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Wednesday, 10 August 2005
time to grow up...
Mood:  rushed
Now Playing: One is the lonliest number...
Today when i sat down to write my diploma, i was just thinking to myself, are we growing up way too fast? Im 16, already going into grade 12, driving expensive cars, and liking the idea of living by myself. In grade 9, we have to choose our courses for highschool, and those affect which courses we can take in university or college, and what courses we pick for university limits us to what occupations we want to look into. And then it comes back once again to bite us in the ass, because with what occupation we choose, it also affects what sorta of lifestyle we live in, where we live, who we date and adventually marry...all that is supposed to be decided by the time we're half way through grade 9? I wish i was just a kid organizing play dates and playing recreational sports, instead of writing diploma's and talking about marriage with a some-what serious boyfriend. Hmmmph some people have had there realistic dream jobs planned out since they were young enough to actually understand the position. i still want to be a movie star/singer/model, yet im too short and fat to me a model, can't sing to save my life, and im not even in drama! Blah the world is telling me to grow up but im only 16...

Posted by 50s_soul at 12:53 AM BST
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Thursday, 21 July 2005
is love True?
Mood:  blue
Now Playing: Build Me Up Buttercup -The Temptations

That warm bubbling feeling you get when you feel something for someone, love i suppose. But this warm bubbling feeling, what if you start to feel it for two completely different people? Puppy-love our rents would just tell us, with a laugh and shrug of the shoulder, and a tap on the back. Is it actually puppy love, or is it true love? As teenagers are we too immature to accept the possibilty of true love? If it's not actually the puppy love that our rents speak of, how would it be true love? Is it possible to truly love two people, with all your heart? do the math, it doesn't add up. But is it even possible to keep all eyes for just one?....

Posted by 50s_soul at 11:11 AM BST
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Giving up
Mood:  down
Now Playing: Ain't No Sunshine
I've given up of summer school, screw trying to get ahead, my teacher wont give us "newbies" any help, she expects us to know it already, but gets mad at us when we dont...its very annoying, so meh i miswell just wait till actual school and do it then, be sorta prepared...haha not that will matter. Blah and soccer, fuck my team, fuck soccer, fuck it all. Blah and the boys, why oh why? it's hard to pick one, are we too young and too immature to focus on one individual? i ask myself this as my love triangle grows to a love pentagon, then into a hexagon, etc...soon there will be no room and i will have to make branches, god im a science geek loser i hope i get away so i can well get away from it all haha

Posted by 50s_soul at 12:21 AM BST
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Sunday, 17 July 2005
What is love?
Mood:  not sure
Now Playing: Hey Jude -The Beatles
How is love a possible emotion? and why is it an emotion that is unexplainable, it just happens?! How is that at all probable or possible?? How can you not explain something, but say your in love? If you can't explain love, how do you really know your in love? The word is thrown around like a baseball, from boyfriend to girlfriend, back and forth, then the ball is dropped, and a heart like glass breaks just as easily. How can a single word, 4 letters long, 1 syllable, cause so much happiness, but so much pain at the same time? How does a single word have such a huge affect on the world...

Posted by 50s_soul at 9:50 AM BST
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Saturday, 16 July 2005
New to this...
Mood:  don't ask
Now Playing: Natural Women by Aretha Franklin
Done practically nothing today, met Bee for lunch and then went to the four hours of school which seemed like it dragged on for days. Augh i dont know why i agreed to go to school during the summer, but i guess it's better then doing nothing at home; just sitting in bed all day thinking of him...His mom hates me, and he confuses me like no tomorrow. Whats the point of continuely letting him become my world? one day without talking to him seems to never end, i just sit in the dark listening to my "sad" music. Sometimes i think it is love the way he looks at me, but if he never tells me how he feels or why he thinks he feels the way he does, then how do i believe him? Is there an age that is too young to love? Why do adults say were too young for certain things, for example love? Is there supposed to be a specific age that were allowwed to start loving? or are we just supposed to know...

Posted by 50s_soul at 6:02 AM BST
Updated: Saturday, 16 July 2005 6:19 AM BST
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