It's 1632 hrs as "It's Amiable" by Benzos plays on Windows Media. Earlier, I was repeatedly playing the music video to "Better Days" by The Goo Goo Dolls also on Windows Media. It's 7:33 PM in Atalanta, GA.
It's 1635 hours as another Goo Goo Dolls video, "Here Is Gone," plays on Windows Media. In 2002, I ranked the song #20. I understand that one year has passed since I built my website on here, something I'm quite proud of. So far, um, it seems I'm moving backward in life (if there ain't any other way I can describe it.) My 10-year Bakersfield High School reunion is in a few weeks & I still haven't moved out of the house yet. My baby sister's PC is still experiencing problems, which is y I continue 2 do much of the web-surfing at Cal State Bakersfield. We still don't have DirecTV or cable. The Bonniephiles r joyous that Bonnie Bernstein is back on TV doing baseball games on ESPN. But I'm still bummed out. Besides, I also want to display some gnu drawings I made for Flickr.com but again, the home PC is still screwed up, & I can't use the scanner. It's 4:41 PM in McFarland, CA.
Also, 8/8, my 28th b'day is approaching. I maid a quick look at the past few blogg entrees I've maid. I only kneaded 2 no the many entrees I've typed up in May. I remember that month clearly cuz a new drug, Geodon, almost interfered w/ my Intro 2 Beeswax final, I met a pretty girl @ a frozen yogurt shoppe but perhaps pestered her 2 much 4 her boss-man 2 throw me out, & on the day after Mother's Day, my Dad has been observing my progress w/ my bipolar disorder like the Dr. that he is rather then as, well, just my Dad. I was pissed off that day. & 2 this day, even after the obligatory talk afterwards, I am still pissed off. 2 me personally, as long as I have a doctor & nurse for a father & mother respectively, & as long as I still got this maniac-depressive thingy, this is a real emotional pain-in-the-neck 4 me. It's 4:48 PM.
Its 108? outside, yett I chose 2 go driving so that I could prepare copys of my next Cydney Calagayan chronicles for the creative writers' club at the Barnes & Noble bookstore 2nite. Not only that, there's a bunch of recyclable material in my trunk, so I gotta have that taken care of in the recycling drop-off centre here on campus. It's 4:54 PM in San Jose. I had 2 housesit for the folks as they went on a Cruz across the Eastern Mediterranean. My mother brought back 4 me a Greece baseball cap & a small Greek flag. Incidentally, I like 2 collect baseball hats & small flags. I actually spent much of the coupl'a weeks wasting time playing "True Crime" on the GameCube. But I also worked on my Cydney story. I've also read some of my mother's romance novels 4 inspiration or whatever. Its three until five.
As "Here Is Gone" becomes "Better Days," the chapter I plan 2 read @ the bookstore is the part where the sorority, Rho Gamma Iota, invites Cydney over to a secrete meeting in a limousine. In a previous meeting, I read a chapter where the other major character in "The Saga of Cydney Calagayan," Peter, asks 2 c Cydney w/o her glasses and plays w/ her hair. Ina Goodling, a member of the creative writers' club, called it pornographic, but the two characters weren't even kissing, if not naked. I've written a whole bunch of stuff for the story, including a few steamy chronicles. I think that the Cydney character is a lil bitt autobiographical. Like me, Cydney grew up in a family that promotes high privileges & values. +, she was also a wallflower as a teen & hopes 2 discover a little adventure & even romance once she leaves the nest. It's 1707 hours.
One chronicle that I wood like 2 present 2 the club is a chapter that displays Cydney's quest for adventure & romance. What I wish 2 demonstr8 is that her life growing up has been boring, predictable, & even a little choreographed from her own parents. It's 5:11 PM. I think maybe that's what I was seeking myself when I made all those visits 2 that frozen yogurt shoppe, because I wanted 2 force a spark between me & that girl. Maybe that's y I'm interested in attending my 10-year reunion & probably that 10-year reunion only, cuz I hope that I could force a spark between me & the girl I was hopelessly attracted 2 back than. Perhaps I wood even like 2 travel to Boston & meet w/ the girl I met online back in '99, 2 c if something magical & wonderful could happen.
Maybe that's y I like some of these Goo Goo Dolls songs or watch sitcoms like "How I Met Your Mother." Because @ this point in my life, I'm just 2 skeptical 2 believe in fairy tales or Hollywood endings or anything I deem magical or mystical. & being a Christian, I have 2 wonder if breathing, a loving family, & the kingdom of God r enuff gifts or miracles for me. Wood I b asking 2 much 4, well, something more? Well, in my Cydney story, when Cydney discovers love & romance, it does happen 2 b w/ a guy who's totally wrong 4 her (i.e. he's married w/ kids). I guess if u want a more cheerful & somewhat candy-coated love story, I should probably find some way on this site 2 present 2 yall that silly love story I wrote about a girl named Bonnie. @ least I take pride that I actually got 2 finish writing the eighteen chapters of it, even if what I wrote seems so amateur. It's 5:21 PM & 107?. Hear's 2 better daze.