Drowning in the Emoceans
Mood:  crushed out
Topic: Personal
It's 1448 hours on this Memorial Eve. Now ending is the Nickelback video "Someday" off of Roadrunner Records.com. It's 5:48 PM in Haverhill, MA.

If I wish 2 go public w/ something, I should mention a little story about how I attracted this young lady back in 1999. {"Savin' Me" by Nickelback plays; it's #19 on Billboard & #4 on Rick Dees' Top 40 Hot Adult Mix.] I shall not name names 2 protect the innocent. But I will say that as I was watchin' my graduation tape & came a-X the site of a beautiful brown-eyed girl, both her first & middle name have been stirrin' up 1000 thoughts since that thyme, like, an decade ago. It's 4:37 PM in Yuma, AZ as "Savin' Me" re-plaze.

2 this day, I'm tryin' 2 imit8 my best Sherlock, Angela Lansbury, or Gil Grissom & uncover the mystery of how I attracted this Massachusetts lass. (G, I sound like Snoopy.) It's 5:38 PM in Gary, IN.

I think I'm takin' a bigg risc typin' up somethin' so personnel as this. I'm also bringing up hints & facts as 2 who the intended parties may b. As I switch over to "Someday," I realise that I have written two different un-Finnished literary works. One is some fictional account about striking a romance w/ a hi school crush which ends in a dramatic Shakespearean or Greek fashion. The name of one Maine character is, well, "Marianne." For all yall Tori fanns, there certainly is a deeper inspiration 2 choosing the name "Marianne" if, like me, u listen to her "Boys For Pele" CD. It's 1546 hours as "Someday" plays again.

The other story is about some naive, lonely girl named Cydney Calagayan. Her ethic background is ?-Irish, ?-Filipina. If I wanted 2 choose another Asian nationalty, I could've, but that's another entry. She enters the fictional San Vicente State Univ. & tries to enter a mysterious sorority.

She does not enter SVSU 2 just necessarily get her degree & earn a career, respect, & prestige. She wants a adventure, excitement, & especially romance as she finally leaves her black-n-white nest. If I could try not 2 divulge 2 much, I should say that, um, Cydney eventually discovers love while looking in all the wrong places. It's 1552 hours as "Someday" plays again.

An NBA game is gonna b on TNT at 6:30 PM Mountain Daylite Thyme. I believe it's the Western Conference Finals. As the video ends, I choose not 2 bike back 2 my boyhood home cuz I've been they're 2 many thymes 4 me 2 count.

It's 1523 hours as I listen to a full-length sample of "Pill" by the alternative band Lake Trout. Previously, I've been listening to "Shiny Wrapper" and might *N 1? 2 listen to "Riddle," just as I have the last time I biked up to Cal State. It's 6:25 PM in Indianapolis as I prepare the second video by mainstream rock band Nickelback, "Savin' Me." It's 3:25 PM in Antioch, CA.

It's 1529 hours. If I had my iPod w/ me, or actually if I were by my really really old PC listening to the Windows Media Player, I could b listening to a playlist called "Playlist for a Brown-Eyed Girl." The same playlist is called, well, something else on my iPod. It's 3:31 PM in Lake Isabella, CA. It's the bottom of the hour, dudes as I shall play "Savin' Me."

In previous posts, I've written about the girl @ the neighborhood frozen yogurt shop. My parents actually said that I was blacklisted as we passed by it on their way 2 drop me off @ said boyhood home & b free of me.

2 this day, I am still trying 2 figure out how I came on this um Yahoo! Chat site, being friendly, & than I became friendly enuff 2, um, build a correspondence thru email. & as u can c, I like 2 write a lot of stuff. It's 1555 hours hear as I play that Nickelback video again.

Again, the PC @ home's still busted up. Her Yahoo! IM icon is always active. But I am purdy much on the outside lookin' in. Being apprehensive & an tad paranoid here in the CSUB PC labrador, I try my darnest 2 look busy by having a window opened up to MSNBC.com so that I look like I'm doin' research. Currently, in a not-so-packed lab, I don't need 2 worry about foolin' around.

It's a coupl'a mins as the final verse of "Someday" becomes the chorus. Damn, I miss her.

I also miss that girl, too.

Mood:  happy
Topic: Personal
Good afternoon. It's 1229 hrs. Now playing on iTunes is a "WOXY.com Lounge Act" by Aberdeen City. I dunno if they're referrin' 2 Aberdeen, SD or Aberdeen, U.K. Did somebody say Franz Ferdinand? It's 1230 hrs.
I just called Jaime V., aka Bobo the Millennium Clown & maid a quick catch-up & N4med him about this website. It's 1231 hrs. It's 1314 hrs as "Moon-Shy City" by Lejeune plays on my WOXY.com podcast. It's 1:15 PM.
I have b4 me on this old desk "The Kissing Game" by Kasey Michaels and a dairy that Ina Goodling, a member of the creative writers' club o'er @ Barnes & Noble, gave 2 me. It's 1232 hrs as Aberdeen City plays "In Combat." I was gonna play the Lounge Act by Summer Lawns or by The Long Winters, but I already herd 'em both. It's 1233 hrs.
So what should I give Anna for her fourteenth b'day on Feb. 2? Simpsons literature? A compact disc from The Beetles or sum alternative rock band? (Alternative to who? Aerosmith? Metallica? Limp Biscuit?
Green Day?)
It's 1240 hrs. My Dad's been up my butt about cleanin' the bathroom.
It's 1310 hrs. I'm now listening to Volume Nine of "Unsigned@WOXY.com."
Should I contact Dawn M. Noel? I musta had a correspondence w/ her from the year 1999. It's 1;11 PM.
I hope I don't become def like Beethoven, Rush L., or Phil Collins. It's 1313 hrs. "That's All."


"Everyday," by Phil Collins or Bon Jovi or Dave Matthews Band.

1st Lenghty Poste in Quite Awhile
Mood:  caffeinated
Topic: Personal
Good morning! Tis 0230 hrs, & I'm listening to "In the Light" by dc Talk on iTunes for the fortieth thyme.

It's 0231 hrs. I am weigh behind on reading my beeswax law textbook, & my last regular day of class is 2morrow.

As I currently listen to "Second Chance" by .38 Special for the tenth time, I was earlier listening to 101.5 KGFM-FM while readin' my textbook. Thru-out Nov. & Dec., the station has been playin' Xmas carols & contemporary songs nonstop. It is 47? in Bakersfield 2nite.

It's 0245 hrs as I begin listening to WOXY.com on Windows Media Player. What has been pestering me mentally when I was listenin' 2 all them carols was how my family has the Xmas spirit. & I just only thought about how I lack it. I'm tryin' 2 type on this blog what I can say w/o steppin' on eggshells or whatever. Now playing on WOXY.com is "Today Is the Day" by Apollo Sunshine. It's 0247 hrs. I haven't scheduled an appt. w/ Dr. Urias in the past week or 2. I could wrationalize & say that I'm givin' my Czech-book or my Mom's checkbook a rest by deferrin' on twenty-dollar copay & stuff. Incidentally, I have an appointment w/ my optometrist 2morrow afternoon. I think what I wish 2 Cher w/ my therapist is how I underwent yett another moode swing. Recently, I went thru kind of a carefree mood swing. Or maybe I just had some daze & knights when I just didn't give a hoot. It's 0251 hrs. I better resume readin' my business law book.

It's 0257 hrs. Now playing on AccuHolidays.com or whatever is "Angels We Have Heard on High" by Papa Wemba & Mino Cinelu, from the World Christmas compliation album. I'm currently reedin' the section on warranty liability of partys.

It's 0304 hrs. Now playing is "God Rest Ye Merry Gentlemen/We Three Kings" by Barenaked Ladies & Sarah McLachlan. The last time that I played streamin' audio from AccuHolidays, Anna was in the room. She skipped over any songs by Barenaked Ladies just because she instinctively thinks they suck. & I'm sure that my whole family isn't 2 open-minded w/ my choice of music 2 spread Xmas cheer or whatever. Aisle elabor8 on that L8r. Now playing is "O Holy Night." It's 0308 hrs.

Now playing is "I'll Be Home for Christmas" by Larry Chance & the Earls. It's 0314 hrs. I am reminded of the last family road trip that I can remember that went beyond Las Vegas--the Yellowstone trip in the spring of '91, I believe--when my mother chose 2 play a cassette of Xmas carols. It was just a run-of-the-mill compliation of Christmas songs from nameless artists; musta been cheep. @ my hasty pace, I figure that since my folks enjoy Christmas carols so much, I'll probably go 2 Wal-Mart & look 4 that Clay Aiken Xmas CD. While my siblings will give me their usual amount of crap for obtaining such music, I assume my parents won't mind. Christmas albums by 'N-Sync, 98?, Mariah Carey, & Brooks & Dunn were all purchased by me. Pardon me for using passive voice. Now playing is "Ave Maria" by (hmm) Michael Bolton w/ Placido Domingo. It's 0319 hrs.

Its 0324 hrs. As I listen to Michael Bolton and Placido Domingo, I'm reminded of when Bolton actually performed some form of a aria @ the American Music Awards a few years back. It's 46? outside. As I surf on over to the Bonnie Bernstein fansite on Yahoo!, its the same ol' same ol' w/ the Bonniephiles. U'no, K-C gives some ridiculous nicknames for sports teems he h8s. Or rob7223686, talks about being humbled by his Steelers losin' 2 the Clots or so & his thing w/ the demo & stuff. CR3861 managed 2 mention me; something about a B? cardbored cutout from a Danasi ad. It's 0333 hrs. So when do I get 2 mention about the drawering I made of Bonnie underwater amongst "guinea pig fish"? I'm still buggin' Anna 2 draw a C-hoarse w/ a cockatiel's head on it. I guess when I finally move out of the house, Anna won't have 2 put up w/ such dumbass requests from me anymore. I hope she appreci8s it. Sigh. Back 2 the carols & the book. Something about defences against being a holder in due coarse. It's 0335 hrs. Now playing is "What Child Is This" by Ardelio Gomez. I'm sure Alain, Anna, & Jasmyn won't like this version.

It's 0349 hrs. Now playing is "Jingle Bells" by Frank Sinatra & Bing Crosby. If ever this song appears on KGFM, I'm sure my Mom & Dad won't minde.

It's 0355 hrs. U'no, I do remember issuing a sorta worksheet, multiple-choice quiz kinda thingy that pertained to certain animated TV series, uh, "Garfield's Babes & Bullets" or something, w/ vocab. & everything. Musta been 'round the early nineties. I'd give it 2 Jasmyn & she'd finish it & stuff. I guess I just mite b a teacher after all. Is this Trace Adkins, the country signer? Now playin' is "The Christmas Song" by Adkins, & it's 0357 hrs.

I gotta start watchin' the gnus more often. 17 News & 29 Eyewitness News has, like, the most beautiful female newscasters! Melissa Magee, Alexia Kapinaris {sp}, Tami Mlcoch, Lisa Krch, etc. Mmm, mmm, mmm! In the meantime, Bette Midler (yuck! My Mom loves her) sings "White Christmas" on AccuHolidays. It's 0403 hrs. Mann, Anna sure has a lotta crap on this desk; she oughta clean this &%??$ up! It's 0405 hrs; kurrently playin' is "Baby It's Cold Outside" by Barry Manilow w/ K.T. Olsin. I didn't even no that was a Xmas song. I no it ain't no carol. Well, there's Michael Bolton again, singin' "Joy to the World" on AccuHolidays. It's 0416 hrs. G, sounds just as upbeet as the version Mariah Carey did. I wonder if he's gonna do the part by Three Dog Night, 2? Now playing is "White Christmas" by Hanson. I could skip it if I wish, but I did rank "MMMbop" as my favourite song of '97, & it is 0424 hrs. How masochistic am I? It's 0430 hrs; currantly playin' is "Let It Snow" by Michael Buble. U'no, I never herd his X-Over song "Home" on KGFM. That's 2 bad; so it seamz I've only heard his music on AccuRadio.com. Now playing is the "loo-loo" version of "Hark the Herald Angels Sing" by The Dino Martinis. U'no, like on that Peanuts Xmas cartoon that ABC always shows on December?

It's 0440 hrs. Now playing is "The Twelve Days of Christmas" by The Chipmunks. This is from their album "Greatest Christmas Hits." In our house, we just have one Chipmunks CD, so we're pretty much limited 2 whatever's on that CD thru-out these holidays. U'no, that "hang up your stocking" song & what knot. My textbook has an interesting story that involves Rabobank. The name is familiar cuz that's what represents the sports arena we have in town. It's 0444 hrs. In a section called "Maker of Promissory Notes Liable to HDC," it's about how a guy that was draughted in the NFL 'round 1983, Leonard Smith was his name; he invested in sum chattel-breeding thingy & it involves Rabobank, based in Holland. I think he got, like, screwed over or something. Something about fraud in the phantom? It's 50? in Bakersfield. & I think Smith was drafted in the same year as John Elway, Dan Marino, Jim Kelly, & all those really great football guys. If I were 2 ask a lingerie-clad B? who those "Class of '83" guys were while givin' her foot rubbs, mayB I could get a good answer. It's 0450 hrs. Now playing is "Sleigh Ride" by The Ronettes.

Since it's 0453 hrs, aisle probably 4go listening 2 WOXY.com when I Finnish reading Chapter 24 of this stupid book. Now playin' is "Winter Wonderland" by Jane Leeves; u'no, she had a recurrin' role on "Murphy Brown" as Audrey. I doubt if u can still c the show on Lifetime, but I think u can still c it on Nick at Nite. Isle continue this post soon.

Topic: Personal
Greetings to all who have visited my blog! Allow me to introduce myself. My name is Keith Pangilinan. As you can tell from the last name, I am Filipino-American, and thus have had to put up with non-Filipinos screwing up such a name. Funny thing, though. I have not learned my native tongue, which is Tagalog. I was born in Westwood, NJ, where plenty of my relatives are, then when I was little my folks moved to a suburb of Detroit, and then we spent the rest of our lives here in Bakersfield, CA. My Dad, Florencio, is a doctor and my Mom, Nenette, is a nurse. I am the oldest of four children (b. 8/8/78). I have two sisters & a brother: Jasmyn (3/3/80), Alain (9/16/84), and Anna (2/2/92). (Incidentally, you can view Anna's own website at this address here: http://members.lycos.co.uk/barcoccumusb/) I attended Bakersfield High School from 1992 to 1996. Then I went to Chapman University in Orange County (1996), Bakersfield College (1997-2000), and Cal State Northridge (2000-2001). During those years I majored in business administration and I had trouble keeping my grades up. Currently I have returned to Bakersfield College where now I'm trying to earn an Associate's in Accounting, and I have also been admitted to Cal State Bakersfield (a short twelve-minute bike ride from my house), where I'm trying to earn a teaching certificate. My favourite activities are bicycling, shooting hoops, working on my website, writing, and drawing. I like watching baseball, football, basketball, & hockey. Basketball is my favourite sport, which I can attribute to my ethnic upbringing; Filipinos happen to be fond of basketball, maybe of only the NBA kind. I actually took on a significant interest in the NHL because of the video game "EA Sports NHL 2003," and thus recognize many of the European hockey players such as Mats Sundin, Zdeno Chara, Marian Gaborik, Olaf Kolzig, etc. And through football and coll. basketball, specifically through CBS Sports, I then became a fan and admirer of perhaps the prettiest and savviest sports reporter I've ever seen, Bonnie Bernstein. I love listening to music. I still remember hearing Phil Collins' "That's All" and Madonna's first hit, "Holiday," back when I was about three to five. Around March 1987, I discovered "Rick Dees & the Weekly Top 40," when I heard "Stop" by Luther Vandross at #15, I think, and I was interested to see which songs were better, or just ranked higher. I had to know what was #1. I learned in an hour and a half that the #1 song was "At This Moment" by Billy Vera & the Beaters. With a small collection of audiocassettes, I chose to record broadcasts of Rick Dees from then on. Through that, I can remember that hits from the late eighties were "Will You Still Love Me" by Chicago, "Lean on Me" by Club Nouveau, "Open Your Heart" by Madonna, "Pump Up the Volume," by M.A.R.R.S., etc. I then came across "American Top 40," which was originally hosted by Casey Kasem, but I heard Shadoe Stevens at that time. Then Casey was hosting the show again. My parents didn't like the fact that I taped Rick Dees all the time, saying it was an addiction. Well, better than drugs I guess. I think I was just fascinated by hearing which songs were ranked in the Top 40. And through this, I took greater interest in music, although playing music wasn't my strongest interest. As I'm currently listening to "Things Can Only Get Better" by Howard Jones for the ninety-ninth time, I think about the Windows Media Player playlist this song is in, and I understand that this playlist, Playlist Essex, has plenty of '80s songs. I love '80s songs 'cause it was the music I listened to from my boyhood. Granted, I only like specific '80s songs. KLLY-FM, an adult top 40 station, plays the same darn '80s songs like "(Don't You) Forget about Me" by Simple Minds and "Love Shack" by The B-52's; that's why I don't listen to that station on a regular basis. (Plus they play too much Sugar Ray and Sheryl Crow.) Well, I think I might have said enough on this post. I'll make more reflections on what I've heard on the radio later on.