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This is my "as often as I feel like" journal. So all of
you can know what goes on day to day in my little world.
28 May 2002
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Ok, sorry about the last post...my emotions
have been a bit of the unstable side lately. But don't worry
about me...i will find a way to adapt. Somehow. I'm just confused,
depressed, and a bit self tormented...picking away at my own
brain as a crow picks away at his food.
But do not worry, i will live to see tommorow,
Hope and reason will guide my way,
For they are all i have to help me
Through this maze of disarray.
Do not worry for a light is there,
Somewhere.
At the end of my tunnel maybe,
Calling me with a simple stare.
I reach out to grab it as it beckons me,
And it sets me free...
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| I'm tired...I had to walk 10 miles today, in
the blistering hot sun with 1 gaterade. It was not cool. My weekend
you ask? Well i think i officially went insane. Going 3 days without
talking to a soul. (but myself) Venturing out twice to go eat
(notice i only said twice) I lived off oreos, a gallon of milk,
and a loaf of bread...thats about it. Other than that i say I
am a bit tired...i want to go home. I want to see my family and
friends. One of my best friends leaves for boot camp in 7 days
and i won't be able to go home and say goodbye, another i cannot
speak to....ughhh, my life has turned to shit and i have nightmares
about it every night. My life has turned to one kept in dark solitude.....but
hey, enough about me...how are you? |
22 May 2002
| Not much today...it was cold this morning and
i missed formation because of it. But i didn't get in trouble
so it was OK. Basically all i did today was get my Deadly Force
Class. I have to go take down the flag today...actually in 30
minutes. Well, i will add more if anything happens. |
21 May 2002
Well, lets see, what happened today...It all
started out OK, for once i was not late for formation in the
morning...i thought maybe it will be a good day...Well i was
wrong. At about 8 am, i recieved another head injury to add
to the ever growing list. Yeah, i was knocked in the head
by a large board. (actually i walked into it but that would
take too long to explain.) Well the fact of the matter was,
i now had a 3 inch cut on my head which started to bleed down
my forehead. Needless to say i had a headache - a big one.
After yelling various profanities and dancing in circles grabbing
my head, i eventually calmed down and continued with my work
griping about my headache for the next 2 hours...i didn't
tend to the wound and i just let the blood dry on my forehead
(it looked kinda cool).
Well, after luch i hoped everythingwould be
better. Plus i had a four day weekend coming up and i was
going to go home and buy a car and see my friends - well so
i thought. It turns out i have guard duty this week...all
the way 'till next wed. Basically i just sit around all day
and if anyone tries to attack the base i grab all the weapons
i can and kill them. But since no one is going to attack,
it'll be boring...and i don't get to go home. Thats about
it for now...my head hurts.
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