so i didnt actually get to meet her.
brandy and i finally went out last night. pf changs. very nice restaurant. great food. learned to use chopsticks. brandy wimped out and didnt use hers. the waitress absolutely loved her job. i ate a little too much of this really hot sauce at right about the same time that my water glass ran empty. i hate that. i dont know if you were supposed to keep your chopsticks or not, but i did. actually, i put them in brandy's purse and i am guessing that they are still there. then we went walking around the summit. almost everything was closed. i was disappointed because victoria's secret was closed. cocunuts was still open. brandy bought jude and vertical horizon. i didnt buy anything. wait, what? yep, thats right boys and girls, chad can go into a cd store and not buy any cd's. its truly amazing isnt it? i know, i know. its hard to believe, but its true. normally, i would tell you to write this down, but that is what i am doing now. then we went into barnes & noble to get some coffee. starbucks sucks. we talked for a while in there, and then i walked her to her car. we talked some more there. this is where she told me that she and her boyfriend were trying to get back together again, but they were taking things slow. then, i hugged her and left.
i know that this entry doesnt have a lot of emotion in it. to be honest with you, i didnt feel a lot of emotion yesterday. i was just sort of out of it. the whole night felt like i was on the outside looking in. i am afraid that if i didnt write this down, that i would have forgotten it within a week or two. thats really sad. it wasnt anything against her, it was me. i just wasnt there. i wonder if she could sense that in me. even when she told me the whole boyfriend thing, it didnt phase me. i dont know what it was. maybe it was the fact that i knew from the beginning that we could never be serious. maybe it just wasnt my night. who knows?
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footnote:
brandy's boyfriend happens to be somebody i know, matthew. i went to school and played ball with his little brother, john john. it really is a small world.