i cant believe that its the last day of june.
time really does fly when you are having fun.
anyway.
ive been feeling like quite the recluse these days. i feel myself withdrawing from everyone, including my family.
when im at home, im usually in my room, alone.
at a time when i need to depend on people the most, i am removing myself from them. and i dont have a logical explanation as to why either.
thats probably one of the reasons that jamie and i are having problems.
btw, i am not allowed to call her or write her again until i am ready to have a serious relationship.
whatever.
i just dont want to be around people and i dont want to feel obligated to anyone. i just want to be me and do my own thing.
i think i have built up some sort of psychological wall to push everyone away.
eh, i'll be alright in a few days.