Helpless and Alone

Pain cuts my heart deep
Troubles and worries keep me from sleep
Dreams  when I rest that haunt like a dark demon
Knowing why and and all of the reasons

A child that you love , nourished  with care
Has gone to a distant and dark place from your loving care

Prayers on my knees, questions asking why
Searching for answers from a power up high
Hanging on with the last thread of the string
Sorrow and pain is all that it brings

Hope is a word held close and leaned on
But the meaning had darkened my mind like  the setting of the sun

Keeping a watch on his illness with tears
Knowing I must set free the pain it rears
Wanting to stop the hands of time
Wanting that child again that was once mine

Like a house of mirrors breaking each reflection I see
Clinging that one day his soul will be set free
Illness and drugs and demons all around
Feeling his spirit is not even earth bound

Still wanting so badly to save this child I have lost
Loosing his soul, his self worth at all costs
Praying for strength for us all who watch him loose it all
WAITING FOR THE Lord to hear my screaming call

A mother who is lost in an ocean of tears
Wishing her son would return as he once was
Clinging to each day he be set free from this curse
Praying and hoping for his rebirth

Helpless and alone in the hours of each passing day
Waiting for a miracle that might come his way

Helpless and Alone I feel everyday
Help me sweet Lord to just make it day by day

Sharon