Diary

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It'll totally be a blessing for me. I'll take anything. As for now i'm tired get talking to yous all soon. Keep us in prayer.

Monday May 17,2004 11.49 PM
Ive been fighting with something inside me often and I am not sure what it is, I have yet to resolve something I take it. I was thinking about going to a place at random letting God have complete control over the destination and seeing how spiritual it could be. All I would do is take my Bible and go where ever the Lord would have me go. This sounds cool to me but I don't see the Lord leading me to do so. This brings me to a point in what I am saying. It is this I have realized in that the way we feel about things in life aren't always the way God see's it in his eyes. For example: I want to quit my job, The Lord provided me with the job I currently have right...So why would I want to quit?? I just do. I have prayed and realized that God does not want me to quit.Yet! There is a purpose for everyting and I don't think it will become clear untill I put my full attention to God, which is what we as Christians should be doing in the first place. BUT it is hard to submit to the works of God when man made wants and needs are at hand isn't it.... What does God, Jesus, think of me? Let me rephrase that:::::::::: What does God think of you??? When you think of God what thoughts go through your head? (mine= thank you, forgive me, Love ...etc). Can you say for certain that the God above is pleased with everything we do? I know it is extremely hard to be perfect but God does not ask us the be of such perfection like the world seems to place such a heavy burden on. Jesus was perfect, He showed that it was possable. We are born un perfect therefor we can only strive to be more like Christ(perfect). It is a very hard thing to do in life and it's most reasurring to realize in life that everyone is not perfect. Your pastor=NOT PERFECT My pastor=NOT PERFECT Mom=NOT PERFECT Me=NOT PERFECT You=NOT PERFECT Etc=NOT PERFECT God,Jesus,Christ=PERFECT! Jesus Christ is the only one that is, and will ever have lived "the" perfect life. He was merly an example of what was/IS possiable to do if you put your whole FAITH.TRUST.LIFE in commitment for him. I encourage all of you to read the book of TIMOTHY, its a sweet book and then when your done read the sequel ( II TIMOTHY ). For this next comming month read them there not long. Then please I ask if you would read the book of LUKE especially the chapters with words in them those are the best ones(chuckel). ALSO pray for everyone in your life.. Dear Lord I pray for the readers the few but many in your works that stand up for you and those that do not stand up for you whether they are parapoligeic or just weaked christians I pray that you help them stand up for ther God the one who gives them life...and DEATH which is what some people take for granted, life that is Lord, Don't take it for granted I pray O GOD that you would touch the hearts of every viewer aroud the USA and teach them your ways and guid them through your rightious path of mercy and forgiveness and also I pray that you would convict the hearts of all the people that have been struggle-ing with sin in there hearts. Break them through the chains that bind them from you Lord I pray and I thank you for everyone, in your Beautiful Holy and Precious name I pray AMEN...