you are the one that stood me up for the second night in a row. you are the one that paged me two and a half hours after you said that you would. you are the one that left this message:
hey, its me, im just now on my way home....im on my dad's cell phone....and i dont know the number or i would get you to call me back at this number, but i dont know it....um, im on my way home, and i've got chase, so im just going to go ahead and go to bed, i will give you a call sometime tomorrow, okay? bye
but im going to tell you something that might shock you. it didnt really bother me that you didnt call. i spent the night talking with someone who wanted to talk to me. someone who listens, and someone who knows what i am going through. someone who is far better for me than you can ever be. someone who doesnt just want me when it is convenient for them. someone who i barely know, but cant wait to learn more about...
i talked with my soul mate again tonight. well, it is still undetermined if she is my soul mate or not, but she is definitely one of the most awesome people that i have ever met. its kind of weird for me to be writing this, knowing that she is going to read it. i dont think that i have ever met anyone who i have had more things in common with. its kind of scary actually. im trying not to sit here and contemplate what i am going to write and make it perfect. im trying to just go with what i am feeling and be honest with myself and her. i told her about my fascination for her. i mean, i spent the better part of wednesday and thursday at work reading over her journal archives. i read ever single one of them. i feel almost like i have grown up with her. i feel like i know her. she is so interesting. i just adore her. i dont really know what it is about her. and thats just it, is that its not just *one* thing about her....its everything about her. fascinating. thats the one word that i would use to describe her so far. fascinating. well that and honest. she doesnt think that she is very honest, but i do. she's even honest about not being honest. fascinating...
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