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love, look, its me again. i having been thinking about you a lot lately. i spend a large part of my day thinking about you. what will you be like? when will i know you? how long will it be before i get hold you? what will you think of my big, long-haired, glasses-wearing, guitar-slinging, opinionated, sarcastic, mildly attractive paintball warrior self? and the list could go on forever. i long for the day when i come home from work and you are there waiting on me at the top of the stairs. i have this vision of you and i growing old together. and spoiling our grandkids while trying to understand each other through hearing aides and mumbled words. i have dreams about you as well. though, i can never see your face in either my dreams or my visions. that can be a bit irritating. i know that its not time for me to know who you are, but i get overanxious (is that a word?) at times. i went to see 'family man' with nicholas cage this weekend. even though im not a huge nic cage fan, it was actually a pretty good movie. very romantic and funny. the kind of movie that i wish i had seen with you by my side. i think i forgot to mention last time that i took the youth group to gatlinburg, tn the week after christmas. man, was that an experience. my first trip as the responsible one. how scary is that? it was a great conference about missions, and i am now planning on taking the kids on some type of mission trip within the next year. i made another decision that week. i want to get married in the winter time and go to gatlinburg on my honeymoon. on our honeymoon, rather. the mountains are so romantic, especially this time of year. they have all of these really awesome chalets with incredible views. its absolutely breath-taking. plus, the whole atmosphere is ideal. a great chalet where we can wake up to snow covered mountains and drink coffee and talk about the rest of our lives together. and with a view like that, you never have to leave the chalet, if you know what i mean. i always hear about people going to exotic all-inclusive resorts on their honeymoons, where they can play golf or go scuba diving or whatever. yeah, right. love, i really dont plan on ever leaving the chalet. i hope thats alright with you. anyway, the point is that im still waiting for you. i dont know how patiently im waiting, but im still waiting. i love you, and i long for the day when i can tell you that to your face. |
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