WALKING IN MEMPHIS- Joel Smith | |
It was hot and morbidly humid--Memphis in the summertime. I was walking down Quince Road, a two-lane country bi-way on the outskirts of the city, surrounded by buzzing cicada bugs and high swamp grass, in light khaki pants and a blue dress shirt, circles of sweat darkening around my armpits. The sun was set firmly at noon, and the heat rose off the asphalt in nauseating waves. I wiped my brow. The ink on the resume folded up in my breast pocket was beginning to bleed from the sweat, my blue corduroy jacket hanging wetly over my arm, my heavy shoulder bag plowing a furrow into my shoulder. I felt like an outcast, some well-dressed and unemployed John the Baptist wandering in the Southern wilderness, a solitary soul stumbling through a shaggy landscape of dull, heat-burnished green. High up in one of the tangled oak trees to the right of the road a bird began to sing, and for a moment I kept the time with my steps, until the tune fell apart and the bird gave up.
I absent-mindedly kicked crushed, empty beer cans into the brush as I walked and nearly gave flight to a crusty old turtle, who poked its head out of its shell just in time to catch my eye. I stopped and watched it scuttle along, flailing towards the centerline, oblivious to the possibility of oncoming traffic, as if it owned the road. The cicadas in the trees buzzed and hissed like a scratchy old record. The turtle meandered across the hot asphalt and the sun beat down on its big boxy shell. I thought Dean Moriarty, speeding down Quince Road on that afternoon, would have rubbed his hands in delight at the sight; he would have called it the beatest old turtle he'd ever seen. A pickup truck whistled past me, headed in the opposite direction. The driver laid on the horn as he passed, either to scare me or to tell me to watch out. All Memphis drivers do that, it seems. |
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I watched the turtle until its leathery tail disappeared in the tall grass on the other side of the road, then picked up my pace again. A scrap of Robert Johnson wafted off the road. Woke up this morning, feel around for my shoes; you know I got them old walkin' blues. It was easy to invoke Johnson's spirit here, on a country road running through sweeps of high grass, kudzu limbs creeping up the telephone poles. People tell me these walkin' blues ain't bad, it's the worse-off feeling I most ever had. Another pickup sped past; the eerie blare of its horn approaching and receding sounded like a switchblade on a steel-stringed guitar. The cicadas crackled and I kept the time. Woke up this morning, feel around for my shoes. |
This morning, though, I sat in the front seat so I could watch the streets approach through the windshield. The nice thing about living off of Poplar Avenue was that it was a straight shot into the city, to the west, and everything we needed to survive was either along the way, or a few blocks to the north or south. MATA route 40A was the only line we ever took, into and out of the city, in for drinks at the Hi-Tone, out to Kroger’s for groceries. A few blocks from the house we passed the vast commercial composite that contained Starbucks ("currently not accepting applications"), Blockbuster Video ("not hiring, but come in and fill out an application") and Bookstar, a former movie theater (the marquee still juts out from the storefront) turned into an enormous bookstore. Bookstar had been my first hope for employment, especially since the adjoining coffee shop was looking for an assistant manager, a position for which Bethany had considerable experience. I dreamed of wearing a pair of smarty-pants glasses and moving in between the shelves of brightly colored novels and self-help books all day, perhaps flirting with Bethany in the coffee shop on my lunch break. At the end of the day when I swung by to pick her up, she would wipe down the counter with a rag one last time, gather her things and we would walk home together. Bookstar never called back, and neither did the coffee shop. So it goes.
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I transferred onto the 88 at Ridgeway and boarded an empty bus. Even the driver had gone out for a smoke break. When she returned she asked where I was headed. She was thoroughly confused by my interpretation of the route map, and rightly so. I was ahead of schedule and so decided not to get off where I was going but to stay on, round the prescribed loop and disembark at the return of the loop. When I finally got off I couldn't find the address I was looking for and ended up wandering around an empty strip mall parking lot with a burgeoning headache and a bad case of stomach gas. At some point I turned around and realized that the temp agency's office was inside the great hulking office park building on the corner where I had gotten off the bus. It looked like a hunk of black lava rock sunk into the ground, surrounded by corporate green space, hemmed in by the freeway running behind it. Inside it would be lit up like a fluorescent circus, with gray cubicles everywhere and inane secretaries whispering Nutra-Sweet nothings into shoulder-mounted telephones. I just knew it. I thought for a moment about turning back. |
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