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love, i cant stop wondering where you are. i catch myself wondering what you are doing at various moments throughout the day. life seems really hectic right now. i wonder if you are struggling to balance everything as well. i want to tell you about the thing that brings the most joy to my heart right now, and thats the youth group. i cant even describe how exciting it is. my only wish is that you were here with me, sharing in this joy. i never would have thought that i was ready to do this. and by myself i am not. but im clinging to the promise that i can do all things through Christ. to be used by God to do His will is beyond words. it is still very weird to me to think that something that i say actually touches people and means something to people. its just little ol' me. i know that if God can use someone as small as me, then He can use anyone. love, these kids, they come from such messed up homes. all that they are really looking for is a little bit of love and attention. i try my hardest to show them love, and im trying even harder to show them the love of Christ. i only hope that i am doing a good job. let me describe them to you: g - g is probably the next most regular attender. he also comes from a broken home where both of his parents are remarried. he basically spends most of his time at the house of this childless couple in the church. when the husband of that couple has to work on sundays or wednesdays, g doesnt come to church. he is very extroverted and asks lots of questions. he also answers all of my questions during a lesson. when he's around, bl usually talks a little more too. he's 15 and has huge feet.
n - n was the first girl that i met in the group. again, she comes from a broken home. both of her parents live in town and she spends half of her time at each location. when she's at her moms, she spends a lot of time at mr. l's house. mr. and mrs. l show her the love that she needs. she has the potential to get herself in trouble at a very young age. she's only 13 and looks more like a woman than most 19 year olds. she's very extroverted and extremely hyper, and she also has a great laugh. the group always has a lot lighter feel when she is around. she wears a size 7.
br - br is n's best friend. surprisingly, she doesnt come from a broken home. they are just really poor. br and n used to live down the street from each other, but br moved recently. i've never seen her without n in the same room, but i have a feeling that she would be very quiet and shy without her around. when together though, its a different story. the extrovert in br comes out when she is around n, though she's not nearly as hyper or active. i get the sense that she is extremely intelligent. she's 13 and she wears a size 7.
j - j is br's brother. i've only met him once. he used to be fairly active in the group and he promised me that he is going to start back. j likes to talk and likes to be the center of attention. i think j could be a leader in the group if he would come more. thats really about it right now. there are a few other prospects there though. if i could, i would ask you to pray for me. pray that i will never say anything that comes from myself, but that everything comes from God. pray that i will be exactly to these kids what they need and exactly to God what he wants me to be. love, know that i am praying for you. im praying that God will give you the strength to carry on, and that you will not become discouraged in waiting on Him to bring us together. and somehow i know that you are praying for me as well. |
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