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As I walk down the sidewalk
I wonder to myself
What will I do now

So I walk down my street
Staring at my feet
Wondering what will I do

Others seem so perfect
Lives are known
Wish I knew my own

They seem to know
Just who they are
But I seem so far

I spend my days
Searching for me
But get lost in a haze

Lives are planned out
All I know are determined
And know what to do

I walk around
Bide my time
Wondering
When will I be found

I lose myself
I change myself
To what I know

How will I know
When I know who I am
When I know what to do

If my mind should change
Do I keep on going
Or do I stop the rowing

Will I waste my time
In another wasted line
Only to jump out early

Will I find my niche
Will I find my place
Or will I be merely common place

Am I to be important
Or just in the shadows
Living my life out
Content in the shallows

Will I make a difference
Will I cause some change
Or will I merely
Be pocket change

In someones wallet
For them to spend
Not caring
My life to bend

Will I control my life
Will I cause my fate
Or will that be the thing I hate

I see what I’ve done
I see what I’ve blown
I just hope
My life I own

I know I can build
A life I love
But will I know
Which way to go

Will I take years
Or will I start tomorrow
I guess this
Only time will show

I fear wasted time
I fear a wasted life
I know not how to change my life

I drive down the road
I have no destination
Looking at those
At the railroad station

They have much to do
They have places to go
But where I turn next
I do not know

They lead their lives
What is it like in their shoes
Do they fear like me
That they too may loose

I used to walk to class
Dragging my ass
Because I didn’t want to go

Where is my motivation
Gone because I was hatin
All it was I did

So I take a break
So I try to relax
Separate the lies from facts

I always think I have an answer
But then I think whats wrong?
What will happen next?

I tend to lose my sleep at night
So my eyes burn in the light
I still cant eat

I try to simplify my life
Only to make it harder
Because I cant decide

There are these others
Always content
Never worried
What may happen

I fear my future
I try to hide it
But now I must confide it
I know not what to make
But I fear it will break
For I can seem to do no right
They all say I’m doing well
They only see
And hear what I tell

Its what they don’t know
That pulls me back
Did I make the wrong choice
Am I even brave enough to go back

Good things come to good people
Then why is it that no matter where I turn
I almost seem feeble

My mind stumbles
Moral crumbles
When is it I will crash

My words get so depressing
I am confessing
I cannot control my fear

I keep on running
I keep on sliding
Falling down and hiding

My soul is afire
My mind is so cluttered
My heart almost burns

I feel I am so estranged
Seeming lost and deranged
Away from the best in life

Why cant I notice
What goes on around me
I ignore all to be free

So I must confess
I am doing my best
Only to find my self stuck

In my own mire
Of truth vs. desire
Trying only to climb out

I wish I was content
But my mind seems bent
Away from what I want

So I walk the sidewalk
I drive the road
Wander my street
Staring at my feet