i found one of the most interesting journals that i have ever read the other day. the concept is quite a novel idea.
check it out. and if i die
anyway.
sometimes plans backfire.
this not talking and not writing each other thing is working exactly the opposite of how she wanted it to. well, how i imagine that she wanted it to anyway.
i imagine that it was supposed to make me miss her and realize that i cant live without her and that if i had to commit myself to her to see her, then so be it. but...
i am feeling this great sense of freedom and lack of obligation. there is no urgent feeling to rush home from school to call her. there is no longer the anticipation of the next email that i will get from her. and to be honest with you, its been a huge relief.
the effect on her has been the exact opposite. she has emailed me once each day for the last two days. yesterday, she sent me a forward. it was actually a fairly decent story about doing God's will without complaint.
i am guessing that she expected me to reply. i didnt.
today she sent me this:

again, im guessing that i was supposed to reply. and again i didnt.
she told me to call her when i was ready for a serious relationship. well, let me check my biological clock...nope, still not ready.
on a side note, i played paintball for the first time on monday night and im hooked. im going to take the youth group soon.