email

'i still love you.'

love, jamie wrote me an email today, and thats what it said. i had no idea what to say or do about it.

i chose not to answer right away with my initial reaction. had i done so, i probably would have said some things that would have hurt her.

she just doesnt understand that its not about her. and its not about me. its about me submitting to God's will for my life. its about what He wants for me.

i eventually did write back though. i told her that she needed to go buy When God Writes Your Love Story by Eric and Leslie Ludy. that book changed my life.

im sure that she thinks that i am cold and insensitive now. and she's probably right.

no matter what the consequences though, im going to follow God's will, especially in this area of my life. i spent so many years running from God, and im going to spend the rest of them running towards Him.

if i loose friends or an ex-girlfriend or whatever else in the process, it was worth it. when someone decides to follow God fully, they will gain much more than they give up. my reward comes in knowing that i am pleasing God.

love, wherever you are in your life, wherever you are in your spiritual walk, and whatever situation you are going through, i just hope that you know that God is in control. and know that i am praying for you.

the more i commit to this decision to allow God to write my love story, the more criticism i get from all around. even my Christian friends are telling me that im crazy.

if no one else in the world appreciates or understands this, i know that you will.

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