every dog has its day
what would you say - dave matthews band
every day has its way of being forgotten
mom its my birthday
would you say
some of the people that i work with are so pretentious that it isnt even funny.
yes, we all know that you are rich. we all know that you're parents have given you everything that you have ever received in your life. we all really dont care.
do you really *have* to talk on your cell phone on your walk out to your $50,000 sport utility vehicle. a sport utility vehicle that is equipped with four wheel drive capabality even though it will never, ever be used. a sport utility vehicle that is also equipped with gold trim. a sport utility vehicle that your husband decided to buy you on a whim.
okay, im off the soapbox now.
anyway.
so yeah, its my birthday. im 21. go me or something.
i thought my dad had forgot that it was my birthday and wasnt going to be in town, but he was here today after all.
my older brother did forget. he thought it was tomorrow. i played it off like it was no big deal, but it is. i mean, its my 21st birthday, and thats a pretty big thing. and its been on the first for the first 20 years of my life, and he has never forgotten it yet.
he keeps IM'ing me right now and is trying to suck up to me. i dont want him to suck up. i wanted him to be here. that's all.
anyway.
believe it or not, i had a good birthday. everyone was really nice to me at work and everything. got all kinds of cool presents. and unlike christmas, i mainly got things that i asked for. vance got me the incubus cd that i have been wanting. mandy got me the blair witch project like i had mentioned to her that i wanted. pam and lisa both got me some nice shirts, like i had asked for. oh, and my dad bought me a banjo. a new instrument to learn how to play. fun.
i guess the lyrics at the top should have gone along with yesterdays entry, but i will mention it again.
vance told me that he thought about me and yesterdays entry today when he heard that song on the radio. i guess that pretty much describes my feelings on the situation with my mom. and vance's too.
he told me that about four years ago on his birthday, i got him that cd. and that dad had gone hunting on that day, and didnt get home until 11:00 that night. so, he spent the night listening to that song over and over again.
i had no idea.
funny how music has a way of fitting into a situation like that. like that kid rock song only God knows why. i first heard that song right after i found out that i was going to loose my job. i was feeling rather depressed and that song seemed to fit at the time. it really meant a lot to me. i *had* to have that cd because of that song. so, i bought the cd. since then, i have gotten over that minor depression and so the song doesnt have nearly as much meaning to me as it once did.
anyway.
i sent mandy on a mission tonight. i made her my informant. i instructed her to talk to jennifer tonight at dance, since i wasnt going to be there because it was my birthday. i told her to find out what had been going on lately and to find out if she was still interested.
i called her and she said that she only got to talk to her briefly, but that she was still interested, she had just been extremely busy lately. mandy asked her when she normally gets home, and jennifer told her late.
so, i called her at 10:30. guess what. i actually got to talk to her. yep. i know its hard to believe, but its true. we talked for a few minutes anyway. she was telling me about how she is stressing out because of dance and her aunt still being in the hospital. it was a good conversation. she told me to call her back tomorrow. i asked if it would be easier for her to page me whenever she did get home. she said yes, so we agreed on that one. if she doesnt page me by 10:30 im going to call her anyway.
it was really good to get to talk to her again. i know that i dont really know her, but i miss her. i just have the feeling that given the right circumstances, this could develop into something serious. we shall take things one step at a time and see. its hard to even really consider a relationship when you hardly get to talk to each other.
and yes, she does still seem interested. so, i am going to make a better effort at trying to get in touch with her, and maybe she will do the same thing.
so, there are less than thirty minutes left in my birthday. after that, you may return to your regularly scheduled programming.
i, however, am going to bed.
footnote:
thought for the day: ever wonder how different the world would be if hell really did freeze over?
think about all of those loose promises that were made in vain, that would have to be carried out.
just a thought.