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Go base jumping. One of the biggest rushes in life has to be standing on a huge ass cliff, taking a few steps back, running, and jumping the fuck off. Sure anyone can have an airplane take you as high as you want and basically just falling out of it. I'm talking: climbing, hiking, roaming, chilling at the highest peak for a bit perhaps have a quick picnic. Then go fugitive off that bitch.

Route 6 road trip. One of my greatest ideas ever was the Route 6 road trip. Route 6 is the main street in my home town of Galeton. It also just happens to run from Provincetown, Mass. to Bishop, Cali. I would love to just get like six friends in a badass minivan and just drive for days, one road, straight across county, no interruptions, no stop signs... Maybe a few stops sign, one or two. Just crash in the van on the side of the road at night or rent a room. Whatever it takes. I'd fund this thing myself if I had the cash. Its definently one of the things I absolutely have to do before I die.

Run with the bulls. I don't think you can even get that close to dying going base jumping. I would love to run next to a wild ass death bull that has two things on its mind. One is getting to the end of the damn maze they make ya run through. And two, stampling, stabbing, spearing, goring and killing anyone that gets in your way. At Spain's Running of the Bulls you see those dumbasses slapping the bull with a rolled up newspaper, and you also see dumbasses getting a horn through the tummy. Dangerous, but it has to be a rush.

Have me one uh dem big weddins. I definently want to get married someday, but I'm not one of those freaks who have to have it on a specific day, at a specific hour, and with specific people in specific chairs. I don't care if its a big ass thing, people flying in from everywhere, eight foot tall cake, or not. Hell, I'd be happy wearing jeans and telling people to pull up a lawn chair and watch the action.

Inizi una famiglia. I also definently want to start a family too. Inizi una famiglia is Italian for start a family if you didn't catch that too quick like. Anywho, I don't need a huge ass family like my grandparents did (8 Children), but I don't want my son/daughter growing up as an only child. Trust me it sucks. I'd like to eventually have at least one son and one daughter. But no more than four kids total. Thats just too much.

Be a rock star. Thats the only profession I can see myself doing forever. I'm a message whore so I need to get my messages out to as many people as possible, and thats the best way I can see it being done. And its just not a good way to get people to stop and listen to me, but I just happen to be a fan of music, thats right. So theres two birds being demolished by one stone. And if I were to start a band, I'd have to be the front man. I don't have LSD (Lead Singer's Disease) or anything, but the only way to be sure that your message is sent, is sending it yourself.

Never change (the clothes of) who I am. You'll never see me with a closet full of Ambercrombie or Tommy Hilfiger clothes. I'd never go out and buy a beanie for $20 when there's one for $5 that looks exactly the same as the $20 one but doesn't have that famous name on the proper wash directions tag. That kind of stuff is for people who need to fit in and don't know how. They need that confidence that they will meet a lot of people with the same brand name printed on their chests to start a conversation. Either that or they (or their parents) have so much money they don't know what to do with it. I'm not saying that every shirt and pair of pants in my closet are different generic store brands. I have a lot of shit from Wicked Jester. Why? Not because everyone has it. Not because I need to find a woman that wears Wicked Jester so we can fall in love. The only reasons are because, no one else wears Wicked Jester, its cheap, and each shirt says something about me. Now if Wal-Mart and Bugle Boy came out with a shirt that looked exactly like a Wicked Jester shirt I wanted, and if it was cheaper, and if it wasn't on everyone you saw, I'd say goodbye to WJ and buy the Wal-Mart one. I just don't see what a $50 long sleeved blue shirt with red stripes and the Tommy logo on the tag has that a $10 or $20 long sleeved blue shirt with red stripes and a Bugle Boy logo on the tag doesn't. And what the hell does Tommy, Ambercrombie, Hollister, so on, say about the person wearing it? "Hi, I'm just like a million other people." Quote that a million times over and you'll see how meaningless it gets. Thats just one of a hundred different examples I could give about why its so important not too be a slave to media. I couldn't live my life seeing someone just like me at every Britney Spears concert, every TRL, and every clothing commercial. I don't see how anyone can.

Meet One of the people who changed my life. Jonathan Davis, Ed Roland, Marilyn Manson, David Robinson, Max Illidge, Luis Royo, Sully Erna, Jessicka (of Scarling and (formerly) Jack Off Jill), Christina Scabbia, and a few other choice individuals have made huge and positive impacts in my life. Whether that be something as simple as giving me something to do or as big as saving my life in one way or another. Not many people understand the bond some people have with lead singers, sports stars, writers, or other artists. The thing I needed the most was to know that someone else went through what I did. Most people who know me would probably think "What the hell has he gone through that was so terrible." But while they can cure their emotions in a book, a movie, a video game, or their girlfriends, I couldn't. The biggest problems in the lives of people like that are that they were bored one day. I know that there are people in the world that have it worse than me, no doubt about it, and I'm not trying to get sympathy from random people by any means. All I needed in my life were from the minds of those who inspired me and lifted my spirits. And I know if I were to ever meet one of those people I would totally freeze. Not because they are famous. Hell, half the people in the world don't know who half the people I mentioned are. Imagine, if you are very religious, dying and going to heaven. What would you do the first time you met God or Jesus? You would freeze too. To some people, God made a huge difference in their lives. He gave them something to believe in. Thats what those people I mentioned have done to me.

Talk to one person whose life I changed. The most important thing I want to do with my life is help someone, change someones life, or give back what so many people have given to me. Whether I do that through my poetry, music, or face to face it'll be the most meaningful expierence of my entire life. I want someone to come up to me, freeze, stutter and try to get out how something I did impacted their lives. I personally think that should be the single most important goal in everyone's life. There are hundreds of millions of different ways to do that from working at a soup kitchen on Thanksgiving to being the biggest rock star and hearing your song sung by people who don't even speak your language but still feel what you're saying.