It's a crazy world.
I realize that with the recent tragedy in New York and Washington, D.C.
But I realize how harsh the world can be when I realized pain.
It's not fun, it's not pretty.
If anyone ever sees this site, which I hardly doubt will happen, and if they know Claire and "others"
whom I haven't named because I am ashamed to say I don't know all of those people who I probably haven't given
a fair shake then I would like them to know that I am sorry. I am writing this because I feel it needs to be
written. Not for people to read as much as for myself to let things out.
Let me tell you about Claire if I may.
Claire is a rare breed a person that if you should consider yourself lucky to meet.
Claire is a nice person, who like us all can get mad, but always has her reasons.
Claire is a fun person who is one of the few who really has her head on straight.
So what did I do this this person?
Basicly I tried to make her life hell.
Towards the end of our... acquaintance... I got joy out of making her miserable. Case in point, my senior prom.
Also, when she broke up with one of my good friends.
But, tonight, I sit here... my own heart broken from some things that I have been going through...
And for some strange reasons I went to Claire's website, a woman who I haven't spoken to in over a year, I opened her website to view.
Her website profile reminded me a lot like me.
And I must admit, she was a lot like me. I just didn't like her. She probably could have been Mother Teresa but with the circumstances of how things went between me and her.
Just plain disastrous.
I'm sorry that happened now in retrospect, she would have been a great friend I think. One who would have understood me now that I read her profile
and see the glaring similarities and think back to how she was similar and yet I thought so different.
It was a shame.
It is a shame.
Claire is just one of I think a few people who I have done this to. I don't come to make a public apology. But this is my own way of letting it out.
I only speak of Claire because it was her website that made me come to this revelation as I try to reorganize my life.
But Claire, in this message, is a representative of all people that I did not treat as well as I should have.
So Claire and others, I am sorry for what I have done to you. It was unfair. I hope you don't hold it against me.
Am I asking for another chance to be your friend?
No.
I can't ask for that.
You are a wonderful person and I would love to have you as a friend. But the past is done.
Ironically enough, even after all the stuff I put her through, I always respected and mostly agreed with Claire's advice. Many people can back me up on that.
She is wise in many things like that.
If you ever come across her, don't be like I was. Don't make her life hard.
We all have hard enough lives as it is without helping each other making it harder.
No, if you see her, try to be friends with her.
I've seen her friends...
I think she brings something to their lives.
She's a good person. You don't find them in this world today that much. So you need to recognize those who have and hold on to them.
Two quotes that I have blantenly stolen from her website, that I would like to share:
Advice is what we ask for when we already know the answer, but wish we didn't.
~ Erica Jong
I don't know the key to success, but the key to failure is trying to please everyone.
~Bill Cosby
Good night everyone
Lord, thank your for today. Give me the strength to cope with tomorrow.
~ Mr. DiGiesi
(more to come)