Aaah.. so, it's another update that nobody is gonna read! Woo! That's pretty cool, though, because this is almost theraputic, seeing how nobody else listens to me hehe... That's not true, entirely :-D.. Maybe I just need to speak up.

It's not like I really do have a lot to complain about, honestly. I really do not. And that makes me feel crappy when I am unhappy because there are people worse off than I am. And that sounds so cliched but it's true. Some people have truly shitty lives.

but sometimes I do get a feeling that I could be doing more with my life, or at least, I have the potential to be doing more with my life but I'm just not realizing that potential. Or maybe more aptly put, I'm not in a position to realize it. I'd love to be able to take like a month off and like...travel some foreign country. Maybe that isn't a terribly bright idea right now, but it is something I'd like to do. Or maybe just... do WHATEVER I wanted. It's hard to explain, but I feel like I don't do things I'd like to do because I'm afraid of what people will say/think. This isn't something that has ruled my life, this dependence on what people think, but it seems I worry about other people too much anymore. Back in the day, I didn't really give a damn about what anybody thought, really. Maybe I was too oblivious to people at times. Now I think I'm too sensitive. I feel like a shell of myself. :-P

Anyway,soo... things going on with me... This is sad that this is the highlight of my week, but an extra big IKEA store opened.. it was VERY exciting. I went on opening day, hoping to win a PO(ot)ANG chair, but I didn't :-( Oh well, there was other cool stuff there! I LOVE IKEA! And um... lemme see..the weather has been incredible down here..really warm. Almost t-shirt weather, except I really do not like temps below maybe 65 degrees, so I'm still running around wearing sweaters. But it's still warm out!

The semester ends very soon, in two weeks. I have a major paper due in English and I still don't know what I am doing it on. I need to go to the library HARDKORE and sit downa nd finish it.. but I'm at loss for ideas.. And it's gonna be hard to bullshit 7 pages.. but maybe I can manage. hehehe... My other classes basically suck, but I should be able to pull of a 3.0 (I hope)

I have a job interview tomorrow so I better get going..it's at 10am, which is about two full hours earlier than I am accustomed to waking up lately hehe.. I hope I get the job though.. or else Christmas is gonna be even MORE depressing than usual (!)

Valete et Cavec Canem!