as peter entered the house, cornelius met him and fell at his feet in reverence. but peter made him get up. "stand up," he said, "i am only a man myself."
- Acts 10:25-26
man, peter was an awesome guy.
i think i want to do some more studying on him.
i read that friday morning in my quiet time.
i found this when i got to work that day:
do not merely listen to the word, and so deceive yourselves. do what it says. anyone who listens to the word but does not do what it says is like a man who looks at his face in a mirror and, after looking at himself, goes away and immediately forgets what he looks like. but the man who looks intently into the perfect law that gives freedom, and continues to do this, not forgetting what he has heard, but doing it--he will be blessed in what he does.
- James 2:22-25
whoa!
i love scripture like that.
when i was a kid, i would forget what i looked like. i would sit there and think really hard and try to remember what i looked like.
it would drive me nuts. i remember one time asking my older brother if it ever happened to him. he looked at me like i had fallen off my marble. dont think that's how the phrase goes, but anyway.
it would literally drive me crazy until i could get to a mirror.
anyway its late tuesday night, and this is my entry about my weekend.
let me give you a little timeline of my life.
feb. 1, 1979 birth - grew up in church, but never accepted Jesus as my savior, went to a revival the summer of my 8th grade year and got saved, felt God calling me into full time ministry that same summer, i accepted it and became on fire for God, things were really cool for a while, but something happened and i became a lukewarm christian....flash forward to about a month ago at the skillet show and something happened again, the fire came back....ever since, i've been on a spiritual high and i love it. im closer to God than i have ever been, and i draw closer every day.
man, God just flat out rocks, and i cant say that enough.
okay, i got home from work on friday and called kayla to make sure that she was going to crush show. she said that she wasnt because she didnt have any money. so i told her that i would pay for it. she wasnt going for that one, but she agreed to go anyway.
on the way to the show, the tornado alarms started going off. it was a bit scary, but i said a little prayer and things were cool.
i had been at the show a few minutes when kayla and candice and jessie got there. i got them to help me pick out a pax 217 hat that i wanted to buy. its yellow, and it rocks.
i really didnt like the first band at all. i think they were called 7-10 split or something like that. anyway, they were dorks and not very talented.
i just couldnt wait for pax to get on stage. and they totally rocked the place out when they did. they were just awesome. the lead singer told this story about how when his little brother was born he wasnt supposed to live and if he did he was supposed to be severely disabled. well, they prayed about it and we all know that God still works miracles. well, now he is the drummer for the band. he's only a sophomore in high school, so he couldnt go on tour with them. they have a fill-in guy that goes on tour with them. i was more impressed with the live show than i was with what i had heard off the record.
both plankeye and bleach were really good. the lead singer of bleach did a long devotional about dealing with stuff and how God is always in control. i love it when bands do that. we talked with the bleach guys for a little while after the show. they are really down to earth, kinda remind of the guys in train, only even more so. we talked with one of the guys about farming, and the leader singer made it a point to remember all of our names. it was cool.
kayla and i flirted and stuff throughout the whole show. even though she is two years younger than me, which makes her vance's age, she is still really cool. we have a lot of stuff in common, and i find it really easy to talk to her. sucks that she lives two hours away and i only get to see her on the weekends, and thats only if she comes home that weekend.
again, i have this uncanny ability to attract women that live a long way from here. ah, woe is me.
anyway, the condition of her coming to the crush show on friday was that i would go with her on saturday to that praise concert. hey no problem, as long as im getting to spend time with her, i would do just about anything.
saturday i went to kindred again and spent $35. oh how that place is addictive. i bought the pax cd and a magazine with them in it and another praise cd.
i was supposed to meet her at 5:00 at burger king, but i got there early. can you believe it? i got somewhere early. i know its hard to believe, but its true. i read the magazine for a little while until she showed up. my windows were down and she parked next to me on the passenger's side and she talked to me while she got out of her car and into my truck. we talked for a few minutes before the other two people that were going showed up. after they ate and talked about sororities and fraternies, of which i know nothing about, we all piled into kayla's car and headed on our way. kayla invited me to sit in the front seat with her and of course i accepted.
when we got to the church, i noticed that the marquee said that it was a youth revival. i thought that it was just going to be a praise concert, but hey i was there with kayla, so what difference did it make. she introduced me to her friend that was the lead singer of the band. the youth pastor at the church started the whole thing off by talking about why the were having the revival. then he asked the question, 'why did you come here tonight?'. well, hello i just came because kayla was going to be there. i hadnt even considered the fact that God put me there for a reason. i hadnt even given thought to the idea that i would be worshipping God that night. stupid, stupid chad.
rebecca's band was really good, and she has an incredible voice. i was truly impressed and touched by the songs. the second band, his image band, really touched me as well. i really did a lot of worshipping that night.
we had to leave early because the two people that we were there with were going to drive back to florence that night. after we got back to burger king and they left, kayla and i sat in her car and talked for a little while. i told her about how much of a blessing that she had been in my life in the very short amount of time that i had known her. see, most of my friends are in the 15-18 range. not that there is anything wrong with being that age, i just need someone a little older to talk to sometimes. and i also dont have a lot of friends, except nicole, that are on fire for God like she is. see, when the majority of your conversations have something to do with God, its really easy to build a relationship. i think that if she lived in birmingham, there would definitely be so major potential there, and there still may be anyway.
who knows? kayla is awesome and i would love to be in a relationship with her, but im not even worrying about that part of my life right now. sure, i miss being involved. i really miss all the little things that go along with being involved with someone, but God fills that gap. i think that when i am in a relationship with someone, it gets in the way of my walk with God. but then again, i've never been in a relationship with God at the heart of it. im going around in circles here, and getting nothing accomplished.
anyway, she's not coming home this weekend, but thats okay because i am going to see jars of clay on friday and then bible study on saturday. not that i wouldnt love to see her again, i just already have plans. and i really hope that she comes home next weekend.
sunday i went to church and brother gary continued with his sermon series on sin. drama practice started off a bit rocky, then we prayed and things were cool. its amazing how that works. we started a new study series at church that night. we are doing a study on how to be a leader by first becoming a servant like Jesus did. im really looking forward to it and i think its exactly what i need right now. or part of what i need anyway.
i will write about the fist part of my week tomorrow. nicole's church is having revival this week, so i've been there for the last two nights. wait, i said that i would write about this tomorrow.
one final thing before i go. im going to marry nicole one day, you just watch and see.