart, no other emoition makes the slightest impact on me. I miss you my love, I want you in my arms right now, i want you in my arms when i go to sleep, and there when i wake up. I want to feel the soft touch of your skin upon my own, i want to run my hands through your beautiful hair. I love everything about you. I love you.....i always will. And i will see you in my dreams tonight my love....meet me there, and i will show you just how much i love you....

Love, Me

Hey sweetness, Thank you for calling me, you made m day just by hearing your wonderful voice. I want to see you soon, maybe my parents won't take the car tommorow so i can pick them up and see you. I love you so much. So much....I thought of you when i ate at little tokyo last night, actually thats why i ate there...i got the exact same thing i got when we went after that mass thing earlier this year. Remember that? And then we went on the carosel.....missing you. I want to be with you all the time, i could never get tired of being with you. I would give anything just to kiss you again, to hold you in my arms again....its all i can think about, you're all i ever think about. You are so wonderful Emily - and i'm the luckiest man alive to have at least a part of your love, for that instant when nothing else mattered and i held you in my arms and kissed you - i felt as light as air. I miss you my darling. And I love you more than i could ever attempt to explain. And I will love you always.

Love, Neo

Hey beautiful, howzit going? Personally,I miss you like crazy, but maybe its just me. I'm a little bit tired happy right now so be fore warned about unusual comments, there are no barriers or filters between my thoughts and what i say. I haven't slept much in the past 72 hours and i'm feeling a bit crazy(er than normal) Didja notice the message at the bottom of the page? I put that there ya know....well duh, who else would? Pssst. I have a secret....I LOVE YOU SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH. Well i guess thats not a secret to you is it. I want you mare than you can imagine, I want to run my hands all over your beautiful body, i want to taste the sweet taste of your lips, i wan to look into your eyes, your beautiful blue eyes... i want you to stare into my eyes and make me melt all over on the inside. I have such beauiful dreams about you....and i wish i could show them to you and let you experience them with me - but i can't...and its killing me. I love you so much my sweet goddess. I Love you......truly and forever and ever without end. I will always be here for you when you need me, and the love i have for you will always be in my heart which i have given to you fully and without any remorse. And forever you shall have my heart and may you forever keep it close to your own.

Love, Neo

P.S: Emily + infinity I love yous = my heart (thats the only math you need to know)

I miss you....I wan to see you again, I want to see you all the time. I love you so much and it kills me not to be able to see you. I do like it when you call me though, just hearing your voice makes me so happy. I fell asleep real early last night after you called me, i guess I was really tired, so I don't know if you'll be able to read this today cuz i'm writing it at 7:20 in the morning. I love you forever my sweet.

Love, Neo

Yes my love, avalon, where we would never age, never die, and never have to be apart. If only we could....but no one knows where avalon is.... I miss you...i thought of a you A WHOLE LOT today, not a second went by where your beautiul face entered my mind, or memories of he liss would cause my heart to flutter. I love you so much....i will find a way to get you letters when i am gone - trust me, i will find a way. And you can still write me - just one sweet word from you could make me forget all about any pain in boot camp. And after boot camp i can get online and write emails and stuff.

I hallucinated of you today, as I was sleeping on the wall of the fountain in new orleans I woke up and thought I saw you standing in the water in front of me, and you told me to go back to sleep and that i would see you there. So I closed my eyes and i felt you gently run your fingers up the side of my face and through my hair. But when I opened my eyes no one was there, or near me for that matter. I might have been dreaming but for some reason it seemed so real. Maybe I miss you so much my mind is playing tricks on me.

I love you so much my sweet. And i always shall. For my love for you is true and unending. You are a goddess to me, for simply looking upon your beauty melts my heart with such incredible love.

Love always, Neo

P.S. A verse of "wild thing" makes me think of you: "Took her to the hotel she said "You're the king" I said "Be my queen if you know what I mean and let us do the wild thing"....hehe

Hey sweetness, I miss you so much...but i am glad you a=called me today, it made me happy to hear your voice. I love you. I know exactly what you mean when you say that all you can say i "i love you" when you talk to me - its weird, I feel the same way, but i wish i could do more than just ell you...i want to show you how much i love you. It feels so right when i hold you in my arms....our bodies so close together there is no room for anything but our love....so close our hearts beat together as if they are one. And even though i only can hold you for a moment, the feeling you give me with your touch lasts an eternity. I love you soooooo much, so very much, and I want to be with you always for my love will always be.

Love, Neo

So you liked your trinity doll? I hoped you would. I wish I could have talkted to you alone....I didn't want to let go when you hugged me. I want you to stay in my arms forever. I love you so much my sweet angel....so wonderful you are....so much love I have for you...can't desccribe the way I feel. I want you so bad, you are in all of my dreams, you are in all of my thoughts, my desires - actually you are my only desire. I would give up any of the best things on earth just to spend time with you. I would die for you without asecond thought.

I hope to dee you soon my love, will await you in my dreams, where we can be together and not have to worry. I love you always.

Love, Neo

Your beauty is not just a face, you are beautiful in every way imaginable, and I love you for who you are, not how you look (although it is an added bonus) You are wonderful emily, i think about you all the time; that you were in my arms, my hands gently caressing your body...I wish to make love with you, i want you emily, and I love you even more. But I miss you...i wake up every morning at 7:30 just to read your letter so I can go back to sleep and dream sweet dreams about you. I wish you were there sleeping with me in my arms... I wish I knew what you thought about me before you told me that you were falling in love with me...what had I done to gain your love? I only wish you could kmow how much I love you...words cannot describe how wonderful you are and how much you mean to me. I love you so much my sweet. I truly do, and always will - no matter how you look, as long as you are still you I will love you forever, my beautiful goddess.

With Undying Love, Neo

Good morin love, I just woke up, man I slept late. I changed the password for you, I hope you can figure it out....I just had a wonderful dream about you, we were back in the house again but this time we did more than just kiss. What was your dream about?

I miss you so much my love, and I think about you all the time, I want to feel the sweet touch of your lips again, even your slightest touch has the power to turn me on like a crazed sex machine. You are the most wonderful person I have ever met, and I love you more than I ever thought possible. You have my heart, sweetness, and you always shall. You are my goddess of beauty, my own aphrodite....L'amour.

Love, Me

Yes, Emily, I do love you truly, there is no shred of doubt in me about that. I miss you so much though, I hope I can see you soon my love. I have more picture of you now, we finally got the play pics developed, i was happy. I must go now, its getting lateand I am about to pass out from sleepyness. I will await your morning letter. I must retire now, at least in my dreams I can be with you. I'll see you there my sweet. I love you. Goodnoght.

Love, Sleepy guy in love with you.

I miss you so much, why do you not want me to to tell you how I feel? You're confusing me. I don't know what to do. I miss you sooooo much, you're not the only one going crazy...I sit at home all day thinking of nothing but you the whole time, and its driving me mad because I can't see you.... L'amour....I misses you. Must hope you get job at eckerds. And yes emily you are sexy, i think so at least, you are very sexy. And beautiful; so beautiful, no words could ever give your beauty the justice it deserves.

I never thought any girl could ever have this much of an impact on me, I don't know how that image of you in 8th grade has been so permanatly imprinted on my mind . My insides melt when i see you; when your eyes caught mine one day in french class earlier this year, my heart at that instant burned with such an incredible feeling. You are incredible Emily, and I don't deserve your love - but I love you like I've never loved anyone before - and I always shall.

Love, Me

I miiiiiiiiiiiss you...where are you my love? I'm going insane. I need to see you. I want to talk with you - so much to talk about. I want to know what your thinking, I want you to know what I'm thinking (that one's pretty easy though, It's all about you.) Oh I wish I could call you, or you lived next door, or something....i wish i would die so I could be with you all the time as a ghost......Hey whoa...speaking of which that just brought back a flashback of a dream...weird. I dreamed that I had died but as I died I kissed you and my soul went into you or something like that, and we could talk all the time. I don't really remember any more of the dream, It's weird how one phrase can bring back a piece of a dream like that. I wonder what I was thinking about before I had that dream.....anyway, sorry about the rambling on.

I wish i wasn't so verbally impared - i wish that I could actually tell you what I was thinking - and I know you tell me to try, but its really hard to convey my thoughts to words that actually make sense - I've spent my whole life not ever telling people what I was feeling, so its very hard for me to do now. I hope you can understand that - but I will try because you want me to. Well this is getting fairly long and I don't want to bore you. So I will return to my little mind of lonliness.
I love you always, Emily (a.k.a. "the essence of sexiness" <---- thats you in case you were wondering).

Love, Neo

P.S.: Should I start dating these?

Hey Emily, you're right - I am confused, I don't know how I feel about jes, she doesn't matter to me as much anymore; but what I do know is that I love you, and I love you alot. Please do not doubt that for i never will. I will love you always - you mean more to me than anything....my thoughts have never until now dwelt upon one person this long - ever. You are in my heart and my mind when I wake up, when I go through the day, when I go to sleep, and even when I dream at night. You are so wonderful, emily. I love you for always and ever.

Love, Me

I miss you Emily...write me back please, I want to hear from you...so lonely without you. I got my date finalized in august now, no more rescheduling. I don't know the exact date because I forgot but I do know it is in August. I don't want to leave at all, I wish I could stay here with you...I want to kiss you again, I can't get you out of my head. I love you...write back or call me or something. I love you always.

Love, Me

Hey Love, I called everyone I knew last night trying to get a ride, no one was either home or unable(or unwilling) to take me. I'm so sorry....I tryed as best I could. I love you. I have to go run three miles now - i think I'm gonna die - wish me luck, I'll be thinking of you my love.

Love, Me

Hey sexyness, I want you. A.D.I.D.A.S. with you.....I think i'm going to go insane if I don't see you soon. I love you sooo much - everything about you, your beautiful eyes, the soft touch of your skin, the tenderness of your lips, oh I want you right now, now, now, now! Just a glance from you makes my heart jump and my insides melt. I miss you, beautiful. I love you more, for ever and ever. I love you I love you I love you. I want you here right now, sitting naked on my lap with your legs wrapped around me.....

Love, Me

Hey Emily, I hope you get the job at eckerds...i really need a way of seeing you. Of course I miss you, how could I not? Your all I ever think about. I love you. I will try to go to that thing tommorow, i will try anything if it gives me a chance to see you. I really hope you email me at lunch or something, i want to hear from you.

I just grilled sausage outside for lunch, i got bored again....fire is good....I had a really good dream about you last night - so good, i woke up aroused and holding my balled up comforter....i wish it was you instead of a comforter...I miss you so much, and love you even more (which is A LOT) Write back please. I love you forever.

Love, Neo

Hey Emily, I miss you.....I want you in my arms again, i want to feel the sweet touch of your lips upon my own. Why can't I stop thinking of you? I love you. I don't want to leave, I want to stay here with you, forever. I wish I could be with you forever....

I can't find that song you were talking about on napster, In the Blood was the name right? I'll look again, I want to here it. Your in french class right now, it's 12:42 and I miss you (that rhymed, hehe) Well I wish you luck in cantoring tommorow, not like you need it, you have the most beautiful voice i've ever heard. Anyway, must go now, Jay just got here. I love you always.

Love, Me

Hey Emily, I will try to desribe to you what I felt that night:
When you walked into that house and I saw you standing there in the faint light....I thought I was in a dream. At that moment nothing else mattered, nothing could have stopped me from kissing you but death itself. My heart felt as if it would beat out of my chest. And when I kissed you time seemed to stand still - i can still remember every last detail. And I have dreampt of that moment every night since...

That is what I felt Emily, I love you more than words can describe... and I miss you now more than I ever have before.

And since you have to read these at school I will no longer put my name on the letters.

Love, Me

Oh thank you so much for emailing me...I've been scared shitless for the past few days that you didn't want to have anything to do with me. You know better than anyone that I want to be more than just close friends. I wish I knew what you are thinking. And don't think for a second that I lost my feelings for you - I love you now and for always - no matter what.

Why can't you get online at home anymore? That sucks. I really wish we had some kind of telepathic connection or something - so we can actually talk to each other. I love you emily...always.

Love, Me

Hey Emily, I don't understand, why would I be mad at you? If one of us should be mad then it should be you at me. I don't want you to think you'll never see me again - I will come pick up and drop off my sister at work as often as I can, and me or one of my friends is going to have a party before I leave - and of course your invited to that.

I will never forget you emily, nor will my feelings for you ever change. You are and always will be my heart, I hope we can still be close friends after what I did. I'm so incredibly sorry for hurting you Emily. Please forgive me...

Love, Neo

Hey Emily, so ya want me to outdo this guy in gifts? cuz I can if ya want. Hehe. We just missed each other today, I had left 10 mins before your email to go to jay's. I miss you. I wish I had some way of seeing you. Hey whoa, you just got on and then signed off again. Strange. I hope you get back on. I love you always.

Love, Neo

Hey, sorry I couldn't get on right away, my dad was typing something. I love you I love you I love you. I miss you too, and I'm depressed I can't see you at school anymore. I hope you get back on. Please get back on. I'll stay as long as I can (until I fall asleep basically) I love you so very much. Get back on now!! Pleeeeeeeeeeease!! I miss you....

Love, Neo

Hey, I just got your Emails today so I'll write your long letter for tommorrow. I miss you so much, you are so wonderful in every way. And don't tell me your not because thats not true...in my eyes you are perfect, and always will be. I want to kiss you, I want to hold you and be with you forever. You are all I think about - every waking thought has to do with you, and in my dreams you are always there....I love you Emily and I always will - don't ever forget that.

P.S. Don't forget to check your locker tomorrow morning...

Love, Neo

Hey Emily, yes of course I miss you, how could I not, you are so wonderful. But I can't talk long...not supposed to be on. I love you.

Love, Me

Hey Emily, Happy Birthday! Click here for your birthday card.

Love, Me

Hey, I don't want to leave school...I know it sounds wierd but I really don't want to leave the only place I can see my love. But at least I got to get drunk today. After senior day we went to E's house and drank beer. Then I remembered I forgot my candy so we went back to school real quick. I was buzzing when I talked to you. Hehe. Then we drove all over town playing "me so horney" as loud as we can over and over with the windows down. It was fun.

But I miss you. And I love you for always.

Love, Me

Hey, me again. If you don't get back on and you read this. Diablo II kicked me off after you left and I'm waiting too see if you get on AIM because D2 doesn't like me :(....I need to fix my computer permanatly. Aw shit, parents just got home. Gotta go.

Love, Me

Hey, How are you? My parents are on a walk so I have a few minutes to write. So how do you like my idea? Good? Bad? I miss you....I've been saying that alot, but thats all I think about. tommorow is my last day of classes. You have to take care of scuba steve now, I don't think he'll last long though...he's just a water balloon boobie. Haha that sounds funny. Well I best go now my parents are going to be home any minute. I'll try to update these as often as possible since its the only way we can talk other than AIM or Diablo. I love you.

Love, Neo