Acute Emotional and Psychological Damage

All of my life the same old story, Everything great for me is all a past glory, Anything and everything that ever mattered to me is gone, I have nothing left to do but write the same old song, Nothing, nothing, nothing is all I am anymore, I can't sleep or speak without being a bore, Addiction and obsession fuels what's left of my heart, I've had it, no more, no place for me to re-start, The needle is fuel to kickstart my day, Even if you leave it will always be here to stay, All those I love you's whispered in your ear, Must have meant something when you shead a tear, Crying in the night for what I have lost, And longing for what I had tossed, Your still in my heart and on my mind, No one like you again will I find, Emotional yes, Psychotic, a bit, Hopeless I am, I don't even know why I still give a shit, After all was said and done, Back to me I wanted you to run, Fix me please anyway you can, I lost it the day you told me you ran, I'm caught under and I'm so close, My arms are bruised, cut, and morose, All my family is dead or dying, You were all that kept me from crying, I'm pulled under, oh so close, Blood runs as red as a rose, And I'm so tired, So goddamn tired, Emotional damage is what I think I have, Psychological damage is what I know I have, I'm a loser, I'm an addict, I'm lost, And I'm so fed up with everything I can think of, My time is coming.