My chat with Lanna, Carrie & Robb:
3-15-2001 7:57PM
indi_warrior: what's going on robb.erkin_berbert hello
indi_warrior: um, hi.
mini_durst: I don;t come around anymore bacause the group dynamin makes this semi college town look like dawson's fucking creek with les dignity and more geekery.
indi_warrior: well, duh.
indi_warrior: but we have missed you around the gaming table.
indi_warrior:
erkin_berbert whatever
mini_durst: So, why doesn't everone pull their heads from their ass for their own damn sakes?
erkin_berbert dude I have
lannachi: sigh
indi_warrior: are you speaking generally or specifically? why does everyone step so lightly?
indi_warrior: *snicker* sorry, couldn't help it.
erkin_berbert I am not wild about spending a weekend in Jail for pummelling the shit out of josh if he breathes wrong when he is near me
lannachi: lmao, so is lars
erkin_berbert I took your advice from thanks giving Robb
indi_warrior: so don't. YOU control your actions.
mini_durst: you have engineered your own world to make yoursel;f feel like a giant among ants.
erkin_berbert no
erkin_berbert I don't take shit
erkin_berbert I don't assciate with shit
erkin_berbert If you wish to that is your deal
indi_warrior: yes you do. you dredge up shit.
erkin_berbert what
mini_durst: No, but you fling it. why wast time on someone that ignores you?
erkin_berbert I don't want to spend a weekend around Josh
erkin_berbert I am not wasting time
indi_warrior: i'm sorry that you feel that way.
erkin_berbert who is less than shit in my book
mini_durst: I think you either need to get some closure or.....hell, just get some closure dude.
indi_warrior: i'm sorry that you feel your friends are LESS IMPORTANT than your own misplaced anger.
erkin_berbert carrie then fine stop coming by my place
erkin_berbert this only comes up when you are involved
indi_warrior: be angry at me. or yourself. josh was incidental. and that is childish.
erkin_berbert and frankly Id rather not hang out with you anymore
mini_durst: I am sick of being all Melrose Place just to watch some movies and play some games. This sucks ass and I hate to see oyu all like this.
erkin_berbert there
erkin_berbert I said it
indi_warrior: i appreciate your frankness.
erkin_berbert Josh only comes up around Carrie
erkin_berbert cut out carrie eliminate Josh everything is fine
erkin_berbert so there
erkin_berbert sides you are leaving for japan so no loss anyway
mini_durst: Carrie, if it's that way, the make a choice. the Gang TM does not revolve around ROC. Period.
indi_warrior: i will sorely miss gaming with everyone. i am very sorry that you feel this way rick. and that you wish to get rid of me to solve the problem.
lannachi: well yes, josh doesn't really want to be near you either, but he cares for carrie and tries to be supportive
indi_warrior: and do you realy think that if josh were gone, we'd get back together? that everything would be okay?
erkin_berbert you asked to join my gang and t ohang out at my house
erkin_berbert I NEVER INVITED YOU
indi_warrior: it wouldn't rick. i'm sorry.
indi_warrior: your gang?
erkin_berbert game
erkin_berbert I was reading while typing
indi_warrior: lanna? are you my friend because rick allows you to be?
mini_durst: Even if we have to seperate hangouts and clubhouses and games, I just want my "friends" to get their shit together emotionally. And this is ME talking here, so you must be all kinds of fucked up.
indi_warrior: robb? lars?
erkin_berbert no I don't care who they are friends with
erkin_berbert if you don't want to hang out at my place then don't
erkin_berbert I am sorry that I set rule FOR MY OWN HOUSE
indi_warrior: i do want to hang out at your place. i won't beg for the privelege.
lannachi: and you see me over for an hour about once a week
erkin_berbert please forgive me for being SO presumtious
mini_durst: And you haven't seen me in months.
erkin_berbert Have you invited me??
indi_warrior: that's true. i don't get to see you guys enough. but i like to game on monday nights.
erkin_berbert Hell have you talked to me
mini_durst: How about we forgive you for being a psycho and everybody calm the fuck down.
indi_warrior: poor lars. no input.
erkin_berbert setting rules for my house is not psychotic
erkin_berbert it is normal
lannachi: oh she yells, you don't hear it though
lannachi: lars is tired of this
mini_durst: No, Rick, I havent, cause every time I talk to someone u talked to, I get to hear about that a fucking loser I am. Not exactly what you say to my face,
erkin_berbert sure robb
erkin_berbert I talk about you 24/7 every damn day
erkin_berbert I have the robb shrine and web page of how much a loser robb is
indi_warrior: well, when it's not me. sorry, j/k.
erkin_berbert get over it
mini_durst: Hmmmm..... funny how when you get caught talking shit u get defensive.
erkin_berbert I haven't said shit about you
erkin_berbert other than why did you stop gaming
erkin_berbert that is it
erkin_berbert what shit
erkin_berbert name what I said Robb I dare you
indi_warrior: are you at work right now rick? i don't want you to get into trouble with your super.
indi_warrior: this can be done later, if it will endanger your job.
erkin_berbert I multitask
mini_durst: My seizures are fake, I'm an unfeeling whore, um....... I just do everything for attention. This from the giant with swords on the walls.
indi_warrior: *snicker*
lannachi: heehee
indi_warrior: ooh, badly placed. i was snickering at multitask.
erkin_berbert I said that isn't it funny you neer have seizure after you stopped working at Creative
erkin_berbert that I saw
erkin_berbert now the unfeeling whore is out of left field
mini_durst: I've been snickering the whole time, so I have an implied snicker.
indi_warrior: i want a snickers bar. badly.
erkin_berbert and I was not alone on the seizures thing
mini_durst: and I have had seizures, ask Lanna.
lannachi: yeah, where did the unfeeling whore thing come from?
lannachi: that was from lars
erkin_berbert and the last time I mentioned it was um october
indi_warrior: *snicker*
lannachi: yes he has had some seizures since then, i didnt know what the hell they were
mini_durst: well, look./ I'm just here to tell everybody to either put it all behind you, ALL of it, for all of us, or just break it off. Period. One or the other. Starting now.
indi_warrior: to what are you referring?
mini_durst: All of this Drama. Carrie/ Rick. Josh/Rick. rick/Robb. there is no Carrie/Robb drama cause we actually *gasp* talked it out.
indi_warrior: Yeah. that got handled pretty well.
erkin_berbert well Robb I have no beef wit hyou
erkin_berbert so it is on your end
erkin_berbert and for the Josh thing I don't like him
erkin_berbert end of story
indi_warrior: okay. but you do have a beef with me. you have banned me from your haouse...
indi_warrior: house. sorry.
erkin_berbert If you want to hang out with Josh do so
erkin_berbert hang out with me do so
mini_durst: well, I did what I had to do to solve it. And now I'm here.
erkin_berbert hang out with both of us at the same time impossible
indi_warrior: lars, i wanna shoulder rub!!!
lannachi: it is nice
indi_warrior: and that's true. it's a big frikkin' place.
mini_durst: Only because you apporach the table with WAY more rage than u need to rick. We've had this talk. JOSH IGNORES YOU. Why do you let him get to you?
lannachi: you are (gasp!) in the same state with josh as we speak
indi_warrior: ooh. touche.
mini_durst: Same town even.
indi_warrior: eek.
erkin_berbert I choose not to associate
mini_durst: Then choose so at each opportunity.
mini_durst: U make this hard on everyone Rick.
lannachi: dissociate with him in kansas, it is a big damn con
erkin_berbert That fact that it cause so much orf a problem with the rest of you makes me even more pissed
indi_warrior: what???
erkin_berbert no cause I will have carrie coming around
lannachi: why because we don't instantly take your side?
mini_durst: GROW THE FUCK UP YOU TELLETUBBIE!
erkin_berbert having that pile of shit follow behind
indi_warrior: i'm not enlisting their aid rick.
erkin_berbert get a job you waste
indi_warrior: they think what they wanna think. there are no "sides".
mini_durst: Rick, you wanna piss josh off. BE HAPPY.
indi_warrior: I'm sorry. that won't piss josh off. he doesn't care. at all. he's moved on withlife.
mini_durst: When someone hands me one like they did you, I will. Till then, I'
mini_durst: will work the shitty ones I can earn.
erkin_berbert sure dude
erkin_berbert You are 27 years old
erkin_berbert there is not excuse
indi_warrior: why are you changing the subject?
erkin_berbert so back off with tellming me what to do
lannachi: defensive?
mini_durst: Look, I just think it's funy as hell that you are twiasted over a girl that brinmgs her boyfriend over after a year of being broken up.
erkin_berbert funny huh
indi_warrior: i don't think its funny. i am sorry he is hurt. i am sorry you hurt, rick.
indi_warrior: i just wish you wouldn't alienate your other friends in those instances.
indi_warrior: or me.
mini_durst: I'm not, cause he is the source of his own pain. Period.
indi_warrior: that's true. but it is still pain.
erkin_berbert sorry for loving
erkin_berbert sorry for caring
erkin_berbert sorry for having god damn feelings about things
indi_warrior: i'm sorry you hurt, rick. i really am. if i could patch you up, i would.
erkin_berbert I don't want any emotional help from you
mini_durst: Love is pain dude. No one knows like I do. But still, this is wrecking your life.
indi_warrior: you may not believe me, but i am really sorry.
erkin_berbert no really it isn't
erkin_berbert I just can't hang out with an ex-girlfriend
erkin_berbert if that is my life I should shoot myself
lannachi: hi
erkin_berbert no you
indi_warrior: then why is it josh you have a beef with? you seem fine on game nights.
mini_durst: Um...Lanna is your ex dude.
erkin_berbert cause I would like to be friends with you
indi_warrior: is that a direct threat? rick, that is illegal. don't do that.
mini_durst: She hangs closer than your own fucking nuts.
erkin_berbert Lanna and I don't have issues
erkin_berbert I am talking about 1 exgf not all of em
indi_warrior: that's pretty close *snicker*
indi_warrior: sorry
lannachi: lol, didnt know that close
mini_durst: CARRIE HAS NO ISSUES WITH YOU OTHER THAN THE PAIN YOU feel.
erkin_berbert by not liking josh I have problems hanging out with carrie
erkin_berbert or vice versa
mini_durst: She wants you to get over it and either be a friend or not. period.
indi_warrior: wow. i do. it's like the thought was plucked from my head.
erkin_berbert I am saying I will never like or ever forgive it
indi_warrior: obviously.
indi_warrior: but i don't like some things you have done. i don't like some things robb has done.
erkin_berbert and if you (carrie) don't want to be my frined then stop hanging out with me
indi_warrior: i hate some things my father has done.
indi_warrior: but i forgive them. and i move on.
mini_durst: Well, write a damn song and just let the shit die.
indi_warrior: and i have good relationships with them all -- except you.
mini_durst: Dude, even I worry about you. In a serious way.
erkin_berbert I am not going to touch that statemnet with a 1000 foot pole
indi_warrior: obviously i want to be your friend. or why would i put up with this shit?
erkin_berbert for hating someone
erkin_berbert Fine
mini_durst: Ok, Rick, do you ever plan to love again? To move on with life as you know it?
erkin_berbert yes I do
erkin_berbert I am mad at his actions
indi_warrior: i will wait for your friendship.
erkin_berbert and carrie's
erkin_berbert fine
erkin_berbert wait then
indi_warrior: but you have mine now. you always have.
erkin_berbert what ever
erkin_berbert *gasp* that I can't hold a grudge for being fucked over
indi_warrior: it will only hurt yourself.
erkin_berbert so if you shoes are stolen and you know who took em
lannachi: trust me i know
mini_durst: A grudge is a small feeling in the back of your head that makes you say things under your breath.
erkin_berbert and you get over the loss of your shoes
mini_durst: You are feeling a flaming hitler Hate.
indi_warrior: i am not an object. i was not STOLEN. i left rick.
erkin_berbert wouldn't you still be pissed as fuck at the guy who stole em
indi_warrior: i left of my own free will. if my shoes left, i'd be really freaked.
erkin_berbert without hate there is no love
lannachi: carrie has a choice here, not an object
mini_durst: Great. The world has plenty of hate without your piss ass reason for it.
erkin_berbert dude
erkin_berbert don't get all righteous
mini_durst: dude!
mini_durst: dude?
indi_warrior: dudes.
erkin_berbert hate is needed for love
lannachi: where's my car?
mini_durst: well, it's true...you act like you are preserving the tao of the planet by hating Josh. It's stupid.
lannachi: not this much hate
lannachi: that was lars
erkin_berbert without it why don't we all clock work orange ourselves into shallow thought of what love is
indi_warrior: go lars *snicker*
indi_warrior: oh wait, the where's my car thing? or the hate thing?
erkin_berbert Sorry I don't forgive it
lannachi: hate thing is lars, where's my car is me
erkin_berbert just accept it
indi_warrior: don't over-intellectualize this rick.
mini_durst: By the samne token, why don;t we all go on vindictive murderous rages against every scorned love?
lannachi: robb would have killed roy by now
erkin_berbert I am pissed at you and try as I might to get the anger going I't fails me
lannachi: if we all followed what we felt
erkin_berbert sure
erkin_berbert why the hell not
mini_durst: Actually, I could kill Roy with a mere thought.
indi_warrior: another direct threat. i hope ppl heard that, in case i turn up dead,
erkin_berbert I'd just prefer a good ass kicking instead
erkin_berbert what that is not towards you carrie
indi_warrior: or in case josh turns up dead, fine.
erkin_berbert LOL
lannachi: oh god if you guys could hear this end
indi_warrior: why do you tilt so dangerously between anger at me and anger at him?
erkin_berbert cause of being fucked over
erkin_berbert of being lied to
indi_warrior: that previous statement of mine might have come out wrong slightly, oh well...
indi_warrior: how long ago?
erkin_berbert I don't like it
indi_warrior: yeah, and i think it's just dandy. no one LIKES it.
erkin_berbert well right now it is at alittle over a year
erkin_berbert I don't give a fuck
erkin_berbert I didn't ask you to like it
erkin_berbert Did I ask anyone ??
erkin_berbert I don't like the fact you are forgetful
indi_warrior: i don't either.
indi_warrior: we all have faults.
erkin_berbert do I raz on you everytime you are forgetful and say damn it carrie stop doing that it is unhealthy
erkin_berbert I wish you weren't so foregetful
erkin_berbert iwsh you could just start remebering things
indi_warrior: i don't choose to be forgetful. you choose to be vindictive.
mini_durst: Look.....Rick. Buddy. Pal. Even if you hate him like ketchup crust..... Why do you have to let it consume you? I mean, in a practical matter, if he's hanging out, he'll actually be within reach when you go Columbine.
indi_warrior: i wouldn't encourage that robb. that makes you an accessory.
lannachi: don't give him ideas
mini_durst: And Carrie, quit appologizing for making your own fucking decisions. Next to your geisha outfit in the closet, look for a dusty thing hanging. It's your spine.
lannachi: harsh
indi_warrior: i will always be sorry that anyone is in pain. it is not always my fault.
erkin_berbert it is not consuming me
erkin_berbert I only talk about it when it is brought up
erkin_berbert jesus
lannachi: you are so in denial rick
erkin_berbert when Josh is brought up I talk about it
erkin_berbert how is that in denial
erkin_berbert I have patience like a mother fucker
indi_warrior: mrow?
lannachi: queh?
lannachi: nani?
mini_durst: Ok, this is it. Period. Rick, either accept everything that goes with having Carrie in your life or cut her out completely. COMPLETELY!
indi_warrior: um..
indi_warrior: okay.
erkin_berbert I accept she is with Josh
erkin_berbert I accept I hate Josh or dislike him
mini_durst: Well, Carrie, it's either Joish or Rick. Period. And we know what you want. Rick is obviously not mature enough to handle it, so why do you take this?
erkin_berbert I accept I never want to be around him
erkin_berbert There all accepted
erkin_berbert that is all there is to it
indi_warrior: i don't see why we are not mature enough to NOT make this a one or the other situation.
erkin_berbert In fact I think things have been going along smashingly till the comic convention trip came along
mini_durst: Oh, WE are. Rick isn't.
mini_durst: And this, my bone with the whole group.
lannachi: well rick you are the one with issues and when it comes down to group outings, and it is your choice, it is not a point of argument, it is your choice
mini_durst: It's the Rick O'Connell Show, guest starring his friens.
indi_warrior: oh like we're not all egocentric.
erkin_berbert I chose not to hang out when josh is there
erkin_berbert big whoop[
erkin_berbert sorry
erkin_berbert for having an opion and not letting it be ignored
mini_durst: No, dude, you don;t. You make a HUGE deal out oif it and make us all feel like shit that we even thought of such a horrible thing!
erkin_berbert This is the Rob Show where I think everyone has ulterior motives and is out to persecute me
erkin_berbert I say I am not going
erkin_berbert you say come on
erkin_berbert I sayw no again you push
erkin_berbert I lash cause I am pissed that you asked
erkin_berbert id think that after the 2 time of asking you would have caught on
lannachi: remember that conversation we had after thanksgiving? you completely told me to pick a side. i won't.
mini_durst: And then you corner every body individually and try to make a big loyalty issue out of it. I could give a rat's ass if Joseph Mengele showed up to game night, as long as he brings coke.
erkin_berbert wha??
erkin_berbert no I talk to my friends
erkin_berbert there is no cornering except that in your mind robb
indi_warrior: he tried to get people to collaborate against me? or josh?
erkin_berbert what??
erkin_berbert no this is an against Robb thing
mini_durst: Um....... I'll start saving chat transcripts if I have to.
indi_warrior: oh. okay.
erkin_berbert go for it
indi_warrior: well, not okay, but... you know... wtf.
mini_durst: Rick, would I have even started this conference if I didn;t want all this utter bullshit to stop?
indi_warrior: where's that spine you said was in my closet? i don't see it.
erkin_berbert after I kicked him out there was this "Rick is a Bastard" day and how vil I am for kicking him out
erkin_berbert I dunno
mini_durst: Dude, you made Lanna cry.
erkin_berbert what ever man
mini_durst: I was pissed. Was.
mini_durst: Then I got better.
mini_durst: then I heard you talking shit.
indi_warrior: i was a newt... but i got better.
mini_durst: And now I'm better again.
erkin_berbert Sorry to make her cry that she was LIVING in MY HOUSE WITHOUT MY PERMISSON
lannachi: heehee
mini_durst: And then I grew a foot, gained wait and an ego.
mini_durst: And now I'm you.
lannachi: dude you could have talked to *me*, not attacked me
erkin_berbert and dating someone for a month and getting over me stating my feelings is nothing to getting over a 2 and a half year relationship
erkin_berbert "Uh lanna when are you going home?"
erkin_berbert Ooops that is an attack
lannachi: no
lannachi: but that wasn't what you saidc
erkin_berbert oh really what did I say
erkin_berbert GET THE HELL OUT ??
erkin_berbert nope wasn't that
mini_durst: Um, we obviously got over it since we have been over sice.
erkin_berbert yeah cause there was nothing to get over
lannachi: i am sorry that i mistook our friendship for a better one
erkin_berbert Lanna and you both said you over reacted
mini_durst: So, again, you are dredging Lake Rick's Memory for bullshit to fling.
erkin_berbert what that you could live at my house for a month??
erkin_berbert no you said I made her cry
erkin_berbert I am saying what it was over
erkin_berbert it isn't my fault it was completely unbased
mini_durst: a) if it came down to it, I'd let you stay. Even now, if you were in the position I was in.
lannachi: you know what? it wasnt gonna be a month. we moved in on the 10th of november
lannachi: ten more days dude
erkin_berbert you HAD BEEN THERE a month already
lannachi: why is this even brought up?
erkin_berbert you would stay 4 days go home for 2 and come back
erkin_berbert cause robb said I made you cry
mini_durst: And 10 more days would have diven you a 6th toe?
mini_durst: YOU FUCKING DID!
erkin_berbert no it was the fact taht I wasn't even asked about the month and it was assumed that 10 more days was ok
lannachi: i know
erkin_berbert no I wasn't aske
erkin_berbert I was asked if she could stay the night
erkin_berbert not 5 days out of every week
erkin_berbert look I have limits
erkin_berbert I state em
indi_warrior: this sounds a mite petty.
erkin_berbert and that is that
lannachi: you could have said no a little earlier
mini_durst: Look dude, it's not the convenience issue. It's the fact that you value your comfort more than your friends well being.
erkin_berbert carrie imagine living in my place with three people
lannachi: like most of rick's fights
erkin_berbert when one wasn't even supposed to be there
indi_warrior: i know. but were they in need of help? granted, that would be cramped...
erkin_berbert comfort
erkin_berbert she didn't have to live in stillwater
mini_durst: and the other cleaned and offered to cook. Blasphemy!
erkin_berbert I did robb a favor by letting him move in in the first palce
indi_warrior: yes and that was nice. but favors aren't supposed to be wielded over the other's head.
lannachi: right on sister
indi_warrior: what's done is done. no point in arguing. it can't be changed.
erkin_berbert It wasn't it was that Robb had overstayed his welcome by ivititing someone else to stay and not making any real signs of leaving
mini_durst: And I did my best to make it as comfortable as possible. The fact that I cleaned yout RickAss toilet should have earnbed me a year's rent.
erkin_berbert so
lannachi: you had a date, that was a sign of leaving
erkin_berbert I didn't think you would be there for august, september, and october
mini_durst: So? A. I did what I could to help you. B. I made a sign of leaving by giving you a FUCKING DATE!
mini_durst: And I didn't think you'd be such a pig headed bastard about it.
lannachi: again, why is this an issue now?
erkin_berbert yeah after 2 months of notdoing anything and pushinng back all the other dates you had made
mini_durst: Fuck this. Drop it. But if you ever get homeless, I hope you like the Y.
erkin_berbert I am saying I am not a monster in this issue
erkin_berbert dude I'll never be homeless
erkin_berbert I'll get a job
lannachi: and i am saying that it isn't an issue now
erkin_berbert fine
lannachi: i know
erkin_berbert so how bought them mets
mini_durst: well, I bet Darryl Strawberry is welcome on the Mets couch whenever he needs it.
mini_durst: but now I'm being a bitch.
lannachi: not an issue
mini_durst: would be to Darryl.
erkin_berbert LOL
erkin_berbert hee hee
lannachi: not an issue, the reason we are here today is completely different
indi_warrior: This is pretty far off in left field...
erkin_berbert I am happy with the way things are
erkin_berbert I hate josh
erkin_berbert I never see him
erkin_berbert and really am not affected by him
mini_durst: Look.......... the drama is insane. Yes, I'm willing to be your friend rick, but I'll take the same "what's in it for me" tone you do.
erkin_berbert he is just my hate sponge
erkin_berbert fine
erkin_berbert I thought you already had
indi_warrior: you need to Deal with your anger and hate, not pawn it off on someone you hever see
indi_warrior: never...
erkin_berbert why
mini_durst: And it saddens me that a man with a heart like yours acts the way he does.
erkin_berbert that I hate
erkin_berbert what is wrong with it
erkin_berbert I haven't had an answer yet
indi_warrior: you have unresolved anger at me (evidenced by your earlier statements)
mini_durst: That you let it limit your life in ANY way.
lannachi: deal with it, let it go
lannachi: a word from our sponsor
mini_durst: Dude, do we need to go take some kung fu lessons and work out all our frustrations together?
indi_warrior: *snicker*
indi_warrior: hell no, he wouldn't pull his punches.
lannachi: heeheheheheh
indi_warrior: i might not either.. but just cuz i don't like to.
indi_warrior: of course my punches are weenie.
lannachi: i need to work out too
mini_durst: no, mine are "the most pathetic thinh I've ever seen"
indi_warrior: ok
lannachi: lars says she can punch
mini_durst: So Rick, I think the Gang Consensus is that while some hate is healthy, your level is downright insane.
indi_warrior: no.
indi_warrior: this isn't a gang up on rick thing
indi_warrior: everyone has their own opinions
indi_warrior: there is no consensus.
lannachi: no we all have the same opinion seperately
mini_durst: No, there is. Get a grip, babe. u said it I've said it, and the Toxic Twins here say it.
lannachi: not like we were talked into it
indi_warrior: that's fine.
erkin_berbert I always pull my punches
lannachi: lol
indi_warrior: heehee, the troma twins.
mini_durst: Dude, hate is not bad in and ove itself, but what you are doing is like having ice creamfor dinner every day.
erkin_berbert If I love the same amount none of you say shit
lannachi: and breakfast and lunch
indi_warrior: what's wrong with that *licks lips*
lannachi: the ultra hate fast diet
mini_durst: Where's the love? Show me the love!
erkin_berbert I have that love for the ones I truly care about
mini_durst: The only thing I see you loving is hating Josh.
erkin_berbert I'm passionate with my feelings so sue me
mini_durst: Passionate and insufferable assholery are different dude.
erkin_berbert I am jsut saying it is two faced I can love as much as I hate
mini_durst: "Forsooth! I proclaim that Ring Dings are are the fairest snackable in the land!"
indi_warrior: maybe not. but the passion needs to fade with time.
erkin_berbert I didn't ask for you guys to take it
lannachi: is assholery a word?
lannachi:
mini_durst: Dude, two faced should be the title of your biography.
erkin_berbert you are not being forced to be my friend
erkin_berbert what ??
lannachi: ouch
erkin_berbert Love and hate are opposites
indi_warrior: no. i choose to try and be your friend. why? i don't know. because you area a good person and a cool one. but it is a difficult path.
mini_durst: Actually, if I want to be friends with any of these people, then, yes, I do, since no one will get off their ass and do anything without you.
erkin_berbert if it is hard then don't be my frined
mini_durst: Have you seen me lately?
indi_warrior: nothing good was ever easy.
erkin_berbert You had my love and said thanks but no thanks
mini_durst: And nothing easy was ever good.
indi_warrior: yes i did.
mini_durst:
erkin_berbert but the way you did it was disrespectful
erkin_berbert and that is what fuels the anger
erkin_berbert See unlike you robb I dopn't need to fit in
erkin_berbert I don't need friends
indi_warrior: i did it in the best way i knew how. it was a desperate action.
erkin_berbert I understand that
lannachi: oh yeah robb is really fitting in as a hermit
erkin_berbert it doesn't change it
indi_warrior: actually, rick, i think you very much need friends.
indi_warrior: but that is another discussion altogether.
erkin_berbert no the reason I have friends is cause I want them
erkin_berbert not cause I need them
erkin_berbert remeber that
erkin_berbert You can pick you friends
indi_warrior: i can't. i'm forgetful.
mini_durst: you want pawns, Rick, not freinds.
indi_warrior: but not your nose.
erkin_berbert I don't want pawns
erkin_berbert I could easily have em if I so desired
lannachi: but can you pick your friends nose?
erkin_berbert I want friends and have em
indi_warrior: i don't remember. i'm forgetful.
mini_durst: And what's the deal with "unlike Robb, I don;t need to fit in"?
indi_warrior: it was a barb thrown to change the subject, robb. don't take it.
erkin_berbert all of your comments about me needing to let go
lannachi: lovely mammaries anyone? ya i know, off topic?
erkin_berbert so you gusy can be comfy
indi_warrior: yes.
indi_warrior: comfy?
erkin_berbert well robb
lannachi: well yeah your comfort is high on your list, ours is high on our list
erkin_berbert You don't like it so you choose not to hang out and be around it
erkin_berbert that is fine
mini_durst: God forbid I wanna hang out with EVERYONE with out a fight. Damn me!
erkin_berbert well you can't do that
lannachi: lol
indi_warrior: damn you robb. damn you to hell.
indi_warrior: lol
erkin_berbert All I need is me
erkin_berbert I'm sorry that I don't NEED you guys
lannachi: screw you guys, i'm goin home
erkin_berbert Though I do want to be friends and hang out with you
erkin_berbert if the fact that my Assholery gets in the way of our fun then that is that
erkin_berbert If it were you guys I'd woul be the same thing
indi_warrior: it is indeed.
lannachi: you would expect us to get over it too
indi_warrior: and you would be right.
mini_durst: dude, do you really think that saying you don;t need us and we can be disposed of easily makes up WANt to put our faith and trust in you?
erkin_berbert no I would trust my friends
erkin_berbert and that their judgement is sound
indi_warrior: so trust what they have said to you.
lannachi: then trust that our judgement is sound on this issue
erkin_berbert if you need friends you should look at your life and see what is lacking
indi_warrior: you're changing the subject.
mini_durst: Trust that I'm not wearing underwear.
erkin_berbert ok
erkin_berbert Look if you make dumb life descicisons fine
lannachi: what?!?
indi_warrior: who are you attacking with that statement?
mini_durst: Dude, for us actual humans, friendship is important. Do I NEED it? No. I could function and survine without them.
erkin_berbert I'll say are you sure you'll say yes and if it bothers me that I can't stand being around you I'll leave
mini_durst: But life would just be dull, and sad for me.
erkin_berbert it is a hypothetical
erkin_berbert see that is you
mini_durst: In that respect, yes. I CHOOSE to have them.
indi_warrior: rick, it is because we are your friends that we are even trying.
erkin_berbert Carrie and lanna both know that I would be a hermit
indi_warrior: if we weren't, we would say, okay fuck you then.
erkin_berbert if I felt like it
indi_warrior: i know you have said that.
indi_warrior: i don't know if it is true. i think humans do need companionship
lannachi: no you wouldn't not now, you are too used to being the center of attention
indi_warrior: otherwise you would have been over me immediately.
mini_durst: Hell, I AM a hermit. I'm alive. Have a job. But I get bored easily.
lannachi: lars is leaving, will be back
indi_warrior: bye lars.
erkin_berbert Uh carrie I loved you
erkin_berbert I needed you
erkin_berbert Der
erkin_berbert Sorry bout that
indi_warrior: i know. you need companionship. like all humans.
indi_warrior: but unlike other animals, we can choose based on our personla feelings.
mini_durst: ".....sources say the 5 state rampage began over the scorned love of one Carrie Moore....."
indi_warrior: I regret that our feelings were not in synch.
indi_warrior: I thought we could have fun for the rest of our lives.
erkin_berbert yeah I know
erkin_berbert that is not what is at issue
indi_warrior: I didn't realize the importance of the one bit I lacked.
lannachi: robb is peeing
erkin_berbert yeah it was a little huge
indi_warrior: True. This is ancient history.
erkin_berbert that is why it hurt
lannachi: and thus can we sign a treaty?
erkin_berbert no
indi_warrior: And that is why it killed me, because it was my fault.
indi_warrior: All along. but that was then.
indi_warrior: I can't apologize forever.
indi_warrior: well, i can ,but it loses potency.
erkin_berbert I don't want it
erkin_berbert but that is a hurt you never let go
indi_warrior: i think, rick, that you and i should agree to be friends (in temp) until i leave for japan.
erkin_berbert fine
indi_warrior: and then we can reevaluate when i return, whether or not you want me as a friend.
erkin_berbert I thought things were cool
indi_warrior: i did too.
erkin_berbert I didn't realize that me not wanting to be around Josh was still so huge
indi_warrior: They are cool with me. I enjoy your company.
indi_warrior: No. Look back. It was the problem that people had plans, and because he was invited, they were upset.
indi_warrior: The plans were upset.
erkin_berbert yeah that is it
erkin_berbert plans are just that
indi_warrior: But then somehow we got into "us".
indi_warrior: And you blew up.
erkin_berbert just cause I am not going doesn't mean that the world is over
erkin_berbert no I had 4 people attacking me
indi_warrior: Banned me from your house.
erkin_berbert I have what was said saved
indi_warrior: No one was attacking you.
mini_durst: I was attcking your aqctions, not you , Rick.
indi_warrior: As do i.
erkin_berbert I said if that is what you want
indi_warrior: And you know I don't. So why say it?
mini_durst: Hell, if I didn;t give a fuck, I wouldn;t have jumped in.
lannachi: rick if we really didnt like you would we put up with your actions?
erkin_berbert my actions are me
mini_durst: Ok, Rick, think. you said you'd not go to a con because he was there.
erkin_berbert I do not see them as separate
mini_durst: Cons are big affairs.
indi_warrior: Wait, I was summarizing.
erkin_berbert yeah
mini_durst: you donlt have to ride with him.
indi_warrior: So then you blew up and banned me from the house.
erkin_berbert but Carrie would want to hang out with Mike and Lars and I
mini_durst: Why deprive US of your comapny because of him?
erkin_berbert and Josh would comefollowing after since he didn't know anyone at the con
indi_warrior: And then everyone jumped in, because this is really STUPID and childish.
indi_warrior: listen to yourself.
erkin_berbert because I don't want to ruin your fun
indi_warrior: you are more intelligent than you are sounding.
indi_warrior: besides it doesn't matter for this situation... because we ARE NOT GOING. But it will come up again.
mini_durst: Rick, hell, how about I go with yall and be your buddy? We can always start a game of KAOS
erkin_berbert I know my intelligence 16 damnit 16!!
erkin_berbert That would be fine but I am not driving
erkin_berbert and it is a weekend thing
indi_warrior: i do too. you are not this petty and childish. at least i don't think you are.
erkin_berbert meaning I would have to be around him for more than justa day
erkin_berbert it is not petty
indi_warrior: GOOD GOD RICK LISTEN TO YOU.
erkin_berbert it is hatred
indi_warrior: it is petty.
erkin_berbert the mere site of him makes me see red
indi_warrior: you are impressing no one.
erkin_berbert I am not trying to
erkin_berbert nor do I care if I do
indi_warrior: and people are thinking you are childish.
erkin_berbert who the hermit I never see
indi_warrior: if you are your actions...
erkin_berbert the ex gf
indi_warrior: and your actions are child
indi_warrior: childish
indi_warrior: then....
erkin_berbert I m childish to you
erkin_berbert romantic to others
erkin_berbert noble to others still
indi_warrior: *sigh*
erkin_berbert who gives a fuck
indi_warrior: well, you do obviously. a big one.
erkin_berbert So I don't goto a Con
indi_warrior: So don't go.
erkin_berbert or I go and stomp Josh for talking to me
indi_warrior: We aren't either, but if you want to make a STATEMENT...
erkin_berbert I don't see the line here
indi_warrior: then miss out on a good time.
indi_warrior: That is petty, regardless of whether you want to admit it.
erkin_berbert It wouldn't be a good time
indi_warrior: only because of yourself.
erkin_berbert I'd be bitching about KJosh the whole time till I smacked him
mini_durst: Dude, even hatred should not intrude on geekery. Where are your priorities?
erkin_berbert hatred on this one
indi_warrior: That sounds like an unhealthy obsession.
erkin_berbert I don't really care that much about cons
indi_warrior: You need to do something about it.
erkin_berbert why
erkin_berbert I don't see him
mini_durst: KJosh...all Josh, All the time......
indi_warrior: Because it is intruding on your life.
indi_warrior: It is making you change decisions, change plans.
indi_warrior: Avoid having a good time with friends.
erkin_berbert but when he is in my line of sight the whole seeing red thing and all
indi_warrior: Ruin a good time that you might have had.
mini_durst: God, why can't you just be an alcholoic. Much easier to intervene.
indi_warrior: It is all in your head. It's not even reciprocated.
erkin_berbert If it were one of us would be dead
lannachi: heroin addict even
indi_warrior: that's because you are being really really stupid
erkin_berbert emotions gotta love me
erkin_berbert em I mean
indi_warrior: so you agree that this is petty?
indi_warrior: that it is entirely illogical?
mini_durst: Ok, as just a friend (am I even that anymore?) I just think it's shitty to have to plan seperate events and meetings and games to include everyone I'd like to be with.
indi_warrior: pat benatar kicks ass
lannachi: you're pat benetar
indi_warrior: i kick ass then.
erkin_berbert It is illogical but so are alot of things we do
erkin_berbert rick the make sense boy isn't logical and ALL HELL BREAKS LOOSE
erkin_berbert dear lord what'll we do
indi_warrior: no. i just wanted you to admit that what you were doing had no basis in reality.
mini_durst: Ok, this is fruitless. How about we just plan around thios hatred on a permenant basis? What do we all have to do to make everybody feel ok?
lannachi: rick is it that time of the month?
erkin_berbert Hey everyo but josh is always invited to my house
erkin_berbert I didn't plan shit
indi_warrior: well, i like gaming on mondays. with the gang. that should not change.
erkin_berbert I never said you cant do somehting with out me
erkin_berbert if Rick doesn't want to do it the gang has a hissy fit good lord
indi_warrior: dammit rick... i want you to realize something: JOSH DOESNT HATE YOU. HE DOESNT LIKE YOU. HE DOESNT THINK ABOUT YOU. THIS OBSESSION IS ENTIRELY ONESIDED.
erkin_berbert so
indi_warrior: just so you know.
erkin_berbert yeah
erkin_berbert I know
indi_warrior: you are nothing to him.
indi_warrior: okay.
erkin_berbert good
mini_durst: And Rick, admit that you are the gang instigator out of habit.
erkin_berbert what ?
indi_warrior: so if you want to continue to use him as a hate sponge, i doubt he'll mind.
mini_durst: If I actually did anything yall liked to do, I'd ask yall along.
erkin_berbert oh yes if I didn't invite people we would all stay at home and do NOTHING
indi_warrior: no. but every group has an organizer.
erkin_berbert I don't like him
indi_warrior: um. good for you.
indi_warrior: no one asked you to.
erkin_berbert and I admit tht my anger at carrie is focused at the wrong person but I'll never lay a hand on a woman
erkin_berbert so that is that
erkin_berbert just so ya know I do know that it is in the wrong place
indi_warrior: if you think spending five-ten in jail will help you, go for it.
indi_warrior: if kurt doesn't get to you first.
erkin_berbert for what ??/
indi_warrior: laying a hand on me. but if it will help... go for it.
erkin_berbert did you not read the above statement
mini_durst: Ok, dear god people.........
indi_warrior: we're all about closure here. LOL
erkin_berbert and 5-10 for felonious assult
erkin_berbert oh ok
erkin_berbert sure
mini_durst: Rick, like you'd NOT like prison
erkin_berbert dude I would be a god there
lannachi: uh, whatever
indi_warrior: a bit full of themselves now, yes?
indi_warrior: hi lars.
erkin_berbert I have been locked up before
erkin_berbert I know what it is like
indi_warrior: ok.
lannachi: hiya
erkin_berbert friggin web page why wont you werk right!!!
lannachi: it's the Lars show, staring ME, I'm Lars!
indi_warrior: Well, guys, FUN FUN FUN though this has been, i'm out.
erkin_berbert I'll see you monday then
lannachi: have fun with dad
mini_durst: unless Bai can come back leveled up with an eyepatch.
indi_warrior: bye.
erkin_berbert bye
lannachi: byebye!
indi_warrior: bai.
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erkin_berbert dude I am all ready to have Bai come back
lannachi: cool
mini_durst: Oh, and Psi. lol
mini_durst: I'm all over this months Dragon. Made me wanna come back to the table again.
lannachi: dude, lanna's gone now, lets make fun of her funky Mandark love
erkin_berbert LOL
erkin_berbert no that has to be with her there to watch her say stop it
lannachi: heehee
erkin_berbert hey I got that weight bench finally
erkin_berbert and am bulking up
erkin_berbert LOL
lannachi: uh
erkin_berbert like I need to be any bigger
mini_durst: cool.
lannachi: you already have a weight bench
erkin_berbert that was to Robb
mini_durst: well, I'
mini_durst: m
mini_durst: gonna
mini_durst: sign
erkin_berbert k
mini_durst: off
mini_durst: here
erkin_berbert later
mini_durst: and
mini_durst: do something else.
lannachi: byebe
erkin_berbert is this lars
lannachi:
mini_durst: but I hope this at least helped everyone else.
lannachi: lars is here
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erkin_berbert Well I think we are where we always were
lannachi: pretty much