Should Have, Could Have...

Tears are streaming down my face
I wish you'd come back to me
hold my hands and tell me that everything's going to be ok
never will i let my head go down
I will stand strong
through this pain
I can't hold on much longer,
yet I'll push on,
I've risen from the dead before.
I can move on
I can be free
Without you.
One thing and only one I've asked for
I've prayed for countless nights
yet my tears still fall
I can handle how much i miss you.
It hasn't even been a day
I'm still crying though,
And my body aches
my heart is breaking
and healing once again
I'm sorry for what I did
Sorry for what I didn't
Sorry for letting you go

I should have cried
I promised myself I wouldn't.
I should have chased after you
I told myself not to
I should have screamed and yelled told you absolutely everything
I only told you half of everything
I wonder if you knew I knew
I could feel it in my bones, see it in your eyes, and heard it from a bird.

It's over now
I accept that now
If indeed there is a chance I'd pray tonight I know
Give me light, and give me fire
Kiss me before you go
I won't linger in the past
I'm strong enough to move on

Wishing I would have told you how I feel
Wishing you'd realize it all wasn't just a game
The words I spoke, were never spoken before
The way I felt never felt before.

Tonight as I drift into my sleep
I'll pray for serenity and my sanity