Where You Are
By: Amanda
"Today we gather to
mourn the death of a dedicated husband, friend, and musician. Taken tragically
from this world so soon, we must now find solace in the fact that he is in
heaven. He will forever live on in our hearts and memories. Now his friends
would like to say a few words."
Amanda gazed through a
shield of tears at the cherry wood casket that held her husband and father of
her unborn child. She only half listened to what the Reverend was saying or to
the speech her husband’s best friend was giving. Laying a hand on her round
belly, she let out a quiet sob as the emotions of the day hit her once more.
"There are times /
I swear I know you're here / I forget about my fears /Feelin you my dear "
"………he was my best
friend. He was always there for me when I needed him………..and I promise that I
will keep my word to him about watching out for
Amanda and the baby.
I’ll miss you bro."
Amanda looked up as he
sat down next to her and placed a comforting arm around her shoulders, allowing
her to lean on him as she cried. The rest of the funeral went by as a blur and
the next thing she knew she was at home with his 4 closest friends.
"Do you think she
is okay?" a voice said quietly.
"She lost her
husband and father of her baby, you tell me," another voice replied.
"Yo man, chill out,
I’m just wondering if its normal for her to space out like that."
"Nick?" she
whispered.
"I’m right here
Manda," the second voice said quietly.
"Where’s
Brian?"
"Manda honey, he’s
gone."
"When will he be
back?"
"Hon, he’s not
coming back."
"Why not?" she
sobbed, looking at him with big eyes.
Nick felt his heart
breaking even further as he looked into the lost eyes of his best friends wife.
"Don’t you remember what happened Manda?"
"Where’s Brian? I
want Brian!"
"Amanda, he’s
gone," the other voice told her gently.
"No he’s not,"
she screamed standing up and running towards the stairs totheir bedroom.
"BRIAN!!!! BRIAN
WHERE ARE YOU?"
She ran frantically
through the house throwing open doors and calling his name as the tears
streamed down her face. Finally she came to their room and collapsed on the
floor next to the bed, sobs racking her body.
"Shhh princess,
here I am," a soft voice whispered.
"Brian?" she
asked sitting up.
"I’m right
here," the voice said again.
She turned around and
saw Brian, dressed all in white, standing in the doorway.
"Brian, is it
really you?"
"Hey there Princess,"
he said softly, kneeling next to her, "what’s with all the tears?"
"Nick and AJ, they
keep telling me you are gone. I knew they were wrong. I knew you wouldn’t
really leave me."
"You’re right
sweetie, I’ll never leave you, I’ll always be by your side. But for a little
while you aren’t going to be able to see me. I’ll always be there, just not in
the same way I usually am."
"Why not?" she
whimpered.
"Because baby, God
needs me in heaven. Guess who is here."
"Who?"
"Taylor."
"Our baby?"
"That’s right
sweetie, our baby that went to heaven. She is here and now I can take care of
her."
"Let me come with
you Brian, we can take of her together. Please!"
"Princess, we have
another baby coming that needs you there. You have to take care of our new
baby. Can you do that for me Manda?"
"I need your help
Brian, I can’t do this on my own."
"Yes you can, my
girl is strong, I know you can do it. Nick will help you, so will the other
guys, they promised me."
"I’m scared Brian,
I’m lost without you."
"I know you are
scared Manda, but you don’t have to be, Taylor and I will be here watching over
you and the new baby. I have to go now sweetheart, I’ll come back once more
when the new baby is born, I swear."
"Brian, NO, don’t
go, please NO!"
Brian leaned over and
pressed his lips to hers softly, "shh, be strong, I’ll see you again,
don’t worry. I Love You Princess, for now and forever. Good-bye."
"I Love You
Brian," she sobbed as he faded away, "I Love You."
"Oh, how I see your
star / Shinin down on me /And I'd do
anything / If I could just, be right
there where you are"
"Manda? Are you in
here?" Nick called, pushing the door open.
He saw her sitting
against the bed, staring out the window silently.
"Manda, are you
okay? Please talk to me."
"He’s not gone
Nick, he’s right here next to me," she whispered.
"Of course he is
honey, he’d never leave you, his spirit will always be with you."
"Let’s go
downstairs Nicky," she replied as he helped her to her feet.
"You sure kiddo?
You can lay down if you want."
"No, Brian would
want me to get up and go downstairs."
"Alright, let’s see
if we can’t find something to eat."
"You go ahead, I’ll
be there in a second."
Nick nodded and left the
room.
"Good-bye Brian,
I’ll miss you," she whispered to the room.
"I’ll miss you too
Princess," he whispered back.
"Baby I still
believe / Oh I gotta believe / I still believe / I will touch you that
sweet day"
Smiling for the first
time in nearly three days, she headed downstairs, turning to blow him one last
kiss before joining her friends downstairs.
Lyrics from "Where
You Are" performed by Jessica Simpson and Nick
Lachey
The End
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