welcome back chad.
hey thanks man.
hey chad, next time you decide to take a five day hiatus, then let someone know.
well, i wasnt exactly planning on taking a hiatus.
anyway.
im back. miss me?
so much stuff is happening. where do i begin.
i only got online briefly on saturday morning. and i didnt have anything to post. so i didnt.
then about five i called jennifer and left a message on her machine. she called me back about 30 minutes later from her mothers cell phone.
she told me that she wouldnt be able to go to the pageant because she had to finish helping clean up her aunts house before she got out of the hospital. plus, she wasnt feeling well, and she had to keep her little cousin. she told me that she would call me when she got home and i could come by and see her there.
she never called.
sunday when i called, her aunt said that she was at dance and she didnt know when she would be back. every other time that i called no one answered. i left a message about 5:30 telling her that i would be going out of town on monday and tuesday, but that i would be in town for the rest of the night if she wanted to page me and talk.
she never called.
i went to my older brother's house on sunday night and watched the wwf's royal rumble. it was good except that i saw the naked breasts of an 80+ year old woman. quite disgusting.
hmmmm, i wonder how many times i have heard this phrase:
i have never seen
(insert random child's name here) take to anyone like they have taken to you.
it usually leads into something like this:
hey, do you baby sit? or now i know who to call on whenever i need a baby sitter.
one of my brother's friends was over at his house and they had their little 18-month old girl there.
she was so incredible cute. she had this constant look of confusion on her face. so cute.
of course, we instantly bonded. i was playing with her after the ppv was over. i had been playing with for about 30 minutes and then my older brother called me away from her.
by the time that i got back, she was upset. she thought that i had just left her, and she was almost crying. it was so cute.
have i ever baby sat? no, never even thought about it.
but whenever i am around a kid and we develop an instant bond, like we always do, it initiates those fatherly instincts in me. it makes me think about what kind of father that i will be, when i do have my own kids one day.
i think i will be a good dad. although, i think i may have problems displining my kids. i may leave that up to their mother.
monday and tuesday i went hunting. forgot to take either a notebook or a radio. spent a lot of time thinking while sitting in the woods. i dont remember any of it, because i didnt have anything to write it down on.
oh well.
so, thats my basic weekend run down.
i was waiting to post about saturday until i found out what happened. the problem there is that i still dont really know.
i know that she is having a lot family things going on right now. i dont want to call them problems because i dont know that they are really problems. just things.
she has one aunt that is just getting out of the hospital after having a really bad accident. she's still in a wheel chair and has two young boys. and she has another aunt that just went into the hospital on monday after having contractions. she's very early, and she already has a little 9-year old girl.
its also competition season at dance so she is spending a lot of time every day at the studio.
i spoke to her very briefly tonight. she was having to help her little 9-year old cousin with her homework. then, she had to read to her and put her to bed. what a good cousin she is?
i cant really get upset, because its not like she is just trying to avoid me. she's having to deal with things.
i get the feeling that she is still interested. hopefully i am not wrong.
anyway.
something very terrible happened on the train list tonight. jen unsubbed. probably doesnt mean a lot to anyone but me and a couple of others, but she will definitely be missed.
if it werent for the awesome service we had at church, it would have been a very sad night.
footnote:
started back in customer service today.
it sucks.