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(your life)

 

A blind eye is shown where time is needed,

Rehabilitation works.

Just ignore it; it might just go away,

But on the other side it may get worse.

 

The world just turns

But only you and I learn

That cover-ups

Cover us up.

 

But when we turn away

People fight not play

And all it means

Is that its counting down

 

Our time

Waiting for our crime,

A lyrical rhyme

Won’t work.

Rock and roll aint dead,

Just hurt.

 

A world of pain

Showers us like acid rain

Turning our insanities sane

And free,

Where about shall I let it be?

 

A fist of death

Catches my breath

Like a kitchen knife

Waiting n wanting to slice

A fresh young wrist

Or throat.

 

With a life in one

Death in the other

Which one

Do you want to be thrown?

 

Because where time is needed

A blind eye is shown.

 

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09.01.2003

 

Once again I’m suicidal

I just want my life to end.

I was becoming masochistic

I needed a friend.

 

But alas the fucker failed

To get me back on track.

Fuck you motherfucker

I’ll b dead when you get back.

 

My life is at the end

Let my knife take it all.

Blood drips in puddles,

I’m found lying on the floor.

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A Beautiful Mind

 

A beautiful mind

Is a game we play,

A twist of fate

Can make us pay

One day.

 

Life is a thread,

Bound by everything you do,

Just wait til it snaps.

Its over.

You wont have a fuckin clue.

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A Possible Happy Ending

 

Love, is rotten inside me.

And forever it will be.

I just cannot be set free.

WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS TO ME???

 

All this time we never had.

Wasted on sex and booze and crack.

Never stopped me feeling sad.

But NOW YOUR GONE IM GLAD!!!

 

All was lost but now its back

I’m so happy cant be sad

My life’s now back on track

And it’s all thanks to YOU being GONE.

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A Song

 

A song, a rhyme, a fuck knows what

Too tired to care had way too much pot.

 

It all comes out in the end someday

Whatever it is bad or good anyway.

 

Finishing touches finish us off

But why you ask to which fuck you I cough.

 

I never was a popular guy

Things were average but I was high

 

Everyday is the same I just don’t care.

Everyday is different contradictive I tear.

 

A fear of unknown is my only way out

Excitement fear n pain from a ticket tout.

 

Is life a game, can I cheat my way through?

Or is it a bastard which is chanting fuck you?

 

A needless word in a needless world

It tells me a lot about you and myself.

 

So as time goes by and I say hi

The world is a motherfucker so don’t be shy.

 

So this was my statement a note or a song.

Whatever it was it all went wrong.

Like me. Like it all.

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All My Life

 

I wanna go to war,

sadaams a bastard.

I wanna just die,

My minds departed.

 

Seeing this time

We’ve been together,

What’s come out?

We’ve just hurt each other.

 

All my life’s insane.

I need this self-inflected pain.

All my life’s dead.

I’m sick of listening to all this shit I’m fed.

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All Of The Above

 

What if you were told

You had one day left to live,

What would you do?

 

Tell those you love you do?

Tell those you hate you do?

 

Travel?

Unravel?

 

Spend all your money?

I aint being funny.

 

Cry all day?

Meditate?

Pray?

 

Right all wrong?

Do all good?

Commit all crimes?

Never be good?

 

Who would you spend

Your last day with?

Family?

Friends?

Or whoever you could?

 

Could you make the world

a better place?

Would you show the world

your pretty face?

 

Would you make

clear you love?

Or as much

of all the above?

 

Would you see everyone

and forgive

 

I know what id do…I’d live.

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Always The Same

 

I don’t need you anymore

I’m living life my way.

and forever we will be separate

because what happened today.

every night it’s the same

I just need you to go away.

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As Simple As You

 

Friendships an apple

with hate as a bird.

I am the second

but you are the third.

 

The size never matters

but in context it will.

confused yet? I think so.

But life will fulfil?

 

in this world we’re a number

not even a thing.

But to the believers,

eternal life He shall bring

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Bannoffee Pie

 

All paths unwind

but all are dead ends.

we all have enemies,

who are our friends?

 

Given this life

is like having a fight.

go on motherfucker,

have the first bite.

 

acid trippin

blood drippin

masochistic motherfuckers

and penis suckers

 

living life

on the edge of the knife

fuckin fools

bloody pools

 

dead fed head.

Which one bled?

Lost you yet?

Good.

Have another taste.

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Because Of You

 

Don’t you dare fuckin talk to me you tore me up inside,

ripped my lungs out n my bloody heart cried.

 

I slit my wrists coz of you bitch.

But you never spent your time with me bitch.

 

u just fucked me up made me feel like shit,

but I do thank you for showing me it,

 

a suicidal manner and a fucked up mind,

shoot you stab you and two bodies they’ll find.

 

you’ll be dead. I’ll be dead.

and its all your fucking fault

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Bent, Not Gay

 

A lyrical mind in a masochistic head.

Drug abuse and crime is all I was fed.

Testing and trying a life experiment.

But we are just a number. Society's bent.

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Birth – Death

 

Every cloud has a silver lining,

every life has a blood soaked end.

Living in hope of eternal being,

finding Satan as our only true friend.

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Boxed Game

 

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Butterfly Plane

 

Trial n error make the world go insane

Flying around like a butterfly plane

Children laughing a play

We know  that we will all die someday

 

And its me and you we will fight and cry

But our lives are the same

With the shit that we claim

But it’s you and me

With the things that we see

Brings us together from hate

With life on the slate

 

Too many lies too much blood spilt

Living this life this life, living in filth

Can we go on? Can life generate

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Call It What You Like

 

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Changes

 

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Definitely Capable

 

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Don’t Let The Feeling Go

 

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Everything

 

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Hate

 

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Holy Fate

 

Flowing through my liquid mortal life

Shows fates effects on death

Epiphany now over shows a birth discovered

Played lifelessly into a bloody end.

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I Hate You

 

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I Love You

 

I  love you like my moon

Forever shining your light

But I am a storm or a black rain-cloud

And darkness puts up a fight

 

Obviously I loose but I always do

I stay until the end.

But even as a winner, a mini-sinner

Can’t you swallow your pride and be my friend.

 

Together people hate us

but we’ve never stayed apart

But now honestly do you think its time

to masochate my heart

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Just Chattin’

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Last Friday

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Life

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Living My Life

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Love

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Only One

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Punk Comedy

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Questions And Answers

 

WHY cant people

TRY to see what’s going on in this

GOD FORSAKEN place.

 

Please just give a little time

to regenerate the crime

and bring a smile back on to your face

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Re-Birth

 

As I hit the ground

when my head

starts to bleed

the bullet holes

filled with seeds,

life germinates

from birth to death

but fuckin around will pay

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Rhetorical

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Ride In The Fast Lane

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Rock Loving Suicide

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S(p)lit

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So Calm & Soft

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Society Sucks

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Stressed From You Released

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The Poet

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The Same As It Was Before

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This So Called Life

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To The World I’m Dead

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Unknown Member

 

I’m just feeling high and happy

Nobody knows my name.

A few slit wrists.

A bloody massacre.

Who is there to blame?

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Vampyre

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Verse In The Exam Room

 

I walked into the room

Ready to fail,

My face was red

And my heart was pale.

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When’s The Last Recent Day You Can’t Remember

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Your Jealousy