I was always into New Age stuff and the occult. I always had a deep interest in it even when I didn't realize it. My family, (except my parents) says that I get it from my great grandmother. I was baptized as a Roman Catholic, but I cannot understand or belief the religion. I went to CCD when I was younger and had a half of year in a Catholic school, which gave me lessons on the Roman Catholic Religion. I just did not do well in those classes. I also cannot follow the religion what so ever. One day in 1998 after I first got the internet, I was watching Buffy the vampire slayer, (a fave TV show of mine), and I decided to look up Techno-Pagan as the one teacher on there was. And what I found amazed me. Much of the Wicca Religion was of what I had believed myself, I do believe in a Goddess and a God. I was so surprised what I had believed actually was a religion. I had found my path. My family does not know of my path as of yet, but I am slowly slipping them hints. One day when I feel they are ready I will tell them. My parents know but my dad could care less and only uses it as a way to make puns outta it. My mom knows also but somehow keeps the knowledge away from her. She is very disappointed that I choose the path of Wicca, one day I went to the library with her and I was taking out a superstition book out and she says, that stuff is related to witchcraft, I say back, "So." Them she gives me this look and I see that she remembers that I am into it. She also doesn't like me practicing my belief. She throws a fit when I burn incense and stuff like that. My dad said that we have argued ever since I learned to talk, my mom and I are opposites even know we are of the same zodiac sign. She is closed minded and she cannot digest that I have chosen the path I have. I am trying to search family records and my family tree that came from Ireland and Germany to see if anyone else in my family had the interests that I have like my Great Grandmother. But I have had no luck so far. I'll just keep on asking my 2 fave Aunts more about her.
Updates: My fights with my mom have gotten worse, I was on the verge of moving out but if I do I will lose everything I had worked hard for. One weekend I went to visit my grandmother, to get away from my mom. When I first walked in my Aunt Jo was sitting there (it was her idea for me to go to my Grams, we decided through our email convos) I was wearing my pentacle at the time, cause I told Gram a while ago it stood for the elements and she had liked it. My aunt says she likes my Witches Pentacle, My aunt seems to understand me so well, we have become pretty close. Well after my aunt said that about my necklace, my Gram freaks out, "Witches!!?? Necklace!! Witch!!???" My Aunt replies back "She's Glenda the Good Witch." I'm like speechless listening to this, I didn't want my family to know. I not supposed to wear that necklace to my Grams again cause my mom said she was freaking out to her. My Gram is close-minded like my mom. Also for my 18th birthday a couple months before my Aunt Jo had gotten me A Witches Almanac. I think she's psychic or something, cause I never told anyone in my family about my path. My parents knew but they wouldn't have told my Aunt Jo. Well now my Aunt pretty much knows and she's open about it. We constantly email each other back and forth, she says to stick out 8 more months of school then I can come and move to pittsburgh with them and go to college, I am only in my last year of High School and I can't wait to get out then again in some ways I'll miss it. But at least I am get away from the sparking fires that my mom and I have.