On March 18, 2003, at approximately 8:35 P.M, a dear friend of the band's died in her house. Samantha Robyn Parker was born February 26th, 1985 and died March 18, 2003, less than a month after her 18th birthday.
She left behind her two younger sisters, Stacey and Karlie, six step-brother, Abelan, Burke, Craig, David, Eddie, and Frank, her mother and father, Melodie Kizza and Alan Parker, and her step-father and step-mother, Jase Kizza and Claire Parker. ******************************************************************************************** Here on some views from people closely related to Sam and from the group. ******************************************************************************************** We will all miss Samantha dearly, her lost life as such a young age will forever be mourned but her life will forever be celebrated. - Tabitha Jordan I think one of the main reasons Samantha is gone is because she didn't think she was loved, but she was so wrong. She was loved by so many people. I will never forget what my brother told me when I told him what had happened. He said, "I always liked her, but look, you can sympathize with her for the rest of your life wondering what drove her over the edge and knowing you’ll never become like her, but slowly you will. Samantha had more than we did, obviously financially but also emotionally. She had two sets of families who adored the hell out of her, not counting the ones that weren’t even family. Don’t you understand? If a girl who has it all can lose it, her life can push her over the edge than the stats for us are a hell of a lot worse. Stay strong, Lizzie. Be strong." - Elizabeth Holly This year has been a hard year emotionally because I lost someone very close to me, she committed suicide because she felt all was lost. My friends and I were all mad at her because of a huge mistake she made and she lost her only love because of it. I guess she just couldn’t handle it so she decided to take her life. It was the worst moment of my life. I was performing in Chicago when I was called with the news. I immediatly abandoned the tour and flew out to Florida where I sat in that cold hospital watching the rest of my friends battle with the news that our friend had tried to take her life. We all sat down and agreed that no matter what we'd be there for each other. I can still remember when the doctor came out and told us that she was gone. Our entire worlds fell apart within seconds, it took a few words and our lives were changed forever. It was earth-shattering. She was gone forever and she was never coming back, ever. This was permanenant. We carried the guilt around for months, knowing, believing that it was partially our fault, because we were mad at her. In the end, yes, our being mad at her had driven her over the edge, but after a lot of soul searching, I realized that Samantha probably would have done something much worse if she had had more time, if it had not been that particular time. It is never your fault. I will enclose the diary entry we found at the bottom of this page. If you have ever felt like there is no help for your situation, you're wrong. There is help, and if you think no one else will listen, you can call us anytime and we will talk to you. We don't care what time of night it is or how early in the morning, if you need help call someone, call us, just don't do it. It's not worth it, it never is and you're never the only one who is effected. We couldn't save Samantha, we had no idea, but we'd like to try and help and make sure this never happens again. Please, get help. Here's a little philosophy: Bad news seems to come to those who are often strong enough to endure it. - Katherine Lewis ******************************************************************************************** I never really knew Samantha, but knowing the effect she had on so many of my friends lives, it touches me personally. It still hurts, months later, to watch my friends when the name Samantha is used or Sam or Sammy or to talk about anything related to her. It's painful to watch everyone's world turned upside down in such a short time span. It took five minutes to destroy over 100 people's lives forever. I know that her little sister has horrific dreams of finding her sister on the bathroom floor and she has to take sleeping pills for them, her step father has insomnia and her ex-boyfriend, Josh Woods, oh, he has it worse. He broke up with her a couple day beforehand because of a huge mistake she made and all of Sam's friends were mad at her because she hurt Josh. They were all mad at her and she couldn't take it and now she's gone because they couldn't talk it out. - Never go to bed with worries. No matter what time it is, make a pact with your friends, if you got something to get off your chest, don't wait 'til the morning. You never know if you'll get that chance. Katherine was going to call Samantha after her concert to talk it out with Samantha, but she never got the chance. No Regrets. Don't ever forget that. Sabrina Cyler ******************************************************************************************** When I met Sammy it was like a breath of fresh air, she was the richest girl in the world and the least stuck up. I live in Hollywood where most everybody forgot who they are or aren't sure who they are anymore or are trying to become someone else. Samantha will always be treasured in my heart as the friend I never really got to know, as account of us living on opposite ends of the country, but she left a big impression on my heart forever. Sammy, I love you and I miss you and you will never be forgotten. - Crystal Duncan ******************************************************************************************** We think basically Katherine's poem speaks best for what we need to say and our thank you's go out to Hanson for singing, "With You In Your Dreams", at her funeral. A Tribute to an Angel She came to us one day on a big bird She swooped down and carried us away into loving obliviation She loved us, trusted us, cared for us Never seeking to harm us, but to comfort and love us She taught us to love again One day she was caught up in a violent storm A storm she couldn’t seem to escape She did not see the beacon of hope on the other side of that rocky edge She crashed into it and was taken away from us as instantly as she had come Her death has rocked our entire world This tragedy has enveloped us into a dark gray world But somewhere Somewhere We can softly hear her calling out to us Don’t be afraid I am safe now I am where I will be loved forever Don’t cry for me, I still love you I’m still here Forever Always In Your Hearts I’m here Forever Always In your Hearts Forever Always - Woods I never really got to know Samantha but I know she must have been a really beautiful person for her death to be mourned as much as it was. I would like to take a quick thanks to all the Hanson, Woods, and PS² fans for holding that candlelight vigil at all the concerts for Samantha it meant a lot to the three groups immensely and we will be forever greatful. Thank you and we love you. - April Smith ******************************************************************************************** Most of us hardly knew Sam, but she left such an impact on our lives, she was always filled with laughter and warmth, and she always had a joke handy. She was very happy and loving and though we hardly knew her she touched the lives of so many people that treating her death as anything but a mournful celebration of a lost life would be sacreligious. Thank you to the fans for the vigils at the concerts and for Hanson for singing at the funeral. - Amber Harte, Carmen Scott, Zoe Dawes, Robin Kane, Vanessa Reed, and Alexia Hansen. ******************************************************************************************** Even though at first I was reluctant to go to Samantha's funeral because I couldn't face another death of someone so close to me. I lost my father in the 2001 attacks on the World Trade Center, he was killed instantly when the plane crashed into his office window. I remember listening to my father right before the plane hit, hearing him die was the worst thing to ever happen to me. I never wanted to go and see Sammy in a casket, but I went to show a united front with the Crystal, Liz and Kat. Watching my friends suffer has been enough to waken me from the slump I have and continue to go through. I will forever miss the Samantha I once knew, the Samantha I knew that would make us hot chocolate and then stay up to all hours of the night with Kat and I just talking about everything. I remember the Samantha who used to revel in the idea of a brand new life, who used to ride horses and laugh at spring and frown at winter, who used to build snowmen until it got too cold and then she would sit in the pool with the Woods siblings and watch over them, making sure they were always safe and comfortable first before relaxing. That is the Samantha I will miss. The loss of innocence will always be mourned, for innocence is what gives this world hope and dreams and aspirations. - Karol Blume ******************************************************************************************** March 18, 2003 Dear Diary 8:30 PM If being a teenager is supposed to be the best time of your life, why do I feel like ending it all? No one would notice. No one would care. My only love is now my only hate, my friends hate me for what I’ve done, my parents don’t understand, there is no shoulder to lean on or an ear to listen to me and no one wants to hear it. The only person who cares about me sleeps next door, but is a million miles away. So why not? Why not just end it all? No one would notice. They’d probably all laugh, shake their heads and say I’m pathetic, call me weak. Who cares? No one would miss me. Why should I care I’ll be gone by morning? Samantha **************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************** Hanson "With You In Your Dreams" CHORUS: If I'm gone when you wake up please don't cry** And if I'm gone when you wake up it's not goodbye** Don't look back at this time as a time of heartbreak and distress** Remember me, remember me, 'cause I'll be with you in your dreams I'll be with you. If I'm gone when you wake up please don't cry *** And if I'm gone when you wake up, don't ask why*** Don't look back at this time as a time of heartbreak and distress remember me, remember me, 'cause I'll be with you in your dreams ** Don't cry I'm with you, don't cry I'm by your side, don't cry I'm with you, don't cry I'm by your side*** And though my flesh is gone, I'll still be with you at all times **** And though my body is gone, I'll be there to comfort you at all times REPEAT CHORUS I don't want you to cry and weep **** I want you to go on living your life **** I'm not sleeping an endless sleep**** Cause in your heart you all have good times **** I'll be with you in your dreams ********************************************************************************************Go To
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