Furnace - 20 Mar 2004
Inside the furnace burns
But I am def and I am dumb
there are signs
but I pretend to be blind
alone in a faith, I am alone
I go looking for the warmth
I don't hear the calls
I don't know how to yell for help
as I ignore the signs I get angry
"Can't you see I'm cold"
"Can't you see I'm blind"
Not with a shout, Not with a sign did you reach me
but with your glow did you lead me
though at first I did not see
you continued to lead me
as you led I started to see
as you spoke it made sense to me
with your love I felt warm
with the love words did form
What I'm talking about
I want to start by saying thanks to my friend who inspired this peiece, he knows who he is.
This is about my friend and what he did for me, out of the kindness of his heart without
really knowing it I'm sure.
For the longest time I was in a really dark place most of the time, and I didn't hear or
understand the things people were saying to me. I would spend days at a time in a state of
melancholy and be wrapped up in wondering who I was and what I was doing. And my
friends wouldnotice this and say things I didn't understand, like saying it's good to see you
smile again the one time I smiled in a month.
I would see things in my life, thoughts and activities that I knew wern't doing me any good
and yet I would do them because they would give me some identity.
In the midst of all of this feeling like crap and carrying on I couldn't bring my self to ask a
friend or family member for some help. I didn't know what to say or to ask or that this
wasn't the normal everyday thing that people would go through.
It was getting to the point that I was feeling terrible and angry all the time and upset that
people for the most part wouldn't respond.
Then I met some new people and I found this wonderful brotherhood with another person
and he was able to walk me through things.
Again man thanks
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