My Thoughts by Felicia

In my mind I am stuck in a mirrored maze...Lost and wondering day and day...Crying my tears...thinking my thoughts...living my life slowly, but still I'm lost... I've made mistakes...more scared and scared...wondering if those pills will come nearer..to my hand...I hold so many...wanting to swallow... wanting to sleep that beautiful sleep...no one will expext when death comes for me.... and so I await that day when I become so afraid....so scared and so alone....i decide that my life should be no more... I know its not just yet...i know my times not now.... I still expect to live all round.... I like the person who I am.. but still I wonder .... is it my face I see in my mirrored mind of mazes.. or is there a mask that is clear as the wind.. that I myself hide behind.... that I myself cannot face yet till I realize... that, that is who I really am....