Emily, i have thought about you everyday since we last talked, and everyday before that. I miss you so much....so very much. My feelings for you have not changed, nor they ever. You are still the most imporatant thing to me in my life. Every night i dream of you, and those dreams are all i have to cherish....Not being able to talk to you is killing me from the inside...My skin longs for your touch...my heart longs for your love... Everyday, i get on Diablo in hopes you might stray on, i check the forums constantly for your possible reply...I still leave my phone by the window in hopes that by some miracle you will call. I am so sorry i have caused so much pain in your life....I have so much to thank you for yet i have given you nothing but pain in return. ....I have so much i want to say to you, but i cannot, for it will cause more pain. I have not nor will ever forget you, nor will the love for you diminish. But i must hide myself from you if i must, and live my life in solitude if that is the way it must be....for your happiness. Please do not fret for my happiness....for without you i will never be complete, and it is something i have forced myself to live with. I've never given up on hope Emily, nor will i ever, it is all i have left to hold on to. I pray everyday for you, for your happiness. I pray for a word, a sentence from you...I miss you so much, i wish to tlalk to you...You have not left my thoughts since the last time i saw your beatiful face. You are with me always, in my heart, for it is yours to keep.... I wish i knew how you felt...something inside me already does, but...i don't know...i wish i could hear it from you. Everynight, before i fall asleep, i relive all my memories of you, they make me happy and give me good dreams...I have practically memorized the diary you gave me. I miss you so much, and you should know how i feel, trust your instict Emily, listen carefully and you will hear me for i am always with you, and always thinking of you.