Michael's Mind

• 10 Dec 1997

  The Ultimate Truth with the Upright Honesty
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  The myth of  honesty has been taught since young,
  that if you are honest, you shall be rewarded ...
          The society is not pratising honesty as a norm,
          therefore the young are taught to be honest,
          with the hope for a better world ...
  Thus long earth is still turning with all the lies flying around,
  why so?
              Realising the ultimate truth is a dangerous thing,
              that you yourself must be strong enough to withhold the truth,
              that thus far only God who made, understand and share it.
              Thus we were created in HIS own image but
              the sin has covered us up till we lost the root ...
              hence very rarely we shall be strong enough to withhold the truth that
              we have been searching all along ....
  Once you are close to the Ultimate Truth,
  and you are honest to your surrondings on what you have felt,
  that you will be discarded for their sins are still stronger,
  that is because your faith is not there yet ....
  not enought to let them feel
      Try it !
      then you shall understand,
      why honesty does not survive mankind history ...
                                                                                                                                    Michael TeMinszg
  

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• 8 Dec 1997: Finally I figured out why my emotion overcome my rational thinking last week. After months of accumulation, my emotion burst out of control last week and cause an unstable performance at work, home and life last week. The reason was the anxiety. My anxiety at home, work and even at time/places other than home/work is NOT compensated in anyway. Most anxieties in the past are addressed at my own leisure time but due to increase responsibilities at non WORK/HOME area that all these anxieties HAVE NOT been taken care of and accumulated until last week. What are the anxieties I could ever have? Well I meant to do good to the whole group at work and split out a lot of suggestions/ideas but the result is disappointing. Some thinks there is a 'muslihat' behind my words, some are offended etc. I meant to help people to understand more on financial products after my own research but then again, the result is I lost a few friends just because they have a pre-fix attitude toward 'salesmen'. There are just some things you CANNOT do at home to advoid upseting people. All these accumulated over months and my own feeling has no where to burst ...
  Understanding this, the realization part has achieved. Then the solution is quite straight forward. The key is the anxiety. So just remove all the anxieties, tell myself, there isn't any anxieties need for all these things ... let's see how it goes