To live a life full of love
Hopes and dreams come true
The life you live
Is the life you planned
The life you always wanted
Wasn’t it?
What if?
Dare I ask?
Should I even think?
Did you want to live this way?
Always and forever
Love is forever
But is it enough?
What about the anger?
Or the hurt?
The frustration?
The past?
Do they ever go away?
Will they always be there,
Lurking around,
Waiting to ruin us?
Does it get any better?
Or will it only get worse?
Pulled in two directions
The pain grows stronger
I love you more everyday
Every time I see you
And every second I spend with you
But the anger and the hurt
The frustration and the past
They keep lurking
In me, yes,
But also in you
I see it in your eyes
That incredible sadness
Are we the same?
Those same two people,
Who fell in love so long ago?
At times I feel as if I am
But then I see it
The never-ending reminder in your eyes
Will it ever go away?
It burns, you know
Burns holes into my heart
Holes that only seem to grow
That never heal
It kills me inside
To know who I am
And what I have done
How can you love me?
I can’t even begin to understand
Because I don’t even know
How to love myself anymore
