I wish my parent will support me in this relationship.can i possibly go on like this without their support?i really scared they will object.never have i bring out this issue b4 with them.but neither do i wan them to think that i busy dating here n never do my work.they really did work very hard to try to get the best for me n i dun wan to ripe them off.they already spent a lot for me to get into the medical school.n when i think of my dad,i feel so sorry for my disobedient.really scared he receive the single bill of hundred dollar for one meal. this kind of thing can never happened on my dad.coz he saved so hard for us.dun even call a drink when eating outside.how can i possibly tell my dad that that bill belong to me.when the bill comes,he bound to know.it is going to either make him mad or unhappy.neither one of them do i wan.n my mum normally said that the sum of money i spent is small n insignificant,this time she didnt. instead ,she said it is really an expansive meal which confirm my worry.why did i use the stupid master card.letting my parent know how spendrift i m.i wan my dad to be proud of me n that's always my ambition n target of life.that's also the reason for me to choose medic.a part from the determination of myself to tackle the subject n cure the ppl.i dun wan to live life just like that ,without contributing but living a meaningless life.coz life is just once. this is what alvin used to say .:).a very risky term if someone use it wrongly .haha.he has another common sentence which he always use "go to sleep,tomolo will be a better day".haha..cute fellow.a person who i really wish to be with in the future.:p.although now we are closed,somehow i feel that we are morally wrong to do so.telling my parent will ease my feeling.i certainly know that.but i wan to find a perfect way to tell them.perhaps when i do well in my studies only i will tell them.not now when they just know that i spent that single bill of $120 dollars n never studied while living in an expansive one ppl apartment.i dun wan to mislead them to think that i m so thrown in love that i forget about other things.such as studies n family.especially cannot let my bro to know that i belanja a guy,he bound to be mad.though i doubt n scare my mum or my bro would guess that. coz i told my bro about alvin b4.how can i convince my mum that i spent all of it myself.one person can never eat that much .n silly me tried to say that i order a wine to cover up the story .yet later my mum suspecting me n ask:why did u order wine?i tot u never drink?n i just answered :hmm...i dunno ..pls,pls dun let her find out . i dun wan myself to be seem like a pa lia n stupid girl who spend for guy like the tv drama episode to my parent..