here and gone

i cant believe that its the last day of june.

time really does fly when you are having fun.

anyway.

ive been feeling like quite the recluse these days. i feel myself withdrawing from everyone, including my family.

when im at home, im usually in my room, alone.

at a time when i need to depend on people the most, i am removing myself from them. and i dont have a logical explanation as to why either.

thats probably one of the reasons that jamie and i are having problems.

btw, i am not allowed to call her or write her again until i am ready to have a serious relationship.

whatever.

i just dont want to be around people and i dont want to feel obligated to anyone. i just want to be me and do my own thing.

i think i have built up some sort of psychological wall to push everyone away.

eh, i'll be alright in a few days.

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