Psychosomatic
Break Myself
I'm on fire
And the day is feeling hopeless
You'd see me burning but the burning's turning smokeless
Soon I won't feel at all
No
It's electric the neon heard inside your phone call
The letter's sadness and her madness it revolves
Bringing down the walls where you found her
No
Well, I'm willing to break myself
To shake this hell from everything I touch
I'm willing to bleed for days more reds and grays
So you don't hurt so much
And now I'm static
As your sky is turning purple and gray
I'm learning that the further that I crawl
The farther that I fall, is that ok?
No
And you're in pieces
As your world becomes a rainstorm
You've got no shelter I'm a thousand miles away
You'll survive the day
You say you're leaving
You say you're leaving
Well, I'm willing to break myself
To shake this hell from everything I touch
I'm willing to bleed for days more reds and grays
So you don't hurt so much
So you don't hurt so much
Never again will I fire this gun
No never again your the only one
No never again but you're already gone
I'm willing to break myself
I'm not afraid
I'm willing to break myself
I'm not afraid
I'm willing to break myself
I'm not afraid
Well, I'm willing to break myself
To shake this hell from everything I touch
I'm willing to bleed for days more reds and grays
So you don't hurt so much
So much
So much
So much
So much


Find Her Way
My friend says shes lost and cant find the way
But that was yesterday
And now shes gone the other way
Sometimes at night
She sits under the light looking at names on her list
But thats yesterday, she says shes tired
When she wakes up and looks out
Shes still lost without a way
When she wakes up and looks out
She just can't see the sun
Shes just stuck looking back on whats done
My friend says shes lost and cant find the way
But that was yesterday
She put away the list and woke up
Yeah she woke up with slits on her wrist
Now shes standing at the window clinching her fists
But that was yesterday and she says shes tired
She wakes up and looks out
Still so lost and can't find her way
When she wakes up and looks out
Stuck looking back on whats done
Lost without a way, not a drop of sun
I wish she'd just put away her list
And wipe the blood from her wrists
I wish she'd wake up
And say thats yesterday, I found my way
Those days are done, I found the sun
Because when she wakes up
She can't find her way
Today is yesterday
Today is yesterday
Want You
Just another of those days
Skies are clouded with greys
And you said, you're just so busy
Can't help it, I want you with me
It's just another of those days
Another night all alone
Waiting by the phone
Skies clouded by greys
Some fucked up haze
Just another of those days
Just another day
Just one more night alone
I'm waiting here for your notice
All while I wrote this
But you said, you're just so busy
I can't help that all I want
I just can't help, I want you with me
But you're just so busy
With anyone and everything but me
Just another of those days
Just another wasted effort
Better run before I'm hurt
Again
Just another of those days
Skies clouded with greys
And you said, you're just so busy
Can't help it, I want you with me
And you're so damn busy
With everyone and everything but me
And now I can't see, can't see
Can't see
Why I even bother
Just another of those days
One more night alone, waiting by the phone
Because you're too busy
Without me


Strength
I keep telling myself it can't get any worse than the days I've felt
Sitting down, just looking in the mirror, running my hand across the welt
Taking steps back, just wondering how long does it take to finally heal
Reclaiming the heart once lost, and again teaching myself how to feel
All the while I kept convincing myself I have it just so so bad
I turn around again to find a new strength I never knew I had
I've had enough of just swallowing what little pride it is I have left
I refuse to sit through just another day, when looking back, I'll regret
I've picked up the pieces, I'm trying to take back what was always mine
Sitting down, just looking in the mirror, knowing now, everything will be just fine
Taking steps back, realizing it all happens just exactly how it was planned
Waiting for tomorrow, If a problem comes, I'll just take it in hand... And think about how
All the while I kept convincing myself I just had it so so bad
I turn around again to find a new strength I never knew I had
I've had enough of just swallowing what little pride it is I had left
Now I walk through each day, looking back, I have no regret
And now I'm convincing myself I just don't have it so so bad
I'm showing my strengths I never quite knew I had
I'm done convincing myself I don't have it all that bad
Cause now I know I have the strength I never had
Sacrifice
I have sworn my love to you in its entirety and nothing could have made me stop from ensuring you lasted each day with safety. Even when the world smothered and burned beneath your feet I have raised and lifted you above the embers and coals keeping your feet from singeing. Grasping you under your arms and holding you above the chaos as a world so cold reaches at me. I have and would continue to walk with you suspended above me . My hands refusing to lose their grip and my muscles never tiring as I walk endlessly and aimlessly to find some form of safe haven to place you as the world burns around us. Even to watch myself perish after, it would be worth it to know that your smile reigns true forever more and I could die happily knowing I had done my best and only such, for you, and to know you were taken from the torment you once suffocated within.


The Promise
I know that I may not fully understand where it is you have come from. I see the road you have traveled and I realize I can't possibly comprehend the pain you have endured. I am sorry for my lack of knowledge on such things but please know that now as our paths have crossed your struggle is also mine. I wish now that our two roads may be one and through each hard time, may I carry you. Should hot coals cover the way, I shall escort you upon my back. Gladly I would feel the soles of my feet burning beneath me if only were it for you. Your safe travels to where ever it is you are going is all that fills my mind. Should storms rain down with the power of the gods, I will shelter you. If the Earth buckles under my feet, I will steady you. If fires raged through our course, I will lift you above and face the flame. Down jagged cliffs, and over the sands of time, I swear it now, I will forever be your protector. Should the skies fall, I will cover you with myself and bear the weight of the world during it's collapse. And all of the pain which I could suffer would never be suffering at all should I look up and see your smile. For your happiness is what makes mine real. May sunshine be all you see and as I carry you upon my back through the toughest of times. I truly hope, that from your vantage point high atop my shoulders, all you see be blue skies. Even should I stumble, fret not my love, for I will always put the stars within each. If a time comes where I seem weak, fear not my love, for I will never break with the pressure. And when we have found ourselves at the end of the dusty winding road and a new day has been found, I will lay you down in a field of wild flowers and grass. I will lay by your side looking to the heavens, and thank my lucky stars I have you.
Now Or Never
Can you tell me what it is
That runs... through your mind
Explain to me why it is
You take... it all for granted
So here I stand
So here I am
I don't give a damn
Don't care where I land
Take me now
Take me for what I am
No I don't give a damn
Don't care where I land
Take me now
Can you show me something
That isn't...filled with deceit
Can you help me find my way
Back to...My tired worn out feet
So here I stand
So here I am
I don't give a damn
Don't care where I land
No I don't care
Where I land
Just take me
Take me for what I am and
What I have to offer
The games are clever but
Its now or never so
Take me for what I am
I don't give a damn no
I don't care where I land
So when its all said and done
Will you...just let me go
And when it all comes down
Can you say...please don't go, because
Here I stand
Here I am
I don't give a damn
I don't give a damn
Don't care where I land
Take me as I am
I don't care
But you're so damn clever
But its now or never
And I don't care
No I don't care
Just take me for what I am