warning: whining ahead

hi.

its like the second week of school and i am already skipping a class tonight.

im such a bad business student.

its just that its the first time that the man has ever taught a class. and well, he doesnt really teach, he just reads straight out of the book.

'tis sad really. i am paying well over $300 to be read to.

so, chad, how you been buddy? havent seen you in a while.

eh, i've been better. hasnt exactly been a good week for me.

actually, it started with the weekend. i had hardly any kind of spiritual fulfillment this weekend whatsoever.

kayla is still recovering from her surgery, and kind of not able to walk. makes it hard to go on dates without that ability. nicole was on a youth retreat with her church. which is a good thing for her, but a bad thing for me. and vance already had plans for the whole weekend.

so i was pretty much stuck, kickin' it alone for the weekend.

yeah, that was a desperate plea for pity. please, pity me.

anyway, if you read the last entry, then you know that i went to kindred on friday night. alone.

i basically spent most of the night listening to a lot of the demo cd's that they have that you can listen to. i was in there for almost four hours and i didnt find one cd that i really liked.

sad, isnt it?

i didnt really have anything to do on saturday night either, after spending the majority of the day cutting grass and cleaning up the house. most of the people in the bible study were out of town for spring break, so i wasnt sure that we were going to have it. there was also a show at the crush, but i didnt really want to go because it was a punk show. and im not really into punk music that much.

so, i called kayla and told her to make the decision for me. she said that i should call and see if we were having bible study, and if not, then i should go to the show.

i called jessie, from fire by night and bible study, to see what she was doing. she told me that she was going to the crush show. so i went basically for the company and having someone to talk to.

in hindsight, i should have stayed home and talked to kayla on the phone.

was it that bad of a show chad?

yeah, it really was.

first off, the show was more than an hour late in getting started. when i got there, candice and jessie were standing by her car, talking to three of the guys in the band, lite, that jessie manages.

which was cool, but chad got little to no attention the whole night. which was what he desperately needed, even if it was going to come from people four years younger than him.

the first band, side walk slam, was pretty good. they reminded me a lot of mxpx. they have a cd coming out soon, and i will probably pick it up.

the headlining band, blaster the rocketboy, flat out sucked. they were like these really lame british punkers who were just stupid.

anyway, jessie and candice and the guys left after the first song. and i left right after they did.

it sucked. i was disappointed. and i almost wanted my $6 and two cans of food back.

on my way home, i stopped at blockbuster and rented the thirteenth warrior. very cool movie. everybody should check it out.

sunday was a little better, but not much. i watched most of pastor steve's sermon on t.v. before i went to church. it was about encouragement, which is what i needed.

then, at church, guess what andy preached on. go on guess. guess! hey, how'd you know it was encouragement? were you there?

anyway, yeah, they were both good, but i just wasnt very receptive to hear them at the time.

so the rest of the week has been pretty much synonymous with the weekend. i've hardly read my bible at all this week, and i havent written in my prayer journal once.

not only am i a bad business student, im also a bad biblical student. im such a terrible wretch.

i know, its my attitude that is keeping me down. and i know, that i am the only one that can change it. and i know that its Satan working in my life, keeping me from growing spiritually.

and yet, i just sit here with the week almost over, feeling sorry for myself. i go through this though. i will be high one week, and then low the next. i get down and start feeling all depressed and junk until i finally get sick of myself and snap out of it.

hey, i know that you are concerned about me, coughcoughyeah,rightcoughcoughcough, but dont be alarmed. i will survive.

and more importantly than that, i rejoice in my sufferings.

hey, im just curious. is there anybody that reads this that i dont know about? the initials of the people that i know that read this are VA, SC, KM, MM, and KW.

if you read this entry, and none of those are your initials, then click here and email me.

im not at all concerned with how many hits i get or anything like that. im just curious to see if anyone else reads this. so, humor me will you? thanks.

now back to your regularly scheduled programming.

and i promise that in the next entry, i will back to my usual, jovial self. well, i'll try anyway.

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