Loving what you cannot see
Is the hardest at best
No matter how i yearn
I cannot see her lest
A chance comes to peruse
A mind wrapped in infatuation
A mind that can dream
And lives on imagination
Of one who is so far away
One who is missed every day
One that can occupy my mind
In every way
Love weaved into every word
Hearts poured in every sigh
Thoughts from another world
I fear my heart may fall from ahigh
I cant help the insecurity
I cant help the fear
Will she think of me
If another is near
I wish i could follow my heart
Instead of my mind
I'm afraid of what i might lose
Love what i may find
If i follow my heart
Will it be in vain
Will i be setting myself up
For unknown pain
I cannot change the way things are
I may be able to change the way they will be
Am i pursuing my dream
Or simply barking up the wrong tree
I sit deep in thought
Thinking of what life has brought
Wondering what is to come
Trapped by what i have wrought
I fear i must make a confession
Sometimes i feel the greatest depression
In the pit of my heart
A weight in my stomach
It seems to want to leave
But never seems to go away
I fear that if i do not find the problem
My problems are here to stay
No matter how hard i pull together
Life only falls apart
I must say its tearing me down
Its breaking my heart
I do nothing right
Except to cause a fight
I end up a misfit
Smartass and dumbshit
I am the best i can
I am the worst i know
Cannot speak
For I can only show
My true intentions
And feelings are good
But i fear
They are misunderstood
Good comes to those who wait
How long till i know my fate
Good things happen to good people
Why does this logic seem so feeble
Life cannot live on good alone
Give them wait
They will not notice
It is hard to give up all i've known
Am i chasing
The slightest of dreams
For what i am only facing
Is harder than it seems
My drive is gone
My morale absent
For all that was done before
Is apparently translucent
To think perhaps a thought
Of life and love and passion
To think that perhaps i've fought
Against my own compassion
Of love and life and reason
I feel I am blessed
But it is my own life i fear
That i have second guessed
To think perhaps and know
The reason i am being
To think perhaps and know
The reason i dream of fleeing
To dream what is to come
Is to think magnificently
To think as to what can be done
Is to think unequivocally
The chance that one may change his life
Is greater than he may know
The power to make this change
Is one that he must show
To be lost, perhaps in ones own mind
Is to be lost where is truly blind
To be lost, and follow a lark
Is to follow a path deep into the dark
For it seems love has built and grown
But its want is still unknown
Torment the mind with the slightest change
Build life then set deranged
Take from life and build a castle
Built with strength, now enduring
Will it hold against lifes compassion
Or will it fall to traps set luring
Innocence in the open hands
Work for life and love they seek
Rough and callous now they seem
For with them their scars they keep
Hands of the mind they keep their past
Known for the life they have led
Trapped in a love for posperity
Failure and dissapointment cause the dread
Lie in the grass of the field of thought
Stare at the clouds of imagination
Contemplate what life has brought
Lose all fear and orientation