Morning Entry
Mood:  caffeinated
The following entry was written on paper.

Good freakin' mourning. It is now 0409 hours. Now playin' on my iPod is the 12th song on my "DS Artist of 2005 Nominees" playlist, "Witness" by Tori Amos. I have completed the Sudoku and Jumble puzzles in Tuesday's edition of The Bakersfield Californian.
It's 0412 hrs. Now playin' is the d Dubb remix of "The Slam" by tobyMac f/ T-Bone.
I have taken my Seroquel after midnight, according to my father's suggestion. That hasn't really helped me fall asleep, though. If I play all eighty-two songs of the playlist on the iPod, the sun will be up well into the mourning. Tori Amos returns with "Cars & Guitars." It is now 0416 hrs.
Am I the last person in the world to be writin' w/ a pencil & paper? If I were any other human being, would I cope w/ my insomnia by turning on a computer & begin typing? Back-to-back Tori -- now playing is "The Power of Orange Knickers" featuring Damien Rice.
In case you're wondering who the DS Artist of 2005 Nominees are, they are the recording artists that I have been listening to throughout this year. The six artists who are nominated for DS Artist of the Year are Tori Amos, tobyMac, John Cena & Tha Trademarc, Falling Up, Brooks & Dunn (whose song "Whiskey Do My Talkin'" is currently playing) and the only inactive DS Artist, Vertical Horizon. That means that a nominee has not had a hit song during this year, but I've spent a few moments in this year listening to older songs. In other words, I have been listening to CDs from all the six musicians, but the CD's by Vertical Horizon weren't released this year or even the last six months of the previous year. It's 0428 hrs; now playing again is Tori Amos, this thyme with "Toast."
Tobymac is bac w/ another d Dubb remix, this time of "Hey Now." Its the 18th song playing on this playlist.
Around me are pencil sketches of Bonnie Bernstein, the sideline reporter for CBS Sports. I never thought that I wood be making illustrations of female human beings. Earlier, I was sketching Beanie Babies. & back when I was a kid, I used to draw cartoon characters and stuff from the video game "Super Mario Bros. 3." Now playin' is "Keep Frontin'" by John Cena & The Trademarc featuring Bumpy Knuckles. It's 0436 hours.
Now playing is "Moonlight" by Falling Up. Twenty down, sixty-two 2 geaux. 2 think, what got me riveted in music is counting down the songs. & now it's a song from the band's "Crashings" album. Its called "Jacksonfive." Ever since Rick Dees and Casey Kasem were off the heir in Bakersfield in 2003, my family hasn't really blamed them for my troubles or misadventures. Now playing is the original version of "The Slam." You may have herd it in the trailer to "The Transporter 2." It's 0448 hrs.
I must've spent under six hours online over the past week. That's cuz Jasmyn is in town for the holidays and sleeps in the den. That's probably y I've been unable to get to my website & resume blogging. I have seen Anna's blog. Like most bloggers I'm sure, she writes like she talks. But that ain't my style, yo. Now playing is "Make It Loud" by John Cena. I think this comes from my frustrations with the English language. Now playin' is "She Likes to Get Out of Town." by Brooks & Dunn. Kix Brooks is singing in this one. It's 0454 hrs. I haven't even used up ? of the iPod's battery life yet.
There are also four golf balls on my desk. I use them as Chinese exercise balls. The only difference is that they don't chime & stuff. Currently playin' is the title track to Tori Amos' L8est album, "The Beekeeper."
Back when I was a boy, English and reading were not my favourite subjects. I can't recall if I ever flunked those subjects prior to high school; I could ask my Mom & Dad about it but won't. I was not born to write creatively. I remember school days where I had a creative writing assignment & I'd spend the whole damn thyme staring down a blank page. To prove that I was struggling w/ the thang, I would write down "The" as the first word. And I think that's y I'm amazed about the fact that Anna can maintain a blog, much less a website. It is now 0504 hrs as "Burn for You" by tobyMac plays. If there were blogs around the time that I was 13? years old, ther'd b no stinkin' way in hell that I would make a blog, because I would h8 writing. I ain't sure how my baby sister's doing in English and reading, but I'm sure she could be better at it then I was when I was in the eighth grade. The twenty-eighth song playin' is Falling Up's "Ambience." It's 0512 hrs.
I think the reason y I despised readin' and grammar was because I was just a couch potato. I would rather watch cartoons and play w/ my toys then write about, um, I dunno, spending a week on vacation or something. It's 0515 hrs. Twenty-nine down, fifty-three to go. Now playing is "Diverse City" by tobyMac.
I also know for a fact that freewriting or whatever could get me in hot water. The first time that I left a college disgracefully was when I had 2 maintain a journal for my creative writing class. Realizing that I was melting down as a student w/ falling grades and dropping classes, I maid my final journal entry a really nasty one, filled w/ expletives and such. The thirty-first song playing is "Marys of the Sea" by Tori Amos. It is now 0522 hrs.
I have b4 me notes for a future blog post. They mention old school, Stevie B, Art Laboe's Killer Oldies, the R&B group Surface from the late 80s/early 90s, etc.
It's 0527 hours. Now playing is "Mother Revolution" by Tori Amos, the thirty-second song on the DS Artist of the Year Nominees playlist. However, it's only there because of a glitch. In a haste, I disconnected my iPod while it was upd8ing the software all night so that I could play it in my car on my way 2 my beeswax law class. [Now playin' is "Best I Ever Had (Grey Sky Morning), one of only a coupl'a songs by Vertical Horizon on the playlist.] Did I have a choice? Yeah! I coulda just listened to the AM radio! Now, I screwed up the play count on iTunes. And I talked about it w/ Dr. Urias, my therapist. It's 0534 hrs; I better arrange a appointment w/ her soon. Now playing is "Goodbye Pisces" by Tori Amos.
I better remind Anna to put up a link on her website to my website. It's been a slow few months. Thirty-four down, forty-eight to go.
Currently playing is Brooks & Dunn's "I May Never Get Over You." I'm lucky enough or so 2 write voluntarily after enduring all the lessons on the proper ways to use punctuations such as commas, semicolons, and ellipses. I can remember in the fifth grade those damned five-paragraph essays Ms. Musser maid us write. Now playing is the other Vertical Horizon song on the playlist, "Underwater." And I have two drawings of Bonnie Bernstein beneath the surface on blue paper. It is now 0544 hours. Anyway, I used to end such essays with "goodbye and an ack-ack-a-dack to you." I got that from a episode of "The Flintstones."
Currently playing is "Searchlights," the opening track on Falling Up's "Dawn Escapes" album. I remember some B.S. from my Mom telling me that I would get "cartoonitis" or "carton-nineties" from watching too much animated series. I was like, what the ?&$# is she talking about? Well, maybe I succumbed to it, for I was still watching cartoons well into jr. high. Now playin' is "Ireland" by Tori Amos. It's 0550 hrs. Thirty-eight down, forty-four to go.
The 39th song playin' is a five-star fave of mine: "Intro the Gravity" by Falling Up.
I would probably get a nice, red F on these sheets of paper if it were turned in as a assignment that required no "stream o' consciousness" writing or no improper use of homonyms, numerals, & characters. Falling Up continues playing as the next song from their "Dawn Escapes" CD, "Flights." It is now 0558 hrs.
As I look at all of the baseball caps my Mom has bought for me, I am reminded of a Xmas carol. On this day, the fourth day of Christmas, my mother gave to me thirteen baseball hats.
My iPod has now played the number of songs that Casey Kasem's successor, Ryan Seacrest, would play on a countdown. Now playing is the Shortwave Radio mix of tobyMac's "Burn for You." It's 0602 hrs. I haven't heard "West Coast Kid" or "Don't ##!? with Us" yet.
I was about to end the evening by reading the Bible, but I did that on Tuesday. According to the pamphlet from St. Philip the Apostle, we would begin reading from the First Letter of John. That was cuz December 27 honours Saint John. I think that's one of the U.S. Virgin Islands. Now playin' is "Jamaica Inn."
I have listened to moor then ? of the songs on the playlist. I should think back to all those weekend mornings when I spent four hours taping Rick Dees and Casey Kasem. No downloading or mp3's back than. The Top 40 countdown hasn't been on the air since Feb. '03. I miss it still, but not as much as the last 2x that the countdown was off the air. For one thing, I ain't really into pop music. I can't stand Britney Spears or the Pussycat Dolls. Now playin' is "Lights of Reedport" by Falling Up. It's 0612 hrs.
What I miss when I listen to the Top 40 countdown is that I would be inspired to do a Top 10 list of my own favorite songs. I've even done Top 100 lists. I have compiled seven Top 100 lists, spannin' the years 1995-1998, 2000-2002. (The countdown was off the heir from July '98 to Oct. '99.
Now playing is another 5-star hit, "Contact" by Falling Up. It's 0619 hrs. I just picked up yellow ledgers or tablets of which I wrote down "the forty hottest songs in the nation!" Uh-huh. From May 1994 to 2003, I wrote down all the songs from #40 to #1. I had to used tape to keep the scribble pads from fallin' apart. (Now playing is "If It All Ended Tomorrow" by John Cena & Tha Trademarc.)
I heard on ABC News over the radio about a deadly shootin' at Valley Plaza, the nearest mall from here. When my Dad places today's newspaper on the breakfast table, I will probably see a "ginormous" headline about it. And maybe the Bonniephiles will mention it on their Yahoo! site, considering that I'm from Bakersfield. It's 0627 hours & the sky's still black. Now playing is "Running Game" by John Cena.
This willby the third consecutive morning of which I haven't had enuff rest 2 oversleep. Since a lot of us in the family like to sleep in, it would be unusual for my parents to see me up early eating breakfast. Now playin' is Brooks & Dunn's "That's What It's All About." It's 0632 hrs. Tis a good thang my classes don't start till mid-January.
As I look at an anime-style drawering of B?, BenchPower suggests me 2 make a drawing of her on the football field and stuff. I guess I better get around to it. I sure have been making a lot of "out-of-element" Bonnie Bernstein pictures, such as the one of her in a red babydoll. Currently playin' is "Catchafire (Whoopsi-Daisy)" by tobyMac f/ M.O.C. & Papa San. Fifty down, thirty-two to go. And the western sky is turning navy blue. Or as they say at the University of Michigan...just blue.
Now playing is "Beantown" by John Cena & Tha Trademarc featuring Esoteric. A thing about this song. Listening to the second verse rapped by Tha Trademarc (a.k.a. Marc Predka) w/ all that stuff about the New England Patriots is like listening to the "Super Bowl Shuffle." You know, where the Super Bowl champions the Chicago Bears recorded a rap song or something? About as kitschy as when Bart Simpson did a rap song back in 1991. "Do the Bartman" or something. That song made it to the Top 10...but that's according to Rick Dees and not Billboard. Ain't it funny how the charts that provide 411 for Rick Dees and Casey Kasem's countdowns are not based on Billboard Magazine? But not "American Country Countdown with Bob Kingsley." It follows the Billboard Country Charts. Now playing is "This Is How We Roll," by John Cena & Tha Trademarc. That's over. And now its "Bittersweet" by Falling Up. It's 0649 hrs.
I hope I don't have to take another Seroquel this morning, even if I havent't slept all night. Fifty-four down, twenty-eight to go.
Now playin' is "The Time Is Now" by John Cena & Tha Trademarc. In this song, Cena mentions his slogan, "You can't see me."
When I turned on my computer last knight, I plugged in the Zip drive and hooked up my mp3 player, expecting to catalogue sound samples or whatever. I didn't. I think I was writing instead & listening to this playlist on Windows Media Player. Currently playin' is "Barons of Suburbia" by Tori Amos. I think this song presents Amos' true alternative rock element or whatever that was once prevalent on her earlier albums. I'm gonna conclude this blog entry. It's 0657 hrs. Fifty-six down, twenty-six to go.

New B? Drawings!
Topic: Bonnie Bernstein
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Good morning, yall. It's 0728 hrs. & "Ireland" gives way to "Barons of Suburbia" on iTunes. I'm currently listenin' 2 a four-song Tori Amos "block": "Ireland," "Barons of Suburbia," "Sleeps with Butterflies," & "Toast." I read the CD review on Rolling Stone.com in regards 2 "The Beekeeper"; apparently the guy wasn't like satisfied w/ it. I probably can understand that. Maybe some true Tori fans miss, you know, the music from her earlier days such as "Under the Pink," "Little Earthquakes," & the 1st album I bought, "Boys For Pele." As "Barons of Suburbia" ends, I think that this could b the one song on the album that probably stays true 2 the whole Tori essence or whatever. It's 0733 hrs. I remember talking w/ the barbers or stylists or whatever at Supercuts about how I am a Tori Amos fan & that the stylist mentioned her website where Tori's all wearing this & stuff. I have future plans 2 make Bonnie drawings in the styles seen on Tori Amos.com or in the cover art on my CD. It's 0735 hrs. "Sleeps with Butterflies," which is quite beautiful, plays.

It's 0743 hrs, & the Tori Amos block now becomes "Places" by the Christian rock band Falling Up. Tis also 37? in Bakersfield. It's a good thing I'm on iTunes rather then listenin' 2 the iPod cuz "Underwater" by Vertical Horizon and "Don't کцﻏא with Us" by John Cena & Tha Trademarc were due up, so I unchecked 'em & I didn't have 2 hear "Underwater." I don't have that kinda kustomisation on the iPod.

I looked at the archives on Anna's blog this mourning. I ain't surprised @ the kinda material expected from a jr. high school student. +, her website has been around longer then mine. Now playing is my favourite Falling Up song from their debut album, "Crashings." "Escalates" plays for the ninety-eighth time. She barley mentions me in those posts, & of course, she can't spell my name right. I talk w/ Dr. Urias, my therapist, about how I'm feeling a rift between me & my baby sister. Maybe it's the fact that a twentysomething man should not still b livin' w/ his parents. If Anna had even less respect 4 me, I'd say she'd consider me a total loser. Thank God no one in my family thinks that, & that they understand that suffering from depression ain't such a laughing matter. But still, as I've said 2 Dr. Urias, I feel that I barely have anything in common w/ anyone in my family.

Presently, I've been playing "Escalates" repeatedly. Maybe I'm trying 2 understand what the lyrics mean & tie them in to my personal crisis. I'll type up the lyrics @ the bottom of this post.

Tis 38? outside. I just feel that I haven't done anything much 2 impress Anna. I mean, I've done the Beanie Baby theatre stuff where they play "Friends" or the sound bites I record. I'm sure she really didn't like those flash card pieces of countries & flags of the world. (Those things have been tossed in a closet in a fit of rage & I haven't picked them up since.) I guess when I finally move outta here, it could b for the best. After all, there r a bunch of things that she misses about Jasmyn and Alain. If there are anything that she would miss about me, she better let me now b4 I actually go away. It's 0810 hrs.

"Escalates" by Falling Up


This
Is everything that I wanted
Do you believe that I tried so hard to take it home but
Never felt a single moment
Life
Has been a place where I've wandered
Moving slowly to understand what I can grasp
But understand that it's still not right

So come back to me

I can't find it but maybe I'll cope
Can you hide it and never let go
Come back to you
I only knew

I can't find it but maybe I'll cope
Can you hide it and never let go
Come back to you
I only knew

Lies
Have covered all of the smiles
And wakened thoughts that have turned my heart to face the wind and then
Fall to where I know I'll fit but
You
Do you believe that I wanted
Something other than fallen hearts that just belong to
Places where the bridges give in

So come back to me

I can't find it but maybe I'll cope
Can you hide it and never let go
Come back to you
I only knew

I can't find it but maybe I'll cope
Can you hide it and never let go
Come back to you
I only knew

Can you see what I felt when I told you
Can you cope when it runs right through you

'Cause my heart it is broken with love that is coped
And now you tell me that I have something that's missing

I can't find it but maybe I'll cope
Can you hide it and never let go
Come back to you
I only knew

I can't find it but maybe I'll cope
Can you hide it and never let go
Come back to you
I only knew

I can't find it but maybe I'll cope
Can you hide it and never let go
Come back to you
I only knew

I can't find it but maybe I'll cope
Can you hide it and never let go
Come back to you
I only knew


?2004 Thirsty Moon River Publishing (ASCAP)/ Falling Up Music (ASCAP)

Mood:  caffeinated
It's 0149 hrs. I was feelin' rundown a few hrs ago, so I thought that I wood go 2 bed, even if it wood feel like nappin'. Well, I was only in bedd 4, like, fifteen minutes when I wasn't quite sleepy. & I refrained from taking my Seroquel cuz I mite arise in the middle of the day. Now playing on iTunes for the thirteenth & fourteenth thyme is "Sweet the Sting" by Tori Amos. I love the song. NEweighz, I still feel like doin' a buncha stuff now that the folks r away, like finish the X-word & Sudoku, play on the Gamecube, or view "St. John the Baptist" & go fishin' 4 sound samples. I've also refrained from tapin' those sermons o'er the past month cuz of my studys. I haven't even made new samples or done the transcribing stuff. That's all. It's 0152 hrs.

Mood:  chillin'
Good evening! It's currently 1947 hrs. Now playing on iTunes is "Flow Easy" by John Cena & Tha Trademarc featuring Bumpy Knuckles. Next will be "Catchafire (Whoopsi-daisy)" by Tobymac featuring M.O.C. & Papa San. On a second Mozilla Firefox browser is FOXSports.com; I'm currently tracking the Mavericks vs. Grizzlies game. It's 1952 hrs; now playing is "She's About As Lonely As I'm Going to Let Her Get" by Brooks & Dunn. Here is the predicted score according to the Nintendo Gamecube:

Dallas 107
Memphis 106†

DAL: Harris 33 pts, 5 assts
Nowitzki 27 pts, 12 rebs, 4 blks, 3 stls
Terry 27 pts

MEM: Gasol 18 pts, 5 blks, 8 rebs
Miller 41 pts
Stoudamire 9 assts

The game's now over. Here's the score & statz:

Dallas 90
Memphis 83

DAL: Nowitzki 35 pts
Daniels 18 pts
Dampier 11 rebs

MEM: 5 players scored in double digits

I watched an entire episode of "NBC Nightly News w/ Brian Williams" for the 1st thyme in awhile. Normally, my parents wood b watchin' the gnus, & they usually watch NBC News which I'm tryin' 2 understand. I will b registering for a Political Science class for the third time; I expect 2 sign up 4 it during the Spring ?6 Quarter at CSUB. I've listened 2 enuff hate-mongers on talk radio (which I say w/ a lil attitude). Now playing is "Exhibition" by Falling Up. It's 1 of my five-star faves on their newest album, "Dawn Escapes." I've chosen 2 put the iTunes on Repeat One mode; aisle probably play it 3x so that on the Top 25 Most Played playlist, it can surpass the #4 song, "Don't ۩ט▲Җ with Us" by John Cena & Tha Trademarc by one play. Musby the profanity. It's 2001 hrs.

My folks r travelin' 2 San Francisco this weekend I think 2 visit Jasmyn, my sister, so I'm housesittin' 4 the thyme being. @ least I have unlimited use of the PC this time.

We still do not have DirecTV nor cable. I'm missin' out on ESPN, ESPN2, FoxSports West, CNN, Superstation TBS, etc. C'ing that my parents r working-class citizens (my Mom's an R.N. & my Dad's a physician), they feell no strong knead 2 watch so many TV channels, unlike me or my sibs. I referred 2 my parents as philistines in last nite's session w/ Dr. Urias. It is now 2006 hrs. "Exhibition" plays for the 157th time.

This playlist that I am listening 2 is called the "DS Artists of 2005 Nominees." I think I should probably get around 2 talking about my favourite music & recording artists, since I consider music 2 b a integral part of my life. I may not sing or play guitar (if not do those things very well), but I am a fan. 1st of all, what does D.S. stand for? That wood b "dominant sound." IMHO, I believe that we human beings all can hear songs in our heads. Who here hasn't been successful 2 flush out "We Built This City" or Brooks & Dunn out of our heads?

It's now 2014 hrs. Now playing on this playlist is the Shortwave Radio mix of Tobymac's big hit "Burn for You." I'm @ da moment downloading 2 podcasts from WOXY.com. One is a lounge act session from Aberdeen City. The other is a show w/ unsigned performers; this podcast features local acts from the Cincinnati, OH area.

It's now 2056 hrs, & I'm now on the website for the Christian rock band The Afters. It's 2141 hrs. Thank goodness for websites w/ their own media players so that I can preview the songs pryor 2 buying the CDs 4 twenty dollars & such. I've herd two songs, "You" and "Beautiful Love" on KDUV-FM 100.1. This band has hints of U2, Radiohead, Travis, & Coldplay. U'no, the alternative rock basics. I put a Czech-mark on the list 4 Anna 2 notice 4, um, Xmas gift ideers. Earlier, I w8d 4 the Java-based audio samples 2 fully download by retreating 2 my room & playing EA Sports NHL 2004. On my Capitals franchise, it was a "clash o' the titans matchup" (which I realised when the game was over) as I played the Western Conf. leaders, the despised Red Wings. I choked towardz the end of the 3rd period when I gave up 2 goles, including the game-tyin' one, to Ray Whitney. But only 14 secs n2 OT, my man Sven put the team on the right side of the scoreboard. It's 2149 hrs.

It's 2253 hrs. KNXT-TV 49 airs a message from our bishop, the rosary, & Scripture reading @ eleven o'clock. That's y I'm 4going the religious music; now playing & ending is "Chain Gang Is the Click" by John Cena & Tha Trademarc, & the next song is "Original Sinsuality" by Tori Amos.

I'm takin' a look @ my baby sister's blogg. Well, nobody can instantly comment on posts like on mine, but one blogg entry is entitled, "i see colors when i come." Now, my blog will not feature strong language or any words that u don't hear on the radio. But I observed a double entendre in that title. It took me a while 2 figure out what "come" means in regards 2 sex talk. I probably don't knead 2 Cher this w/ Anna or say 2 her that she just typed a double entendre. It's 2258 hrs. Now playin' is "Parasol" by Tori Amos.

Incidentally, the name of our bishop is John T. Steinbock of the Diocese of Fresno. It's 2300 hrs.

It's 2302 hrs. "The Holy Rosary in the Holy Land" begins on Ch. 49. This past October, the family had 2 pray the rosary almost every evening. Right now, we haven't done that yet; I figure that watching a televised rosary would be, uhh, an loophole as 2 prayin' the rosary. & that's y I have the lil TV set in the den tuned 2 this Catholic station while I type this stuff on my blogg. It's 2305 hrs. The Aberdeen City podcast is done downloading but not Volume 10 of "Unsigned@WOXY.com."

It's 2323 hrs. "Daily Meditations" airs on KNXT-TV 49. Msgr. Pat McCormick & Betty Gerardin say the prayer of Juan Diego, & then read from the Book of the profit Isaiah. It's 47? in Bakersfield.

It's 2332 hrs. Playing in my head or the "dominant sound" is "Beautiful Love" by The Afters. Right now, I'm still considering getting the album "I Wish We All Could Win" either by myself or hopefully as a gift. In other words, I'm sitting on a yellow traffic lite, cuz if it was green, that wood imply that I would really really want it. I herd the priest on TV say "When the going gets tuff." Of course, that prompted me 2 begin playing the song on iTunes by Billy Ocean, "When the Going Gets Tough." & so, that ridiculous song from the eighties plays on iTunes for the sixtieth time. I like playing this song on the iPod whenever I'm playing "True Crime: Streets of L.A." or "EA Sports NHL 2004"; rather inspirin', doncha no. It's 2337 hrs.

It's 2338 hrs. The podcast is almost finished downloadin'. Now playin' is the iTunes five-star ballad "Contact" by Falling Up. It's 2342 hrs & the podcast is now fully downloaded. As of now, I have four volumes of the unsigned show & six lounge acts; thuss, a total of ten podcasts. Not 2 shabby if u axe me. Well, I haven't showered yet, so I'll post this & logg off.

1st Lenghty Poste in Quite Awhile
Mood:  caffeinated
Topic: Personal
Good morning! Tis 0230 hrs, & I'm listening to "In the Light" by dc Talk on iTunes for the fortieth thyme.

It's 0231 hrs. I am weigh behind on reading my beeswax law textbook, & my last regular day of class is 2morrow.

As I currently listen to "Second Chance" by .38 Special for the tenth time, I was earlier listening to 101.5 KGFM-FM while readin' my textbook. Thru-out Nov. & Dec., the station has been playin' Xmas carols & contemporary songs nonstop. It is 47? in Bakersfield 2nite.

It's 0245 hrs as I begin listening to WOXY.com on Windows Media Player. What has been pestering me mentally when I was listenin' 2 all them carols was how my family has the Xmas spirit. & I just only thought about how I lack it. I'm tryin' 2 type on this blog what I can say w/o steppin' on eggshells or whatever. Now playing on WOXY.com is "Today Is the Day" by Apollo Sunshine. It's 0247 hrs. I haven't scheduled an appt. w/ Dr. Urias in the past week or 2. I could wrationalize & say that I'm givin' my Czech-book or my Mom's checkbook a rest by deferrin' on twenty-dollar copay & stuff. Incidentally, I have an appointment w/ my optometrist 2morrow afternoon. I think what I wish 2 Cher w/ my therapist is how I underwent yett another moode swing. Recently, I went thru kind of a carefree mood swing. Or maybe I just had some daze & knights when I just didn't give a hoot. It's 0251 hrs. I better resume readin' my business law book.

It's 0257 hrs. Now playing on AccuHolidays.com or whatever is "Angels We Have Heard on High" by Papa Wemba & Mino Cinelu, from the World Christmas compliation album. I'm currently reedin' the section on warranty liability of partys.

It's 0304 hrs. Now playing is "God Rest Ye Merry Gentlemen/We Three Kings" by Barenaked Ladies & Sarah McLachlan. The last time that I played streamin' audio from AccuHolidays, Anna was in the room. She skipped over any songs by Barenaked Ladies just because she instinctively thinks they suck. & I'm sure that my whole family isn't 2 open-minded w/ my choice of music 2 spread Xmas cheer or whatever. Aisle elabor8 on that L8r. Now playing is "O Holy Night." It's 0308 hrs.

Now playing is "I'll Be Home for Christmas" by Larry Chance & the Earls. It's 0314 hrs. I am reminded of the last family road trip that I can remember that went beyond Las Vegas--the Yellowstone trip in the spring of '91, I believe--when my mother chose 2 play a cassette of Xmas carols. It was just a run-of-the-mill compliation of Christmas songs from nameless artists; musta been cheep. @ my hasty pace, I figure that since my folks enjoy Christmas carols so much, I'll probably go 2 Wal-Mart & look 4 that Clay Aiken Xmas CD. While my siblings will give me their usual amount of crap for obtaining such music, I assume my parents won't mind. Christmas albums by 'N-Sync, 98?, Mariah Carey, & Brooks & Dunn were all purchased by me. Pardon me for using passive voice. Now playing is "Ave Maria" by (hmm) Michael Bolton w/ Placido Domingo. It's 0319 hrs.

Its 0324 hrs. As I listen to Michael Bolton and Placido Domingo, I'm reminded of when Bolton actually performed some form of a aria @ the American Music Awards a few years back. It's 46? outside. As I surf on over to the Bonnie Bernstein fansite on Yahoo!, its the same ol' same ol' w/ the Bonniephiles. U'no, K-C gives some ridiculous nicknames for sports teems he h8s. Or rob7223686, talks about being humbled by his Steelers losin' 2 the Clots or so & his thing w/ the demo & stuff. CR3861 managed 2 mention me; something about a B? cardbored cutout from a Danasi ad. It's 0333 hrs. So when do I get 2 mention about the drawering I made of Bonnie underwater amongst "guinea pig fish"? I'm still buggin' Anna 2 draw a C-hoarse w/ a cockatiel's head on it. I guess when I finally move out of the house, Anna won't have 2 put up w/ such dumbass requests from me anymore. I hope she appreci8s it. Sigh. Back 2 the carols & the book. Something about defences against being a holder in due coarse. It's 0335 hrs. Now playing is "What Child Is This" by Ardelio Gomez. I'm sure Alain, Anna, & Jasmyn won't like this version.

It's 0349 hrs. Now playing is "Jingle Bells" by Frank Sinatra & Bing Crosby. If ever this song appears on KGFM, I'm sure my Mom & Dad won't minde.

It's 0355 hrs. U'no, I do remember issuing a sorta worksheet, multiple-choice quiz kinda thingy that pertained to certain animated TV series, uh, "Garfield's Babes & Bullets" or something, w/ vocab. & everything. Musta been 'round the early nineties. I'd give it 2 Jasmyn & she'd finish it & stuff. I guess I just mite b a teacher after all. Is this Trace Adkins, the country signer? Now playin' is "The Christmas Song" by Adkins, & it's 0357 hrs.

I gotta start watchin' the gnus more often. 17 News & 29 Eyewitness News has, like, the most beautiful female newscasters! Melissa Magee, Alexia Kapinaris {sp}, Tami Mlcoch, Lisa Krch, etc. Mmm, mmm, mmm! In the meantime, Bette Midler (yuck! My Mom loves her) sings "White Christmas" on AccuHolidays. It's 0403 hrs. Mann, Anna sure has a lotta crap on this desk; she oughta clean this &%??$ up! It's 0405 hrs; kurrently playin' is "Baby It's Cold Outside" by Barry Manilow w/ K.T. Olsin. I didn't even no that was a Xmas song. I no it ain't no carol. Well, there's Michael Bolton again, singin' "Joy to the World" on AccuHolidays. It's 0416 hrs. G, sounds just as upbeet as the version Mariah Carey did. I wonder if he's gonna do the part by Three Dog Night, 2? Now playing is "White Christmas" by Hanson. I could skip it if I wish, but I did rank "MMMbop" as my favourite song of '97, & it is 0424 hrs. How masochistic am I? It's 0430 hrs; currantly playin' is "Let It Snow" by Michael Buble. U'no, I never herd his X-Over song "Home" on KGFM. That's 2 bad; so it seamz I've only heard his music on AccuRadio.com. Now playing is the "loo-loo" version of "Hark the Herald Angels Sing" by The Dino Martinis. U'no, like on that Peanuts Xmas cartoon that ABC always shows on December?

It's 0440 hrs. Now playing is "The Twelve Days of Christmas" by The Chipmunks. This is from their album "Greatest Christmas Hits." In our house, we just have one Chipmunks CD, so we're pretty much limited 2 whatever's on that CD thru-out these holidays. U'no, that "hang up your stocking" song & what knot. My textbook has an interesting story that involves Rabobank. The name is familiar cuz that's what represents the sports arena we have in town. It's 0444 hrs. In a section called "Maker of Promissory Notes Liable to HDC," it's about how a guy that was draughted in the NFL 'round 1983, Leonard Smith was his name; he invested in sum chattel-breeding thingy & it involves Rabobank, based in Holland. I think he got, like, screwed over or something. Something about fraud in the phantom? It's 50? in Bakersfield. & I think Smith was drafted in the same year as John Elway, Dan Marino, Jim Kelly, & all those really great football guys. If I were 2 ask a lingerie-clad B? who those "Class of '83" guys were while givin' her foot rubbs, mayB I could get a good answer. It's 0450 hrs. Now playing is "Sleigh Ride" by The Ronettes.

Since it's 0453 hrs, aisle probably 4go listening 2 WOXY.com when I Finnish reading Chapter 24 of this stupid book. Now playin' is "Winter Wonderland" by Jane Leeves; u'no, she had a recurrin' role on "Murphy Brown" as Audrey. I doubt if u can still c the show on Lifetime, but I think u can still c it on Nick at Nite. Isle continue this post soon.

Mood:  irritated
I can't even LOL w/o my Mom thinkin' I'm crazy! I mean, like, what the hell? It's just funny stuff. Details in a moment.

As I currently listen to Rick Dees over the Internet, here is what I wrote on paper in my car about a few hours ago:

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Greetings! It's 1212 hrs. I'm in the passenger seat of my car, parked at Hart Park. The car faces a pond where a large flock of ducks and geese are ashore. A family has also stopped by; their SUV's parked five spaces to the left of me; that's where the fowl are. Now a collection of mallards, (most of 'em) are under a tree, where my car's parked under. I'm also listening to "West Coast Kid" by tobymac featuring Paul Wright. It's the closing song on my "Morgan Sisters Industries Mixtape vol. iii." Boy, those geese are noisy.

It's 1221 hrs. I paused from writing to observe the birds and listen to that song again. At least it's nice to observe birds that ain't twelve annoying cockatiels for a change. Tis too bad I don't got me some bread for those ducks to pay attention to me.

it's 1231 hrs. I just visited the restroom and the geese are in plain view in my windshield. I've also rewound my cassette to play "West Coast Kid." I came to Hart Park 'cause I didn't get much sleep last night and chose to drive here to rest. Good thing I found a parkin' space with ample shade. I wish Anna were here with her digital camera; she takes photos of everything. I probably heard my "biological clock" tick because I imagined having my kids here to watch these birds. I do wish I could've given Grandpa Jake & Grandma Eleonor some great-grandkids while they were around. So far, no children from me or my siblings yet; I do think about whether Jasmyn will marry before I do. It's 1239 hrs, as the song already ended. I ain't got the AM radio on.

It appears the geese and ducks in front of me are resting beneath this tree. Later on today, I have to go to my Dad's office and have my aunt, Tita Rose, prepare seven copies of the next Cydney C. chapter I just finished last night--the introduction to Peter Abercrombie, the state politician who becomes Cydney's friend and lover. It's 1242 hrs. Then I gotta post this on the blog over at the computer commons at BC. And then, I must present my latest Cydney C. chapter to the creative writers' club at the bookstore. I shouldn't be gone for more than a week. It's a little disconcerting how I can actually see the ass-feathers of some of these birds directed towards me (and one goose just defecated). The radio's still off & it's 1246 hrs.

Football season just began. I know that plenty of the Bonniephiles are doing the fantasy football thing. Even B? herself is playin' fantasy football w/ her fellow CBS Sports cohorts. I hope she wins an actual prize instead of just the abstract knowledge of knowing so much about football. Pardon me; I had a lil trouble w/ the correction tape. It's 1254 hrs.

It's 1259 hrs. Now it's 1300 hrs. If memory serves me, my Dad's lunch brake ends 'round 1:30, so I can leave by that time. Sum o' the Bonniephiles made mention of Bonnie's VBS (not vacation Bible school but, visible bra strap) from a broadcast from last season. And that got me thinking of the tiwo Bonnie sketches I made--one of her in lingerie (w/ a guinea pig), and other one of her beneath the sheets naked (with a guinea pig). I'm in a dilemma to scan & display these drawings on my website. But because of a scandal where a female sportscaster was sleepin' w/ a major leaguer & I think something about a former sportscaster about 2 appear in Playboy, the situation still has not "blown over." But I might display it anytime soon. I would have it up for a day or two, send a message, & wait for at least one disapprovin' comment 2 prompt me 2 take the image off the website. It's 1307 hrs.

Football isn't so much a big thing in the Pangilinan household. Dad and Alain were actually interested in the men's final of the U.S. Open (Federer def. Agassi) rather then Week One of the NFL. My brother is still waiting for the NBA season 2 begin. If I hadn't mentioned it 2 u already, Filipinos [IMAO NEweigh] seem 2 be more interested in basketball then any other sports, except 4 boxing. The day of the Super Bowl is pretty much regarded like a holiday. You know, my folks would show up at their friends' house, gather w/ other friends, & watch the game. And then they'd sing karaoke afterwards.

It's 1318 hrs. A few more motorists/families arrive bringin' bread 4 da byrdz. & the geese & dux r no longer in front of me. A family who has parked right next to me [driver's side] & one goose right by window! "Sorry, dude. Don't got no bread," I (don't) say to it, "but...do you like Christian rock?" The bird's gone; guess not.

I also brought w/ me $20 or so so that I buy Brooks & Dunn's gnu album while I'm meetin' w/ the creative writers' club at Barnes & Noble. I play "West Coast Kid" again. It's all hip-hop to me.

There's that goose again by my door. It's 1:25.

A group of what appears to be Filipino motorists show up, pose for a shapsnot, & probably come 2 watch these ducks. It looks like I mostly see geese. The family that was parked next to me leaves, & another motorist pulls up. I can hear his AM radio; it sounds like he's listening to ESPN Radio at 710 AM; I assumed it was 1230 AM. It turns out I can get this station clearly myself {until I drove thru downtown}; I thought it was an L.A. station. It's 1330 hrs.

One more thing I wanna bring up before I run out of space. I may suck at fantasy basketball, but I love playing the franchise mode on EA Sports NHL 2004 for GameCube--the closet thing to fantasy hockey. It's more hands-on than just merely following statistics. I maintain two franchises, the Minnesota Wild and the Washington Capitals. I'm in the third year in the franchise mode. The Wild sucked in Year 1; the Capitals won one playoff series. In Year 2; MN finished 2nd in the league but lost in the Western Conference Semis 2 the despised Red Wings. In Year 2; I gave DC & Jaromir Jagr the Cup. & then I traded him away cuz he was just 2 expensive 2 keep. No wonder there was a lockout (& that he ended up takin' a pay cut as a Ranger). I'm currently on Year 3. Right now 4 the Wild, I have made a killer starting line of Marian Gaborik, Teemu Selanne, & my created sk8er named Sven. Sven is my leading scorer. The Wild has only lost four games & clinched a playoff berth in Feb. As for the Capitals, I have three created sk8rs--Sven, Mattias, & get this: Kelly Preston. (Either that or Kelly Clarkson; maybe when I get NHL 2006.)

It's 1335 hrs. Gotta go, dudes!

{That reminds me. I think b4 I head over 2 Barnes & Noble, I can drive a block west of it & stop by Circuit City; see when the shipment of EA Sports NBA Live 2006 comes in & what price it is [compared 2 Best Buy).

UPD8

Realisin' that www.Billboard.com also has Internet radio broadcasts of their charts, I chose 2 mosey on over 2 their countdown. What's different about this net-only broadcast is that they do not play every song on the Top 40 portion of their chart. I am actually contempL8n' listening 2 these broadcasts regularly here in the BC computer commons & undoing this "Post-Countdown Withdrawal." After all, difficultys regarding tryin' 2 podcast is shaking my belief that I can listen 2 the Top 40 countdown again on a regular basses. Now playing on the Billboard countdown is the uncharted "I'll Stand By You" by Patti LaBelle. Boy, is it boring. It's 1552 hrs. Also, I'm sure that I have 2 read another chapter from my Business Law textbook. It's probably Ch. 11. I could listen 2 a jazz station over the Internet here b4 comin' 2 the bookstore, or I could read the textbook while the sound system at Barnes & Noble plays it's music. I'll probably do the latter. It's 1606 hrs. This is the first thyme I'm listening to "Gold Digger," the new #1 hit by Kanye West f/ Jamie Foxx [climbing eighteen notches]. I think I did hear it on the FM radio. Well, lemme pluck the "I miss it" petal off of that daisy. It's 1609 hrs. Uh-oh. The new song "I Don't Care" by Ricky Martin plays. Um-hmm. I miss it not. It's 1612 hrs. It's 1616 hrs & the #15 song (now #11) "Wake Me Up When September Ends" by Green Bay plays. {That reminds me. I need 2 draw a picture of B? in a Green Day Packers t-shirt.) Pluck! I miss it. Out of the seven year-end Top 100 lists I've compiled, I can only clearly recall ranking "Geek Stink Breath" on my Top 100 of 1995 list, somewhere in the Bottom 25. U remember that song? I think Krab Radio still plays it, along w/ the rest of Green Bay's gr8est hitz. Oh. I also did rank their ballad "Time of Your Life (Good Riddance)" on my Top 100 of '98; probably Bottom 75. Now playing is #13 "Don't Lie" by the Black Eyed Peas. Pluck. I miss it not. Cannot stand the Peas [like most vegetables save 4 broccoli or corn.]

It's 1627 hrs. I should rapp this up.

It's 1650 hrs. I just reviewed this stuff. I better put a guestbook on this thing. Take care, yall!

Mood:  rushed
The entry below was written down the other night on paper.

Good evening! Or if I past this in my blog after my business law class, good morning! It's 1945 hrs as I write. Now playing on my Windows Media Player is the live version of "Cooling" by Tori Amos.

I'm supposed to do a lotta crap over the next thirty-six hours. I need to make the second chapter of my "I Am Cydney Calagayan" novel that introduces the major character of Peter Abercrombie. It's 1948 hrs.

I have decided to switch over from my Tori Amos playlist to what I call Playlist Essex. Currently playing is "Liquid" by Jars of Clay. I need to examine the songs Anna put in my iPod.

It's 1954 hrs. Currently playing is a favourite hit song of mine, "King of Wishful Thinking" by Go West. You know, from the "Pretty Woman" soundrack? Has it been fifteen years? I have played this song two hundred & thrity-three times on Windows Media Player.

Anyway, I gots plenty of stuff to do, like the assignment from my PC accounting course, although I don't know if it will be covered in class or not. {Update: it's covered but perhaps I better hopp 2 it.] Now playing is another favorite of mine, "Things Can Only Get Better" by Howard Jones. Mom & Dad have been watching on NBC The Eagles' fare-thee-well concert. We now have absolutely no DirecTV programming, including the crappy channels like RFD-TV or Trinity Broadcasting Network. And TBN on Channel 55 has awful reception as always.

Currently playing is "Saturn" by Skillet, the third-to-last-song on Playlist Essex. I have before me a clipout of an article from The Bakersfield Californian. It's about blogs. I don't know if I will share this with the guys at the creative writers' club on Monday night. I should be also doing archiving of my sound bites; I have my simple mp3 player and my Zip drive connected and operatin'. "Send It Up" by Vertical Horizon plays. It's 8:07 PM.

Originally, like an hour ago, I was gonna make my first drawing of Melanie Dawn Simon. She was a student I really liked in high school. The impulse came to me when I heard "Marianne" on my Tori Amos playlist. (Currently playing is "Super Good Feeling" by Bleach.) So far, I've made plenty of drawings of female sportscasters or newscasters, mainly of CBS Sports reporter Bonnie Bernstein. A lot of those drawings are up on my website. It's 2013 hrs. Now playing is "Higher Love" by Steve Winwood.

You know, maybe I should make public the kind of playlists I listen to. After all, I now know the kind of music (some artist named Jem) that golfer Natalie Gulbis likes. Let me get my floppy disk. It's 2016 hrs.

I missed the weekly chat session conducted by the Bonniephiles. I think they might've been discussing sports like the NFL. And I'm also missing "The American Country Countdown with Bob Kingsley" on KUZZ-FM. But from loggin' on the countdown's website, I now know that Tracy Lawrence's "Used to the Pain" debuted. It's 2020 hrs.

It's 2049 hrs. I have stopped archiving so that I can resume playing Playlist Essex, staring with Club Nouveau's "Lean on Me." I was going to type down my playlists on a Notepad file on my floppy. Of course, it would take more than two minutes. And my aging PC could crash or something like that. Remember the motion picture "Life or Something Like It" starring Angelina Jolie and Tony Shalhoub? Now playing is a song from ten years ago by Skee-Lo called "I Wish."

Umm, if I remember from my last two blog entries, I have invented my own English dialect, or really, I only modified what I call "chat room English" or "email English." Another knuance that yall shall notice is that I also present in my compositions all the strange nuances of English. U'no, homonyms, numerals, homophones, and all that. It feels weird writin' this stuff rather then typin' it. (Now playin' is "Head Over Heels," one of four Tears For Fears songs I have on Windows Media Player. It's 2059 hrs.) Did u notice that? In my last sentence? I used "then" rather then "than." I think there are some of yall out in cyberspace who make that mistake, u'no, like "lay" & "lie" or "trail" or "trial". "Than" is used in comparative purposes. Ex: "Bonnie Bernstein is hotter than Jill Arrington or Suzy Kolber" or "Matchbox 20 ain't no better than Vertical Horizon or the Goo Goo Dolls."

And speakin' of "ain't." Ever since "Ain't Misbehavin'," a song enjoyed by our grandparents or great-grandparents has that "word" been a bit of a troublemaker when it comes to English or proper manners & stuffe like that. Now I have noticed that "ain't" is typically prevalent in conversation and in pop song lyrics. It's 2108 hrs.

The song" Bombs Over Baghdad" by OutKast gives way to "Everything She Wants" by Wham! Anna, my thirteen-year-old sister, is presumably before her computer doin' that Instant Messaging thingy. Right now, my time is becoming less then superfluous or whatever. I have not had supper, I wish to play a video game, and I don't think my PC can keep up w/ me, you know. So lemme write sum koncluding thoughts (The song "I've Been Thinking about You" by Londonbeat concludes.) Someday, I will get thirty people to noitce my website and sign my guestbook or reply to my blog entries. Will Melanie Simon, my hi school friend Jaime V, or even Bonnie Bernstein and her legion of fans be among 'em? It's too soon to say. I do long for "Independence Day," and I ain't talkin' 'bout that Will Smith movie. Eventually, I will also explain the picture of my dead guinea pig. It's 2120 hrs. Lemme check the disk space in my Zip drive.

UPD8D ?

I am presently listening to "In Your Dreams (Exit Calypsan)" by Falling Up. So far, Falling Up has been my favorite Christian rock band to listen to this year. & as of now, I am very much impressed w/ this song. This is from they're CD "Dawn Escapes." I'm actually contempL8n' weather I should buy another album from them such as this 1. I loved Kutless last year as my favourite Christian rock band; I went to their free concert that year @ the Kern County Fair. But so far, I don't have a real interest in getting another album, such as the one that contains there #1 hit "Strong Tower," which I ain't that crazy about. Now it's 1320 hrs. It's also 93? here in Bakersfield. And as I listen to YRock on the Internet radio, Sanctus Real's "The Fight Song" will give weigh 2 "Nobody" by Cadet.

Part One
Good morning/afternoon, y'all! Currently I'm listening to "Temptation" by Shei Atkins over the Internet radio from YHot. This is the first day of classes in the fall semester at Bakersfield College. My baby sister Anna is away on a cruise with my Mom, so activity in the den has been quiet. Instead of the PC playing alternative music & the TV set to Channel 58 while Anna does that Instant Messaging thingy, I put the TV on Channel 49 while I edit and transcribe sound bites. Mom & Anna return on Wednesday, & by that time, I'll try to get Anna to help me format my iPod. Now playing is "'Bout a Thang" by Tonex. I wonder if I can download the songs YHot plays? Maybe I should check the website 2 find out. I'm also interested in downloading songs from iTunes.

Currently playing is "Alright" by Promise d'Apostle featuring Juande. I've been meaning to sit down and type this. But if you have followed me to the Bonnie Bernstein fan site on Yahoo!, you would observe the unusual way that I type. Well, as soon as I have breakfast or lunch at McDonald's (probably lunch as I would get there after 10:30 AM) I'll return to the computer and tell ya why.


To be continued,

The Glorious S.O.B.