she was in her forties, and had been crying. her tears had now turned to anger and yelling.
he was older, and much more calm. what was left of his hair had already gone from grey to almost white.
i wonder how many times they have had this conversation before.
i wonder if they ever loved each other, and if they did, what caused it to turn into hate.
i havent seen a couple fight like that, since my parents were still married. and all those memories suddenly came back to me while i was sitting in the drive through at mcdonalds. as she yelled something to him about not being responsible, my mind drifted back to the days when i had witnessed so many fights much like the one i was watching now.
it was scary actually. i thought i had blocked all those memories out of my mind. for the most part, i had. but, they were still there, lingering in the back of my mind somewhere.
and i wanted more than ever to forget those things. i never want to think about them again. i want to remember the good times, not the bad.
anyway.
i had some interesting conversations last night on AOL, and that is all i am going to say.
i've been thinking a lot about work lately. and about having to go back to customer service. i am keeping a good attitude about it, but that doesnt take away from the fact that it still sucks. i know, as well as everyone else involved, that i am way over-qualified to sit around and answer the phone. not that its a bad job, i am just more qualified than that.
if i am arrogant about *anything*, then its my intelligence. i just cant stand it when i am subordinate to people who arent as intelligent as me. this is why i want to start my own company. i just dont know what kind of business i want to start. i've been spending a lot time thinking about that one though, and we will see what happens.
i also cant stand to not be challenged. thats a big problem with my current position. its not a challenge anymore. i need something new to learn. not go back to something that i have already done. that is going to be even less of a challenge than what i am doing now.
eh, i'll be okay though.
in the brief conversations that i have had with michele lately, she seems pretty serious about quitting her job. if that happens, then i am going to apply for it. she doesnt know this, and i dont see the need to tell her. there is something very ironic about that.
im off to go see jump, little children now. oh, and krissy is going to be there. how cool is that?
footnote:
i wasnt going to put a footnote in here, but i decided to put one about not putting one for a certain someone. that probably doesnt make any sense except to the person that it was designed for.